"He is pitiful and fragile. He is the person I will never fall in love with. He is violent and moody, but he enshrines me in his heart, gives me tenderness, gives me roses, and throws me into thorns.
I heard Canary scream and saw him laugh and cry, and I began to understand that he was just a sick man. "
Mu Yan
Jiang Yenan
**/running with the ball/attack with brain problems
? Gloomy and paranoid writer Gong x Innocent ** dancer suffers
Jiang Yenan x Makino
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(with spoilers)
Shou is a ballet dancer who went home to recuperate due to a leg injury. She helped her family's publishing house and came into contact with Gong as a writer. Gong is a suspense novelist, and he is pursued persistently in order to let him be interviewed.
Gong Gong accepted Shou's interview, and also became interested in this gentle, cheerful and slightly clever slender boy, and wanted to write Shou as a material in his book. In order to collect materials, he entered Shou's life and observed Shou's every move. Shou fell in love with Gong while getting along, and he mustered up the courage to confess, but he didn't get an immediate response.
Gong admits that he has a sexual disorder, because his childhood experience made him loathe prostitution. Can't bear this heaviness, his liking hasn't reached such a deep level yet. Shou said sorry and left, but he never forgot Gong. He was threatened because of his health, Gong reappeared when he was at a loss, Shou made up his mind to confess again, and the two fell in love.
Their love is full of vigor and vitality, cuddling each other and talking about love, entangled in the hut in the snow. Gong hated sex, but Shou was like a fire, igniting his desire. However, the conflict came too quickly. Shou was pregnant. Because of his childhood experience, Gong didn't understand and didn't long for family affection. He liked Shou, but he couldn't accept their child.
Stung by Gong's indifference, he left the child alone, but was found to be deformed. He could no longer bear the pain and broke up with him, but Gong did not let him go. Gong imprisoned Shou, he thought Shou was because the child wanted to leave him, so he gave him the child.
During the period of being imprisoned, his father passed away due to illness, and Gong, who couldn't understand the family affection, didn't tell him because he was afraid that Shou would leave. This was the last straw that crushed Shou. He stabbed Gong and left here, but it was found out that he was pregnant. He took the child and started a new life alone.
Gong appeared as the child's composition teacher. His condition has improved, and he has been guilty of what he did back then, but he only dared to look at Shou and the child secretly. After discovering the existence of Gong, Shou was frightened and confused. He couldn't forget the past of being hurt, but he still felt worried when seeing Gong's illness and injury.
Due to the wonderful influence of blood relationship and personality, the children of the two have always been very attached to Gong, and the relationship between Gong and Shou is also rapidly easing. On the night of Gong's depression, Shou went to take care of him, let go of his knots, and frankly said that he still had Gong in his heart. Learn to love others, learn to integrate into the family, and learn to be a father. They moved into a new house and also owned a home together.
Gong is indifferent, reserved, self-abased and gloomy. Because of his childhood experience, he doesn't want to have much contact with people, but Shou actively breaks into his life, saying that he likes and accepts, dispels his coldness, and makes Gong infected with emotions and desires.
Shou finds that the fact is not as good as imagined, and the first time they separated is because of this inappropriateness. Gong repeatedly emphasized his danger and horror, but Shou thought of love too ideally, and said it was okay with simplicity and fearlessness until conflicts arose.
Gong, who was given the light but deprived of it, became more and more sick. He was sickly left with indelible injuries, rough and gloomy. Gong did something wrong, but people couldn't unilaterally blame him. His loneliness and ruthlessness became the norm, but he was pulled out and told that he could be accepted. Thought to catch the light, but was thrown into the darkness again. The love at that time was too straightforward and simple, and I failed to understand the huge impact of my every sentence on the offense. Shou said he didn't love anymore, but Gong couldn't return to the previous him who was indifferent to everything and stayed away from the crowd.
But Gong has always been a gentle person, his cruelty is only because he is sick. Shou fell for his tenderness again and decided to give Gong a chance. Gong also experienced the happiness of nurturing and raising a new life, and he became more life-oriented, showing his hesitation, anxiety or embarrassment to Shou. He was once attracted by his superiority, but now he fell in love with his truth, and it was himself who pulled him down from the altar and became a mortal.
I really like the writing style of this article, even the plot with the most intense conflict, the narrative method is also a light style. The first half feels more sad than dog-blood abuse. The sick Gong and the hurt Shou all originate from love. The home life in the second half is very warm. The birth and growth of children are like a lubricant, supporting each other, living together and loving each other. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com