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Chapter 393: Rain

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    I can understand, understand his state of mind when he was young.

    It is also possible to understand that he is slowly changing along the way.

    He continued, "Xu Lingyun has already lost a lot, and all the things he should have have fallen on me. The love of mother and concubine should belong to his fate, it really belongs to him  The mother's concubine's love should have been given to Xu Lingyun unreservedly. But Xu Lingyun never got anything from the beginning to the end. Perhaps, if Xu Lingyun could get these things since he was a child, he could get his mother's concubine since he was a child.  If he loves his concubine, he will not become so violent and ruthless now, his temper will not become so strange, and he will not become so indifferent. Concubine mother is a very gentle and gentle woman.  She taught me a lot. However, these loves do not belong to me. Sometimes, I always feel that I owe Xu Lingyun a lot. I always feel that I have taken away what should belong to him. Now  What happened to Xu Lingyun, I also feel that I am also responsible."

    I shook my head lightly, and said, "Anan, you shouldn't blame these things in the first place. These things are beyond your control. It was like this back then, and it's like this now. It's just like you  It doesn't matter, you don't have to blame yourself so much."

    Xu Zhishi continued, "But if I hadn't appeared in Cang Ran's palace, he would still be the mother and concubine's own flesh and blood, and the concubine would not have sent Xu Lingyun to other palaces in order to keep me. If I hadn't  If you come here, it will be Xu Lingyun who has won the love of my mother and concubine these years."

    As soon as his voice fell, I said, "These are things that you can't make a choice in the first place. Since the empress Liangchen made such a choice back then, she made all the plans. Besides, Xu Lingyun has had a good time these years.  Isn't it pretty good. It's just that his personality has become like this. In fact, Xu Lingyun has also received maternal love over the years. Anan, you really don't have to blame yourself for this. He has become what he is now, he  Becoming so cold and ruthless really has nothing to do with you."

    Xu Zhishi turned his head sideways, met my eyes, and suddenly smiled gently, "So, since you can persuade me like this, why can't you persuade yourself like this? Aren't these two things the same?  Is it?"

    I was surprised and said, "You just said so much, but you are actually trying to persuade me?"

    Xu Zhishi said slowly, "I was afraid that you would always feel guilty because of A Ji's affairs, so I came up with this method. Yi'er, since you know the truth, why can't you persuade yourself like that."

    Ah Nanit turns out that you just said so much, you just said that you want to tell this story, but it was just to persuade me.

    It turns out that you were just trying to persuade me

    I hid my smile in my heart and whispered, "Anan, thank you"

    Anan, thank you for taking so much trouble for me. In this way, I at least know that you care about me

    At least I know that you may have a place for me in your heart.

    At least, I feel that maybe I still have a little hope.

    It seems that the rain is about to fall on my side.

    "You don't need to thank me, these are what I should do. I know you are always troubled by this matter, but I can't do anything, but there is nothing I can do now."

    "It's okay, I will slowly adjust my emotions."

    These things, myself, will be well adjusted.

    I know, if it is God's will, how can I go against the sky.

    I know, there is nothing I can do.

    "Yi'er, you are able to persuade me like this, and I hope you can persuade yourself like this. There are some things that we have no way to change. If you have to worry about those things, if you have to worry about those things,  That can only increase troubles in vain, increase worries in vain.¡±

    I know, Anan, I know what you said.

    Anyone can understand these truths, and anyone can speak out these truths.  I can tell you these truths, but I can't persuade myself.

    Some things are easy to say, but they are simply impossible to do.

    I can persuade you, I can tell you that you should let go of all that, I can persuade you that you should not care so much, I can persuade you that those things have nothing to do with you, but I can't  Say that.

    In my own heart, those things started because of me.

    If there is no me, there will be no postSo many things have happened, without me, she would not have ended up like this.

    Without me, nothing would happen today.

    These things are all caused by me, how can I let myself completely let go.

    If A Ji died in the palace, I'm afraid I will never forgive myself in my life.

    I whispered, "Anan, it's okay. Now we just do our best to do what we can, and leave the rest to God."

    I will not act against the sky, nor do I have the strength to act against the sky.

    Xu Zhishi said gently, "Yi'er, as long as you don't keep blaming yourself like this, these things really have nothing to do with you. You should slowly let yourself go, and you should slowly persuade yourself, don't let this  Something has been bothering you."

    I smiled slowly and said, "Anan, don't worry, I will get better slowly."

    Although I don't know it myself, I don't know how to do it myself

    I don't know when I can let go of all this, I don't know, if she really dies here, what will happen to me

    I said again, "It's okay, she hasn't died here yet, isn't she still alive now, maybe the imperial doctor can save Ah Ji, maybe she won't die here.  Maybe all the things we're worried about now won't happen."

    Maybe, this world will land on my side hope.

    Maybe, she will be fine.

    It is meaningless for us to worry here now, and it is also useless.

    Anan said, "You're right, maybe the imperial doctor really saved Ah Ji, Yi'er, don't worry about her, don't worry about this matter, just leave it to me.  "

    I looked at him, and said slowly, "A'nan, you are always like this, you obviously have so many things to do every day, and you still have to be busy with those things in the court every day, how can you have time to take care of these things.  Anan, don't worry so much. Don't worry, I can do these things. Those things in the court are already busy enough for you. Sometimes you really don't need to make yourself so tired. You can rest assured about these things  Leave it to me. Sometimes, you should let yourself relax. Don¡¯t impose everything on yourself, don¡¯t carry everything by yourself.¡±

    You are always like this, no matter what it is, you carry it alone.  (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com
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