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Chapter 177 Forget

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    However, how long will it take me to forget him?

    Why?

    Why I know better than anyone else that he doesn't love me, but I can't always erase his figure.

    Even I can't even shed tears.

    In my heart, it seems that I have been habitually sad.

    His figure seems to be all in my memory. I have no way to forget him, but the more I miss him, the sadder and more painful I am.

    I want to see him, but every time I see him, I sink into deeper pain and sorrow.

    I want to talk to him, but I don't even have the qualifications to talk to him.

    He is him and I am me.

    I am someone he does not love and will never love.

    Jiang Yixing called me softly, but he stopped suddenly, "Yi'er."

    I looked at him and responded softly, "What's wrong?"

    "Hmm" He seemed to want to say something, Jiang Yixing's eyes fell on the stone beside him, and he whispered, "Didn't you just say that you want to get some air?"

    I responded lightly, "Yes, I'm going there to get some fresh air, what's the matter?"

    Jiang Yixing frowned slightly, as if sad, as if sad, "But, butYi'er, did you know he was there?"

    I replied softly, "I don't know."

    How would I know that Xu Zhishi was there too?

    Maybe if I knew he was there, I wouldn't have gone there.

    After all, when I go there, it will only increase my sadness and sadness.

    When I saw him, it only made me sadder.

    A little sad, even time can't heal it.

    Jiang Yixing's voice was intermittent, as if he had suddenly made up his mind, he said, "Yi'er, I know, I have no right to control you, but you really shouldn't have any contact with that Cang Nanjia king."

    I was stunned for a moment, why didn't I know what he said?

    I shouldn't have any divorce with Xu Zhishi.

    In my heart, it is clear.

    But Mingxuan, I can't control myself at all. I want to let myself not think about him and those things in the past, but the more I don't want to think about it, the more I miss it.

    Today, maybe I can control myself not to be sad, keep myself busy all day, let myself have no time to think.

    But maybe after a day, maybe a few days like this, I will fall into sudden miss again.

    This is how people are, habitually sad, habitually sad, habitually keeping themselves from touching the memories hidden in their hearts.  However, it is hard to forget.  Even let yourself be tortured by these unforgettable memories.

    Just like me, just like Leng Chenshuang, just like Ludou.

    I looked at Jiang Yixing, and there seemed to be some worry and sadness in his eyes.

    He was worried about me, he was worried that I would be sad if I met Xu Zhishi and Xu Zhishi again.

    Jiang Yixing, you have always stayed by my side, we have gone through so many things together, such a long way.  You have saved me so many times, no matter how many times my life is in danger, you will always be by my side.  In the high walls of Jinxiu Palace, on the battlefield outside the gate of Chang'an, under Qiongqi's minions.

    However, you have saved me so many times, but I have nothing to repay you.

    I lowered my eyes and whispered, "Mingxuan, I know I shouldn't talk to him, but I, I don't know why I did that."

    "Yi'er, you" Jiang Yixing raised his hand, lingered in the air for a moment and then lowered it.

    Jiang Yixing turned around and stopped looking at me. I stared at his back in a daze alone, not knowing what to say.

    Jiang Yixing said softly, "Yi'er, if you want to cry, just cry, okay?"

    I want to cry, yeah, I want to cry.

    But how can I cry?

    My tears seemed to be spinning in my eyes, as if they were about to flow out the next moment, but my eyes just wouldn't let them fall.

    Tears made my eyes sore and sore all the time.

    However, I didn't have the courage to cry.

    I really want to cry loudly, I really want to cry freely.

    But I can't, I can't cry.

    There are many, many people in this place, and he is stillBehind me, I can't cry out loud.

    They will worry about me, they will be afraid that something will happen to me.

    I looked at Jiang Yixing's back, in a daze alone.

    He stood right in front of me, but seemed to be far away from me.

    I don't know what he's thinking now, and I don't know what I'm thinking.

    It seems that we are all orphans abandoned by love.

    I suppressed the sadness in my heart and said in a low voice, "Mingxuan, I'm fine."

    I'm fine, I know nothing.

    Didn't I go through this kind of sadness once or twice?

    I have been sad so many times, why should I be sad.

    Jiang Yixing still turned his back to me, his deep voice sounded, "Yi'er, you, you still can't forget him, right?"

    Yes, how can I forget him, what should I do to forget him?

    From the moment I first met her.  At Apple Blossom, he was training horses.

    I just looked at him from afar, as if from that moment on, I will never forget that figure in my memory.

    I can't help it, and I can't control myself.  Later in the mansion, I saw him again, what a joyful thing that was.

    He is the general of the Wei Kingdom, and I am the Queen of the Wei Kingdom.  When we met again later, it was already in the deep palace.

    He just appeared in front of the crabapple flowers. The crabapple has no fragrance, but his body has a faint peach blossom fragrance.  That smell, I found out later, was reserved for her.  It turned out that the taste belonged exclusively to her.

    Bai Hua is undoubtedly lucky, but in this world, how many people are as lucky as her.

    I envy her, I envy her that she can easily get everything I dream of.

    But there are always some people in this world who are destined not to get those things.

    There are always some people who cannot be loved.

    I clearly felt my voice trembling, "Mingxuan, I don't."

    I don't¡­¡­

    My voice is getting lower and lower, so low that I can hardly hear it.

    Jiang Yixing turned around slowly, there seemed to be infinite sadness in his brows, his voice was intermittent, sometimes heartbreaking, sometimes worrying, "Yi'er No matter what, we will be together in the future  By your side, okay?"

    I know, I know you are always by my side, I am very grateful to have met you, very grateful very grateful.

    However, in my heart, it seemed like a piece was missing.

    His indifference made me feel like I had lost something.

    In the past in Jinxiu Palace, he would care about me. At that time, I thought that at least in his eyes, I would still be different from others.

    But I was wrong, I walked in the most ordinary door in this vast crowd.

    I whispered, "I'm fine, I'm really fine, Mingxuan, I'm really fine."

    I just forced myself not to touch those memories anymore.

    But most of the time, I don't even have the chance.

    I can't even bear to forget.

    Jiang Yixing said softly, "Yi'er, I know you are sad, and I know and understand your feelings for him, but he is the pale King of Nanjia, who attacked together outside the gate of Chang'an that day."  (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com
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