Cicadas in summer can't survive the cold in winter, once you miss it, you will never meet again.
"What do you mean?" Li Jingshen's face was drenched by the rain, and his eyelashes were stained with drops of water. He looked at Shen Zhichu with half-closed eyes. No one noticed that his hands were trembling slightly, as if he was enduring something. Tight hands.
Shen Zhichu held an umbrella, full of sarcasm: "It means that I never thought of forgiving you from the very beginning, let alone seeing you, understand?"
Li Jingshen's lips trembled, the rain on his body didn't look like rain, it seemed like thousands of needles pricked his body, and there was no pain anywhere.
Zhao Qian told him last night that when Shen Zhichu lied to him, he had already guessed the result, but he didn't dare to face it, let alone admit it. What kind of confidence made him think that Shen Zhichu would really forgive him? Will you reconcile with him?
reconcile?
Why did he forget, he and Shen Zhichu made a mistake at the beginning, and they never got better.
A chill ran down his spine, slowly covering his entire back.
"You lied to me."
"Li Jingshen, who are you showing this hurt expression to? You are a person who can lie to a priest, why can't I just say it? You take yourself too seriously." Shen Zhichu shook his hand firmly Tighten the handle of the umbrella, "Go away!"
Li Jingshen didn't roll, stayed where he was, staring at Shen Zhichu with a hurt expression.
"Shen Zhichu, I really know that I was wrong. It's because I didn't know people clearly. I recognized the wrong person. I don't believe you. I really didn't know that you were the one who saved me back then. If I knew"
"So what if you know?" Shen Zhichu interrupted him, "You fell in love with me just because I saved you that year? Li Jingshen, this is not love. You are begging me to forgive you now, but because of the love in your heart. Bai Yueguang was ruined and came to find a sustenance to offset your guilt of killing people, Li Jingshen, you are still the same childish and paranoid, which makes me sick."
Li Jingshen shook his head, his heart seemed to be tied by a rope, his eyes were red, and he murmured: "It's not like this I really love you, not because of guilt Shen Zhichu, I don't ask you to stay in my house." By my side, I just ask you to give me a chance to be close to you, give me a chance to apologize and compensate you, as long as you want me to stay by your side, I promise you anything, I promise to treat you well, and never bully you again, Don't let you cry anymore, Shen Zhichu begs you to give me a chance, please!"
He finished speaking in one breath, breathing rapidly, coughing uncontrollably, covering his heart, leaning his body in the direction of Shen Zhichu.
Shen Zhichu took half a step back, only to hear a "bang¡ª¡ª", Li Jingshen knelt on the ground, not only his head but also knocked on the ground, kneeling in front of Shen Zhichu in the lowest posture.
Shen Zhichu's face did not change at all, as indifferent as before, his eyes moved down and finally landed on the top of Li Jingshen's hungry head.
She couldn't help but think of how he knelt in front of Li Jingshen and begged him to let the Shen family go.
She believed his words, but in the end, her family was ruined, and there was no more Shen family in Rongcheng.
Shen Zhichu took a step back and distanced himself from Li Jingshen: "Li JingshenI'm already thirty years old"Age" is not easy to deceive, I have long been familiar with your various tricks."
She has survived all the hardships alone, and she no longer expects to be with anyone. She looks down at the man kneeling on the ground with a numb expression and trembling body.
The way Li Jingshen knelt down would only remind her of the painful past, he was condescending and mocking her condescendingly.
"I'm not lying to you, I really can give you anything"
"But what you gave is exactly what I need the last." Suddenly thinking of something, Shen Zhichu slightly bent down and approached Li Jingshen, his pupils were as black as ink, "Li Jingshen, you want me to accept your apology, unless you are in the same pain as me, For example, die once, do you dare?"
Li Jingshen looked at Shen Zhichu's cold and emotionless eyes. In his impression, Shen Zhichu's eyes were still as clear and clear as water, and it shouldn't be that they were blackened with ink and had no light at all.
Li Jingshen felt his heart was twisted like a knife, the pain in his chest was getting worse and worse, he coughed repressedly, the corners of his lips were stained red with blood, he wanted to calm down, but Shen Zhichu stared at him ruthlessly and thought Can't even calm down.
Three years, more than a thousand days.
