"The flowers on Moshang are blooming, but they can return slowly." Bai Qiujing's voice was low, as if the words came out of his heart unconsciously, Shen Zhichu's heart ached when he heard such a warm sentence, blinking his eyes, Still can't help but have a sore nose.
Back in the bedroom, Shen Zhichu saw the divorce agreement on the bedside at a glance. She put the divorce agreement there when she left, and it was still in the original place when she came back.
The difference is that there are obvious creases on the pages, obviously because they have been turned over and over for a long time.
"You didn't throw it away?" Shen Zhichu felt a little guilty when he saw the divorce agreement he had signed.
Bai Qiujing shook his head: "I want to wait for you to come back and explain, what ifyou really want to leave?" After he finished speaking, the corners of his mouth rose with unresolved bitterness.
The few days when Shen Zhichu left without saying goodbye almost knocked him down. At that time, he almost killed him. While looking for someone, he thought of the worst two outcomes. If he finds Shen Zhichu, if Li Jingshen doesn't let him go, he will die with him.
But if he hasn't been found yet, and his body is dying, then he can only let Shen Zhichu go free, and he can't let this paper agreement hold her back.
Bai Qiujing never believed that Shen Zhichu would abandon him and go with others, he just didn't believe in his physical condition.
Shen Zhichu swallowed: "Why are you so stupid?"
"Because I am Bai Qiu."
It was the Bai Qiu who would only wait for you where he was and didn't dare to approach you. Bai Qiu's inferiority complex came from being stupid. At that time, everyone said that he was a fool and was not worthy of Shen Zhichu. He didn't even have the qualifications to approach her. He could secretly watch her not far away, and he couldn't even stand in front of him to protect her.
I have been stupid for fifteen or sixteen years, and my inferiority complex has sunk into my bones. The first time Bai Qiu saw Shen Zhichu was under the wisteria tree in the orphanage, a sense of familiarity came from his heart. He was holding a biscuit in his hand, isn't it? What a good thing, but it was his favorite in the orphanage. He had saved it for a long time, and when he saw her, he couldn't help but give her all the biscuits.
At that time, even the dean was shocked, just like the dean of the orphanage said, although Bai Qiu is stupid, he will never please others.
People are silly with a wildness, like a group of wild wolves, and they are very protective of food. It was the first time he gave food to a person he saw for the first time.
Just that one time, after Shen Zhichu left the orphanage, he didn't have her contact information, so he asked the director every day to call her, send text messages, and was in a hurry.
He only found out about Shen Zhichu's birthday on May 21st. The children in the orphanage had prepared gifts for her, but he didn't.
In addition to helping the dean with some farm work, cleaning, doing part-time jobs, and cleaning up rats regularly, he seems to know nothing.
The big cherries in May came out, each one was round and red, red was the best for Shen Zhichu, Bai Qiu wanted to make a pair of earrings for her, but one cherry was too little, so he made a bunch, which looked like candied haws.
The car that Shen Zhichu drove that day was still parked in the parking lot of the orphanage, and he wiped it every day to make sure there was no dust at all.
Waiting for someone while washing the car, and waiting for her again, it was two months later, summer was almost to autumn.
Shen Zhichu didn't come alone that day, she brought another man, who was her husband.
It turned out that she was married.
The dean laughed at him: "Don't think about it, you are a big fool, how could she like you, even if you are not stupid, you have no chance, do you know what her husband does? The richest man in Rongcheng, there is Qian Youyan, would a person who is used to a superior life pick up trash with you?"
The dean said a lot, but Bai Qiu listened to half of it at the time, probably meaning that he was not worthy.
Outsiders said that Shen Zhichu married a good husband, and her husband treated her very well.
But is this really the case?
Bai Qiu saw with his own eyes that Li Jingshen's eyes were full of contempt and supercilious.
Love should be equal, not superior.
After Shen Zhichu left that day, he never appeared again.
He knew too little about Shen Zhichu, he didn't even know that she was married, let alone what she did and where she lived.
All I knew was that she had acquaintances in the hospital, so she simply took up a part-time job in the hospital, and went to the hospital before dawn, even more diligent than the dog guarding the door.
