I am Cao Ziye. "Passengers, the plane is about to take off. Please turn off your mobile devices and fasten your seat belts" I watched the plane's landing gear slowly retract, and a feeling of helplessness emerged in my heart. I'm going to England, I'm leaving my hometown. Looking back on the past, it seems that I have always been very indifferent to the concept of family members. I admire my father, but he always treats me coldly. I love my mother, but she sometimes longs to be close to me and sometimes hates me being close to her. I like my cousinbut he was the biggest shadow in my childhood. One afternoon in the third grade of elementary school, the school suddenly had something to do and asked to be dismissed early. I came home early and unexpectedly found my cousin in the bedroom who was having an affair with my mother. The scene I saw through the crack in the door simply shocked me. My cousin¡¯s lower body, which was many times thicker than mine, was looming in and out of my mother¡¯s lower body. My mother kept moaning and screaming, with a coquettish look on her face. "Am I as good as Cao Jun?" My cousin pinched my mother's breasts with a triumphant smile on his face: "Little bitch, tell me, who do you like?" My mother shook her head randomly and said, "You are good. , I like you more Cousin, please hurry up!" The cousin smiled wickedly: "I also know that I am powerful, otherwise, you wouldn't give me a son, right?" "Yes!" I didn't yell or speak. I retreated little by little and kept walking on the road with my schoolbag on my back. At that time, my brain didn't think anything was wrong, I just felt like I didn't want to talk. It wasn¡¯t until the usual time after school that I walked home little by little. My mother returned to her usual virtuous self. She carefully prepared dinner for me and my dad, and asked me slightly reproachfully: "Why are you back so late? I heard Jingjing from the opposite door had already finished school." I was cold. She said, "Just take a walk." Although my mother was scolding me, I felt like she was relieved. Although I didn¡¯t mention the scene I saw through the crack in the door to my mother, I didn¡¯t like to talk at all Or maybe I didn¡¯t like to talk. I'm just worried that as soon as I open my mouth to speak, I can't help but tell my dad everything I know. The father I have always admired and respected is always peaceful and tolerant towards others. He himself is a decent man, so he never imagined that my mother would commit incest with her cousin behind his back. My eyesight began to get worse and worse, which also made me very scaredAm I not my father's son? Could I be my cousin's son? I am nearsighted. Is it caused by having children from close relatives? Finally one day, I was tortured mentally and physically by my own worries. As a last resort, I stole the key to my mother¡¯s safe. There were real estate certificates, cash and gold bars in the safe. Although I didn¡¯t find what I wanted, I unexpectedly found information about a girl. The information is neatly packed in a portfolio, and the content above is very detailed. The girl mentioned in it is called He Xinliang, and her birthday is not different from mine. Everything was included, from her place of birth to recent circumstances What surprised me most was that the information included a paternity test between her and my father! 99.997%she is my father's biological daughter. I couldn¡¯t believe what I saw, just like I couldn¡¯t believe that my father had an illegitimate daughter. Could it be that my father knows that I am not his son? Could it be that my dad is actually just as lewd and lewd as my cousin? Impossible, I don¡¯t believe it. I carefully collected the information and continued my life as if nothing had happened. I try hard to keep my life as it is, I try hard to read and write, I try to be the best in every subject, I try hard to make my parents proud of having me as their child But all my efforts are due to the arrival of He Xinliang And become worthless. My dad said, Midnight, Xinliang is your sister, you have to take good care of her. My mother said, Midnight, that girl¡¯s origins are unknown, you should stay away from her. My parents have serious differences of opinion. How can I avoid disappointing them? I dealt with He Xinliang indifferently, and she had no interest in me. We rarely talked, we just went to and from school together. What makes me feel sad is that she never takes the initiative to mention to outsiders that she is my sister. He Xinliang's cautiousness makes me feel very guilty. No matter how my mother warns me about He Xinliang But no matter what, He Xinliang will always be my sister. In a way, she is as innocent and pitiable as me. So, on Christmas Eve when I knew she might be kidnapped, I was so anxious that I forgot to bring my glasses and ran out in the snow to look for her. I walked back to the alley along the road, and no one was there anymore. There was thick snow on the ground, as if nothing had happened here just now. After walking around the school wall a few times, I couldn't find He Xinliang. Not to mention, I was quite useless and lost. Walking and asking questions all the way, I almost felt my way back home. When I got home, I saw her taking off her shoes at the door, and I breathed a sigh of relief. I had a cold, so I just wanted to go to bed when I got home. Unexpectedly, I heard a whimpering sound, mixed with the sound of the wind, which made people feel even more desolate on the snowy night. I stumbled over again and knocked on the door of He Xinliang¡¯s room next door. Sure enough, she wasn¡¯t sleeping either. "Young master, why are you pretending to be stupid? Didn't you see it in the alley just now! I know, you look down on me! Having a sister like me will only affect your certificate and embarrass you! But! Please rest assured that the only good thing about my life, He Xinliang, is that I am very self-aware and don¡¯t go around talking nonsense about our relationship.