"I have been going to school, going to school, and then graduating from college. I have to find a job to support myself. Then I found a few jobs and naturally entered such an industry. I have been working hard, and then I was promoted and became a manager." What I said is very simple, but for me, there is a kind of loneliness.
In fact, after working for the past few years, I feel more and more boring in life. The life of three o'clock and one line every day is not what I want, but I can't choose. I need a job, a job that allows me to live a happy life. Very decent, liveable work. As for whether I like it or not, it doesn't matter anymore.
"Then do you like it?" She suddenly quieted down and looked at me quietly.
"I can't say whether I like it or not. I can only say that it is for making ends meet." I smiled awkwardly. After working for so long, I have increasingly found that I have no passion. Every job is very familiar, and there is no Challenging, you don't need to use your brain much to complete the current work. And the boss didn't plan to promote me, he seemed willing to see me like this, so after working hard for a year, I gave up and became my own manager with peace of mind.
"Then you are so pitiful." Li Nan shook her head.
"Why are you so pitiful?"
"You think, it's too pitiful that you do something you don't like to do just to make ends meet. Don't you think it's a pity that a person can't do what he likes all his life?"
Hearing Li Nan's words, I laughed, "Nan Nan, you are still too young, after you live a little longer, you will know why. People are in the rivers and lakes and cannot help themselves. If you can't even survive, How can I realize my dream?"
"But if you don't lay the foundation for your dreams when you are young, what do you use to realize your dreams? Life is too short. You see, I am so old in just a few days. Alas, I won't be young in a few years. Poor, there is also you, Xiao Fei, you are already thirty, if this should be considered as the age of knowing destiny in the past, right?" As soon as she said that, I almost fainted.
"I'm only thirty years old. Thirty years old is not confusing. How about reading some books when you have time"
She blinked her big innocent eyes, not aware of her mistake at all, "That's not true. In my case, if a man loses passion at the age of thirty, he knows his destiny!"
"Huh?" I was hit by a weakness in my heart by her words.
"Why, don't you admit it, no matter what age a person is, if he has no passion, then this person is really doomed."
I suddenly felt a sour feeling in my heart, yes, if a person loses his mind, what is the difference from a walking dead? You can do whatever you want, live lifeless every day, and get used to life Every detail, every day is the same, so what's the point?
I can't help but start to reply that I have been living repeatedly these past few days. This is not life. I work hard every day, and I live to live every day. What kind of sadness is this, what kind of pity, Li Nan, she You are right, I have really reached the age of knowing my destiny.
"I see." I nodded.
However, I guess my face must be ugly now, otherwise, Li Nan would not put one hand on my shoulder immediately, and asked with concern, "Xiao Fei, did I talk too much?"
"No, you're quite right. Nannan, let me ask you, why do you want to be a model? You haven't answered me yet."
"Because my childhood dream is to be a model! You may not know it, but I ran out behind my back."
"What? You came out behind your back?"
"Yeah, in order to pursue my dream, why can't I go my own way and go to some kind of university, what's so good about going to university, it's not just being a tool for others."
"Your thinking is very wrong."
"Why not. Then let me ask you, why do we learn so much knowledge?" She took the initiative to ask me such a profound question, and I really didn't know how to answer it.
Because the answer to this question has changed many times in my heart since I was a child, and I am not sure now. All this is because the reality is too cruel.
Many people say that knowledge changes destiny!
But can knowledge really change destiny? If it was many years ago, at the time of the imperial examination, it would be fine. He became an official right away. But now, no. You went to a university, paid a lot of tuition fees, and spent your own money to make yourself glittering, but you still couldn't really change your destiny.
Now is not the age of assigning work. Even so?Even studying, there is no guarantee. So, now, I am a little hesitant, is reading really useful?
Perhaps the best school is in society, and the knowledge in society is the most useful. And the scholarship intellectuals had at that time was useless.
"What? Can't you answer?" She shook her head, as if she really cared about my answer.