He has never been so obsessed with one thing before, eager to come, eager to wait, even if people never take him into their eyes.
The more and more small biscuits were stored, the candy in his pocket couldn't fit, he was reluctant to eat it, and he couldn't find anyone to share it with.
Once a person becomes dependent, he is like a child in kindergarten waiting to be picked up.
He waited eagerly in the hospital, and finally Shen Zhichu came.
But Shen Zhichu's sentence "You are just a fool, there is no possibility between us." shattered the courage he had finally mustered up with joy.
People hate wild dogs that haunt people, even if they roll on the ground to reveal their soft belly, no one will kneel down and touch them.
To say that there is no depression, but the inferiority complex in my bones is even heavier.
Perhaps it is because he is too low self-esteem that he is a fool, and he has never had an obsession to return to normal.
It was an accident that he could recover his memory. After he chopped off Shen Xiuli's hand, he was afraid of being caught, so he didn't dare to go back to the orphanage, and hid outside until he was caught by a group of people and locked in a dark room.
His hands were broken, bullets pierced through his legs, and he didn't know how long he had suffered all kinds of torture. He couldn't tell the time, couldn't see the sun, and didn't even know it was dark or dawn.
Lu Tingchuan caught him and did a lot of drug experiments, one of which was a nerve-destroying drug, which was successfully tested on him.
And it was at that time that he recovered all his memories. He remembered that when he was nine years old, there was a little girl named Shen Zhichu lying on his back in the amusement park, licking candied haws and talking about marrying him.
Time flies so fast, the little girl who said she would marry him has grown into a slim young lady of the Shen family, so good-looking, even if he becomes a fool, he still can't help but love her.
It's a pity that he failed to bring Shen Zhichu back safely that time.
Now that Bai Qiu has become Bai Qiujing, the inferiority and cowardice that came from Bai Qiu is always there in his heart. Even though he later found out that Shen Zhichu likes him, he still can't help thinking, what if he becomes that fool who has nothing again? Can Shen Zhichu still be kept?
This time Shen Zhichu's departure made Bai Qiujing reflect on whether he was too weak and Shen Zhichu didn't believe that he could fight against Li Jingshen, so he chose to leave? Or did she feel that he couldn't protect her?
Bai Qiujing had a nightmare. In the dream, he could only see Shen Zhichu's back. He tried his best to chase her, but he couldn't catch up. He was out of breath, his chest was squeezed into a ball, as if squeezed out of his chest cavity all the air in it.
He stretched out his hand to grab Shen Zhichu, but when Shen Zhichu turned around, he got farther and farther away from him, and the endless cold wind passed through his fingers.
"Bai Qiujing, let's get a divorce"
"Shen Zhichu, don't leave me behind" I will work hard to be better, I will not let people bully you, I can protect you well, I am not the fool I used to be.
"Qiu Jing Ah Jing, wake up, you have a nightmare again."
Bai Qiujing has been having nightmares every day recently, and his nerves are extremely weak. When asked him what dreams he had, he didn't tell him what the dream was, but only knew to call "Shen Zhichu" by the name.
Sometimes Bai Qiujing would wake up by herself, and would sit on the edge of the bed blankly, neither sleeping nor talking, for an hour or two until Shen Zhichu found out.
Shen Zhichu told Bai Qiujing about Bai Qiujing's nightmare.
Bai Mu was silent for a while and said, "He often did this in the days when you disappeared. I thought he would be fine when you came back, but I didn't expect it to be like this."
"Has he ever had this before?"
"Yes, he was like this when we first brought him back, but it was more serious at that time, so serious that we had to hypnotize him to make him forget the past." Baimu thought of the past, with distressed expression on her face.
Looking at Shen Zhichu's dazed face, Bai Mu suppressed the worry in her heart and comforted Shen Zhichu, "Don't worry, Qiu Jing will be fine, he is just worried about losing you, and it won't be like this after a long time Yes, the night I went to pick you up, I was afraid that Li Jingshen would not let you go, he even prepared the explosives and put them in the trunk of the car."
At that time, Bai Qiujing was ready to fight with his life to die together, but his face was calm and no change in his heart could be seen. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com