¡± Her words made me wake up from a dream. I have been waiting for her to disclose our relationship to others, but I ignored it. If I didn't give her affirmation, how could she do it herself? The next day I took He Xinliang to school. I told everyone that she was my sister, and I used my immature methods to help her solve problems For the first time in my life, I felt that I was so loved. Need and recognition. My mother knew that I hit someone at school, and she was extremely angry: "Cao Ziye, why are you so disobedient? Mom said she wouldn't let you take care of her, why do you still have to take care of her?" I said nothing with a cold face. My mother cursed angrily, opened the door angrily and left. My dad didn¡¯t know about this, or maybe, like many things, he just pretended not to know. As I grow older, I feel more and more that many things are not as simple as they seem. Just like my dad, just like my mom, just like my cousin. I can¡¯t guess it, and I don¡¯t want to guess it anymore. Because of He Xinliang, my life has become noisy. Apart from her, I have no time to care about anything else. "Brother, how about we go eat ice cream after school?" "Brother, how about we go see a movie on the weekend?" "Brother, I heard that there is a bookstore with the latest" Because of He Xinliang, my life has changed Become simple and vivid. He Xinliang is very straightforward and simple. She just likes to pester me, annoy me, and make trouble with me. That¡¯s good. He Xinliang always has nightmares at night, and the nightmares torture her to the point of screaming and struggling uneasily. My sleep quality is relatively poor. In order to wake up in the middle of the night, I can only take the trouble to set the alarm clock and get up late to check on her. Sometimes I don¡¯t have time to go back to the room, so I have to sleep in the same bed with her. Looking at her face, I always feel very confused. How could she get out of the shadow of family upheaval so quickly? As for me, the incest incident between my cousin and my mother has tortured me for too many years and I have not been able to get relief. I envy her, feel sorry for her, and pity her At the same time, I am also afraid of her. With every touch and approach, I faintly felt a desire for He Xinliang's body. I told myself that I could no longer sleep with her at night. Otherwise, I really don¡¯t know what I would have done. But just when I kept suppressing the strong desire in my heart, He Xinliang took the initiative to kiss me. One gloomy summer morning, she secretly kissed me while I was sleeping. In an instant, all my desires surged out. If my mother hadn¡¯t come in in time, I really can¡¯t imagine what I would have done to her. The scene of He Xinliang kissing me was very irritating to my mother. She reiterated her point of view: "Cao Ziye, stay away from He Xinliang! Don't do this kind of thing with her again." !" I replied to her with a cold face: "My dad said that He Xinliang is my sister and I have to take care of her. I can't leave her. "My dad told you that?" He muttered ugly: "That shameless Cao Jun actually told my son all this stuff" Naturally, my dad would not tell me that He Xinliang is my biological sister. In fact, since He Xinliang, After Xinliang came to the house, my dad rarely talked to me. "I don't care what your father told you, you are not allowed to talk to that He Xinliang in the future!" "Mom!" I called her, and finally asked what I had been doubting for many years: "Am I my father's son, or am I my father's son? My cousin¡¯s son?¡± My mother¡¯s body trembled slightly, but she quickly regained her composure and replied coldly.??, said: "Since you already know, I am not hiding it from you. Your cousin is your father." Hearing this answer, I didn't even feel sad at all. My cousin is my father, so that's fine. At the very least, He Xinliang and I are no longer brothers and sisters. In this way, I can take care of her for a lifetime. I want to take care of He Xinliang for the rest of my life. This idea is simply natural. If I don't take care of her for the rest of her life, what will she do? Although she looks like someone who is not easy to mess with, she is actually very easy to bully. ¡°Besides, I won¡¯t let anyone else take care of her except me. A woman without a man to rely on will eventually be bullied. Like my mother, she has the support of my father and cousin, and no one has ever dared to bully her. And He Xinliang is a girl who needs someone to accompany her even when she sleeps. She needs someone to take care of her even more. She is not my sister, so I can love her and kiss her openly. If we are together, it won't be considered incest like my mother and cousin. Since I was a child, this is the first time that I don¡¯t feel sad because I am not Cao Jun¡¯s son. He Xinliang is not my biological sister, I feel very satisfied.