"No, I think going to college is good. If I don't go to college, my life trajectory will not be what I am now. I will do physical work like those migrant workers on the street. You know, I am like this. I am definitely not a good hand at this kind of physical work." I said it very honestly, because I have never done farm work since I was a child. If you ask me to be a worker, then please forgive me, I Really not. And there is another reason why I want to go to school, because I know a lot of stories because I have learned knowledge, and there are so many stories, I can see a lot of things. Now I don¡¯t care about ordinary little things, and I get angry because of little things .
"Hehe, you can really say it. But I feel that what you said is quite false. Could it be that you can't convince yourself?" She smiled slightly, and stretched out her jade hand to stop me from trying to defend. "I know what you're going to say, so don't tell me. Everyone has their own way of life, as long as they live happily. I'm just talking about my point of view. Speaking of it, going to school is really a good thing. It's just that For my dream, I had no choice but to skip school and read books by myself.
"Why don't you go to school anymore? Is there any conflict between your dream and going to school?"
"Of course there is a conflict. Don't you know that the age of the models is very young? We all made our debut at the age of eleven or twelve, but the age is written on the household registration book, and the age will be written as sixteen. After that, we will slowly change."
"ah?"
"If I really went to college, like your 22-year-old graduates, my God, that would be really scary. At that time, there would be no future for us. The current model is 22 years old and has been old for many years. Basically, I made a lot of money. People buy houses and cars, and they are very chic."
"Then how old are you now?" Hearing what she said, I immediately thought of Li Nan. You must know that she is such a mess now that even eating has become a problem. If she hadn't been taken in by me, she might have slept on the street, right?
"Me?" Li Nan chuckled, "Forget it, I won't tell you, but don't you know that I just celebrated my birthday?"
"To put it bluntly you just turned eighteen, right?" I asked tentatively.
"Eighteen years old? Stop teasing me!" She laughed suddenly, leaning back and forth.
"Then how old are you, I said Nan Nan, I must at least know what age you are?"
"Why do you want to know so much? Don't you men just like women who are as young as possible? I am as young as possible. What are you afraid of? You have such a pink and pink girlfriend, and you are not satisfied!"
"If you are under 18 years old, I can't make love to you!" I had to say this, but in the end, I quickly turned my mind several times before holding back the word make love, and Before me, of course, is another two words.
When she heard this, Liu Mei frowned, "Okay, I thought you changed your gender, but you are still a big pervert, you are too much, you are not separated from each other, are you?"
"Huh?" I was so shocked by her words that I almost went to the room, "Please, I don't have any!"
"But your thoughts are, your thoughts are too dirty, my God, don't you think about these things every day in your mind! Can't you be healthier and sunny?"
"Isn't it?" I asked back.
"Why not! It's been an hour, I have to take a shower, I'll ignore you!" She went back to the room angrily.
"Let me unplug the electricity for you."
"Okay, hurry up, I want to wash it well!"
"Then wash it quickly."
"Why are you so anxious, why, impatient!" she roared.
"No." I sighed deeply. It seems that I have provoked her again. What sin did I do? How did I meet her? The most terrifying thing is that I fell in love with her, and now I don't see her for a day. I was thinking about her, thinking about her. You must know that she is just a beauty. Now I have seen a lot of beauties in the company of the big man. Why can't any one replace her?
"Even if you are impatient, you have to bear it! Who told you to be my boyfriend! Hmph, I won't be angry with you anymore, I have to take a shower!"
"Oh, then you can wash it, the left side is hot and the right side is cool, remember to adjust it yourself!" I said something, and invited her into the room.
"Okay, I got it!" She smiled at me, without any anger.
I thought to myself, have I been tricked by her again?
She entered the bathroom smoothly, and when the sound of running water sounded, my heart began to stir unceasingly. Just when the lustful heart was already aroused, thinking about how her smooth body would change under the action of water. But she heard her yell.
"What's the matter, I ask!" I hurried to the door of the bathroom.
"What is this!" The door opened, and one of her jade hands stretched out in front of my eyes. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)Played by her?
She entered the bathroom smoothly, and when the sound of running water sounded, my heart began to stir unceasingly. Just when the lustful heart was already aroused, thinking about how her smooth body would change under the action of water. But she heard her yell.
"What's the matter, I ask!" I hurried to the door of the bathroom.
"What is this!" The door opened, and one of her jade hands stretched out in front of my eyes. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com