It was almost midnight when the two of them took turns to take a shower and clean up. When Zheng Zeyun came out of the bathroom, he saw Shen Yishu sitting on the bed with his legs bent and writing something. He also held a slender lady's cigarette between the index and middle fingers of his left hand. He burned a small section and smoked. Floating upwards.
"When did you learn to smoke?"
A question with a strong sense of dissatisfaction came from the side. Shen Yishu stopped writing, raised his head, shook off the ashes of his cigarette in a hurry, and said: "When I was alone in Japan, I was not addicted and I didn't smoke much. People always smoke. To rely on"
"Stop smoking." Interrupting Shen Yishu's excuse, Zheng Zeyun came over and took the cigarette from her hand and extinguished it in the ashtray, "Didn't you say that you would be like Hyde who still sings when there are half a hundred people?"
※Then do you know that Hyde has been smoking for many years? Shen Yishu wanted to say this, but considering that Zheng Zeyun was also doing it for her own good, he swallowed all the words.
As she said, she is not addicted to cigarettes, and she deliberately hid it, so the members have not discovered it until now. They just want to smell it sometimes, so they carry cigarettes and matches with them. After coming to Japan, she had many moments when she felt lonely but couldn't express her feelings, so she followed other people's example and relied on smoking to relieve herself. When you are harassed by drunks on the show, when you are afraid of drifting away from the members, when you are questioned by fans in private messages, when you are labeled as an artist but cannot write anything, when you can no longer vent your stress by self-harm, She would secretly light a cigarette and watch it burn down slowly. She only smoked it very rarely, otherwise it would not have taken her half a year to learn it.
As for whether smoking ruins the voice, it actually depends on the person. Some singers smoke and drink all their lives without affecting the function of their vocal cords. But she is still an idol at this stage, and it will definitely damage her good image if she is exposed. And if he doesn't like it, then She won't do it.
"I know, I won't do anything I don't want me to do."
Shen Yishu raised his smile again, put the pen and paper aside, opened his hands, and motioned for him to hug her: "Hug me, literally."
Zheng Zeyun leaned down and hugged her, as if he was afraid that she would disappear again, he hugged her tightly and was unwilling to let go, his chest was against his chest, and his heartbeat was almost synchronized.
He didn't want to let go, so she simply talked to him in this posture: "I know that we both have deep feelings for each other, so I feel that there are some very practical things that I want to tell you now so that you can make an early decision. You don't want to Speak and just listen to me.§
"Although we like each other, you will not be my master, and I will not be your Ou. I just chatted a few words with the store owner in the video store. I had no idea of ??getting married before I was 30 years old. It may not happen in the future, but I will work hard to maintain and stabilize this relationship. Please believe in this determination."
"Marriage is a possible option, but childbirth is not. I have said before that it is enough for the person I love to just look at me, and this idea has not changed until now. I know your family is very traditional, and I know Your parents hope that you can get married and have children like ordinary people in the future. If you decide to be with me for a long time, please be prepared to have no children until you die. Even if you get pregnant unexpectedly in the future, I will only choose to abort it. I am not the kind of person who naturally develops motherhood just because there is an embryo in the body, you should know this."
"There is nothing else." Shen Yishu said, and after thinking about it, he added, "There is nothing else now."
"You are so cold." Zheng Zeyun said, of course not referring to the two things Shen Yishu said. He had long known how much she avoided marriage and childbirth, but just now she was flirting with each other, and in the blink of an eye, he was removed from her. Pulling it out of tenderness and throwing it into reality, but this is exactly her style of acting and what Shen Yishu would do.
"I take it as a compliment." Shen Yishu accepted it all, "I can't do it like the Japanese or Koreans and not go out to work after getting married. There is a high probability that I will become like my parents. For those who put their family second for their career, if you are with me, it will be difficult to build a normal family. This is a problem that must be faced. It is better to think about it now than to suffer later."
"If you are unwilling and unable to let go, then we will keep this status"
He quickly covered her mouth to prevent her from saying the next few words.
The eyelashes twitched several times in succession. Shen Yishu opened his eyes wide with confusion. Zheng Zeyun glanced at her speechlessly: "You can really say anything."
Shen Yishuos: I am just providing a feasible idea.
"That doesn't exist. If it were you, I would accept it." He sat down next to her. "I'm actually very happy that you can consider this. It means that you are willing to have a future with me. It doesn't matter whether you get married or have children. Okay, if you want to do it, do it. If you don*t want to do it, don*t do it. What I love is you, not your uterus. If you are still worried about something unexpected, I can go for a sterilization."
Shen Yishu:? ? !
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Some content is really difficult to write. Once I write it, I*m still blocked. I*m tired of it.
Master (仄文元氏), Japanese Kanji, literally means the head of the family, but by default the male is the person with the highest status in the family, so it means husband when translated.
今氏, wife, 今氏 means deep, and 今氏 means "the person who is stored in the depths", so Shen Shucai said, "You will not be my [Master], and I will not be your [Ou今氏]", Chapter 1 The dialogue is mainly to foreshadow Shen Shu*s disagreement with the strong sense of male superiority and female inferiority in Japanese, as well as her own thoughts on gender relations.
There was originally a funny meme about sterilization that I wanted to write, but I deleted it later. Let*s give Lao Zheng an Outstanding Male Durban Graduate Award.
Regarding Weibo, because I cleared all the data after flashing the phone, I was prompted to bind my mobile phone number before I can log in (I also want to kill the big-eyed guy today). I am not allowed to change my account, but the new account seems to be unsearchable because the weight is too low. Come to me, just come to me in the comment section of the latest Weibo post of @陝痯 has been occupied. Follow me as you like.
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