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Chapter 456 Half of my life has been spent in solitary sleep

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    Half my life has been spent in solitary sleep, with sandalwood scars on the mountain pillow.

    What will happen at the end of life?

    I am not willing to close my eyes, and I am not willing to leave this world like this.

    I still have many, many, unfulfilled wishes.

    I haven't yet, I heard him tell me personally that he has me in his heart, I haven't yet, I heard him say that he cares about me.

    I have not gone through all the beautiful scenery that I have been thinking about.

    However, life is not always satisfactory.

    Everything I have experienced may be doomed.

    There will always be some regrets in life.

    The mother's gentle voice sounded outside the door, "Yi'er, Young Master Xiao just grilled fish, would you like to get up and eat some?"

    I replied, "I don't want to eat, I can just eat these pastries."

    I really want to sit with them, eat grilled fish and chat.

    But now my vision has become more and more blurred.

    The mother called again, "Yi'er, get up and eat something. Mr. Xiao and Su Ji decided to leave. From now on, you won't be able to eat such delicious grilled fish."

    When I heard this sentence, a smile appeared on the corner of my mouth.

    very nice.

    After all, it was Xiao Qingyu who took Su Ji away.

    This is the best ending.

    It's just a pity, Su Ji, I'm afraid I won't see the day you marry him.

    All of you are well.

    Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, my mother called again, "Yi'er?"

    When I heard her call, I quickly responded, "Say something to Su Ji for me, tell her to take care of herself, I'm a little sleepy, and I'm going to sleep, so I won't eat."

    I didn't hear my mother's answer, but I heard the sound of my door being opened.

    Mother seemed to come to my side, "Yi'er, don't sleep anymore, you have been asleep for a long time, get up."

    I opened my eyes and saw her dimly, "Mother, why did you come in?"

    The mother said in a deep voice, "I'll come in and have a look at you."

    "Yi'er, go out for a walk, stay in the house all the time, it's not good."

    I smiled lightly and said, "Okay, then I'll go outside for a walk."

    My mother helped me to stand up, but luckily I hadn't taken off my hat just now.

    When the sun shines on my face, I can still feel the tenderness of this world.

    My vision is blurred, I can only see the shadows dimly, and I can tell who they are.

    I made it to the swing, listening to the chirping of the birds, and feeling the gentleness of the breeze blowing on my face.

    How beautiful the peach blossoms are in March, this is my favorite time of the year.

    Accompanied by peach blossoms, there is also a breeze.

    The mother whispered, "Yi'er, your master called me, I'll go over and see what's going on."

    I nodded, with a quiet smile on my face, and said softly, "Okay."

    I sat alone on the swing, recalling the past years.

    I remember that the first time I met Xu Zhishi was in March like this.

    That March was also beautiful, but I didn't expect that a person's life can be so short.

    Along the way, many people came and went, and some people never came back after leaving.  Could it be that when I close my eyes completely, I can meet those people who left early again.

    Take a walk first, perhaps the real meaning is to see less of the scenery in the world.

    Let's go for a while, maybe for me, I just missed a few peach blossoms.

    Burying Xueyan will eventually take my life away, and I simply don't have the strength to fight against fate.

    It was terminal illness that came to me, it was death that came to me.

    I don't have the right to choose.

    Listening to the sound of the wind blowing quietly through the treetops, I feel unprecedented tranquility. Perhaps at this time, I also have a moment of happiness.

    "Anan, are you okay?"

    Maybe one day you will know of my death, maybe one day you will feel sorry for me.

    But you must not shed tears, promise me, okay?

    If you were crying, but I couldn't wipe your tears away, how powerless and uncomfortable I would be.

    I only hope that the carrier pigeon carrying the news of my death will fly a little slower, so that you won't be so?Know that I am dead.

    Time seems to be a single-plank bridge for one person, I don't know what the people around me are doing, I can't see their figures, and I can't hear their voices.

    I sat on the swing alone and called their names softly, but no one answered me.

    Where did they all go?  Where did they all go?

    Are they all gone?  Did they all leave while I was asleep?  But I didn't hear their farewell?  Or did I fall asleep when they said goodbye to me?

    But I hope, this time they are all gone.

    This is the best.

    In this way, they will not be able to see what I will look like after death.

    I don't want to let them know that I suffer from Zong Xueyan because I'm afraid they will waste their efforts to cure me.

    I'm afraid they'll feel sad because they can't cure me.

    But I am more afraid, I am more afraid, they will know what is the way to save me.

    I don't want them to know.

    I can't let another person die to save me.

    I can't let others use their own spirit to save me.

    Death is not terrible, the most terrible thing is the life owed to others.

    So I have to pretend, I have to pretend that nothing has happened to me, I have to pretend that I am fine, and there is nothing abnormal about me.

    I can't let them see my gray hair, and I can't let them find that my eyes are blind.

    All in all, I can't let them know that I have a burial face.

    I can't let them know that I'm dying.

    Let them all go, as long as they all go.

    They are all gone, and I can close my eyes in peace.

    I can forget everything, and finally I don't have to be so tired anymore.

    I can finally stop thinking about so many things, and finally stop worrying about future dangers.

    I can finally leave this world.

    I want to sleep well.

    The spring breeze in March is warm and soft, are you seeing me off?

    I hope that this year's peach blossoms will be more beautiful.

    Today's crops will also grow better than in previous years, and the people in this world must get better and better.

    I also hope that fewer people die.

    The world is very beautiful and beautiful, and there must always be enough people to protect this beauty.

    For ourselves, for our family and friends, for strangers who don't know each other, and for future generations.

    But this time, I have to leave first.

    I don't have the strength to open my eyes anymore, and I don't have the strength to call their names again.

    They should have all left

    Everything will be fine.

    I am going to find my father and brother.

    In the long peach blossom forest, I seem to see the figures of my father and elder brother.

    They came to pick me up and left.

    In my brother's hand, it seems that I still hold the pearl hairpin that I gave me before, as if I have returned to the past.

    Father smiled at me.

    He smiled very gently, father, if you were always so gentle in the past, how wonderful it would be

    Of all the time, what I miss the most is the days in the Prime Minister's Mansion.

    That's where I grew up, that's my home.

    There are my dear relatives, and there are all the memories of my childhood.

    Half my life has been spent in solitary sleep.

    This half of life, no matter whether it is ups and downs, is finally at the end.

    This time, I know that I will sleep forever.

    After all, it's time to close your eyes.

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