"Shen Zhichu, do you really have no feelings for me?" Li Jingshen showed a bitter smile, with tears in his eyes, uglier than crying.
Shen Zhichu closed the corners of his mouth, and said sarcastically, "Feelings? Are you worthy?"
Tears no longer flowed out uncontrollably, and the organs in the body convulsed as if a knife had been inserted.
Li Jingshen couldn't believe that such indifferent words came from Shen Zhichu's mouth. He knew Shen Zhichu, she was soft-hearted and easy to coax, as long as she was nicer to her, special, and sincere, she would follow others.
"Shen Zhichu, I don't believe that you don't have any feelings for me. We have known each other for so many years. Even though it was a mistake at the beginning, we have known each other for nine years and we have been together for seven years. I don't believe that you have no feelings for me. If there is no emotion, why is the 102-page diary all about me? If there is no emotion, how can you knit a scarf for me? If there is no emotion, how can you insist on cooking for me for four years and wait for me to go home?"
His eager voice was meant for Shen Zhichu, and he also wanted to get a confirmation that Shen Zhichu loved him.
Li Jingshen looked at Shen Zhichu in pain.
Shen Zhichu's ability to come back alive is already the best gift God has given him.
He knew that Shen Zhichu would be angry and would not forgive him.
What he thought of
But he is Li Jingshen, he cannot leave Shen Zhichu's Li Jingshen, he already understands the importance of Shen Zhichu, and he thinks Shen Zhichu should also understand his feelings for her.
Shen Zhichu said in a very calm tone: "Maybe, I loved you before, but I really didn't have any left. From the day I told you about the divorce, I no longer have feelings for you."
"Li Jingshen, I told you before that I'm not cheap. I can't be with you with peace of mind after you hurt me unscrupulously. Sometimes I'm really curious, how do you do it? To Xinanli, who came here to kneel and beg me, is there someone in the cemetery behind me, don't you feel guilty or afraid?" Shen Zhichu said with a smile.
Li Jingshen's breathing stagnated, and then became difficult. He couldn't find the strength to support himself.
Shen Zhichu really loved him, even if there was no "Bai Qiu" in the middle, she would have loved her, but he lost the Shen Zhichu who loved him.
He opened his mouth and coughed up a big mouthful of blood. He was completely lying on the ground, his back was drenched by rain, and a broken cry came from his throat. In the pit, my shoulders trembled uncontrollably, it was cold, why was it so cold, it was obviously summer.
Shen Zhichu glanced at the blood on the ground, and after a few seconds of silence, he walked around him with the umbrella in his hand tightly.
Li Jingshen caught sight of the slender figure from the corner of his eye. He was kneeling on the ground, unable to stand up due to the pain in his body, and crawled towards Shen Zhichu's back with his hands supporting his body.
"Shen Zhichu Zhichudon't godon't go"
Li Jingshen raised his hand to grab Shen Zhichu's hand, but she dodged it, his hand only caught the rain from the sky, the wind passed through his palm, he squeezed his fingers together, the one he wanted to grab If he didn't catch it, Shen Zhichu who came back was like the wind, he couldn't catch the wind, and he couldn't catch her either.
Shen Zhichu didn't even turn her head this time, she turned her back to Li Jingshen: "Li Jingshen, you look like a dog crying and begging for help, very ugly."
Li Jingshen really couldn't hold on this time, he fell to the ground like a dead body, he was limp on the ground like a dead body, his heart was broken, his heart felt like a knife was twisted, he stared at Shen Zhichu's indifferent back, his eyes became more and more The more blurred it became, the blood flowed down from the corner of his mouth as if it couldn't stop.
It turns out that when a person¡¯s heart is dead, they don¡¯t feel pain, as if their senses are sealed by ice, from the dull pain at the beginning to the numbness now, like the unreal feeling that the anesthetic has not faded after a major operation feel.
He thought that God had given him a chance to love when Shen Zhichu came back alive, but he didn't want to think that this was the mistake God made when punishing him for not being able to love back then.
The most cruel thing is not the passing of two people who reunited after a long absence, but the intimacy that was once implanted in the bone marrow, which has become the indifference that will never move again.
In the end, he stared at the scar on his palm with dead eyes, and it turned out that the kite string did not return to his hand. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com