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Tong Chunxia didn't speak, and continued to walk out in a hurry. She couldn't stay in this place for a second, and she felt that her breathing was a little difficult.
She never thought that one day she would see her father again.
The man who left her from the very beginning and left her in someone else's house.
She thought he was dead long ago.
Only when he died, would he not have so many expectations in his heart, let alone disappointment and despair.
When Chunxia was in junior high school, she suspected for a long time that it was because she was not good enough or smart enough, or because she was not a boy, so her father never cared about her.
She once fell into a state of self-doubt and denial for a long period.
She also used self-harm to attract her father's attention.
But Tong Man was the only one in the family who noticed the scars on her arms. She is like a clown, ugly without knowing it.
Later, I gradually became numb and looked away.
Just pretending that he never existed, just treating yourself as an orphan, is better than being like a wild dog begging for a little bit of poor father's love every day.
"Sister, if you really don't want to stay here, you can go to the Internet cafe at the entrance of the village. They seem to be open." Tong Man took out a hundred dollars from his pocket and stuffed it into her hand, speaking at a young age There was an irresistible order, "Sister, don't run around, I'll pick you up when uncle calms down. Be careful yourself."
Holding the brand new one hundred yuan, Tong Chunxia wanted to cry, but held back.
Her expression was indifferent, but her hands were slightly exerted and tightened.
"Don't want to save face and suffer, save some money for emergency." Tong Man thought she wouldn't want it, so he persuaded her again.
Tong Chunxia lowered his head and said "Thank you."
She was walking on the main road leading into the city.
Fortunately, this road was repaired in a month, otherwise it would be dark everywhere, which would inevitably be scary. Occasionally, there are private cars driving at high speed, rushing home to eat New Year's Eve dinner.
Tong Chunxia walked on the road alone, taking his time.
She was trying very hard to calm down her emotions.
It shouldn't explode. Emotional outbursts that no one cares about are useless and ridiculous. They can't change the status quo, and they appear to be hysterical.
And what right does Tong Nan have to make her hysterical?
But why, those emotions in my heart seemed to be unbearable. When she saw the strange woman for the first time, it was like a fire rushed to her head.
She scratched her hand, feeling a little itchy.
This year, the chilblains have recurred, but she soaked them in hot water frequently before going to bed at night, so there were only some redness and swelling, but no festering.
She shouldn't be so angry, she clearly thought he was dead in her heart, but why did she still have expectations?
She now feels that she is quite cheap. Like a child who cries when he doesn't get love.
Tong Chunxia walked slowly on the road, the snow fell on her head, on the treetops, on the fields, a vast expanse of white. Fireworks exploded over the city, followed by the barking of dogs in the distance.
Tong Chunxia suddenly felt a little lonely.
The indescribable loneliness that surges from the bottom of my heart is like walking alone in the desert, accompanied by only the endless sky.
She raised her hand and bounced off the snowflakes on her clothes before noticing the red gloves on her hand. The gloves are festive bright red, which makes people feel happy when they look at them. They are knitted with thick wool and are very warm. There is also a very cute bow on the top.
Tong Chunxia stared at his gloves for a while, and felt even more sad for some reason.
She asked herself, is it really as Duan Yanqiu said, does she deserve a better life?
It doesn't seem right, she seems to be trapped in this black swamp, no matter how hard she tries to live, she can't escape the shadow her father gave her.
The shadow followed her like a shadow, covering her, even if the sun was shining brightly above her head, it couldn't reach half an inch of here.
The second uncle and the second aunt were very kind to her, but they were only very kind, and they were always a little more alienated than Tong Man.
But she is not qualified to ask for one more point.
She could only knead those jealousy, resentment, dissatisfaction and suspicion into balls and swallow them raw.
?After eight or nine years of living under the fence, the first thing to learn must be to observe words and expressions and pretend not to understand.
She pretended not to see that her second uncle was frequently worried about her tuition fees, she pretended not to understand what her second aunt said between her words, and she pretended not to understand the insinuations and gossips of her relatives.
If you have a thicker skin, you can??In the past, I survived until I graduated from college, survived until I left here, and survived until I was anonymous and started all over again.
Get through, a better life.
A fiery red was reflected in the depths of the girl's eyes.
And the night was getting deeper, and there was no one on the road, only the sound of the wind blowing through the shadows of the trees.
Now after venting his emotions, Tong Chunxia has returned to reason.
That home, as long as Tong Nan is here, she will not go back.
But on New Year's Eve, where can she go?
Maybe Lu Qinghuan didn't dislike her, but she said that she seemed to be going back to her hometown during the Chinese New Year. The rest of the students have very shallow acquaintances, and it is even more inappropriate to disturb them on such a day.
Tong Chunxia's sigh was particularly long.
How come the world is so big that there is not even a place to go?
After walking against the wind and snow for a while, the appearance of the urban-rural fringe gradually appeared in front of my eyes. It's just that the bustling town in the past has become lifeless at this moment, with closed doors everywhere, and only a few households with lights on, looking more and more lonely.
Several facades are pasted with the word "Fu" in red, which is a bit lonely in celebration.
Coincidentally, the lights of the internet cafe were still on, so Tong Chunxia was overjoyed for a moment, and walked over quickly. Unexpectedly, seeing the boss with his back to her and about to close and lock the door, Tong Chunxia hurried forward and asked, "Boss, are you going to close the door?"
"Yeah, it's almost ten o'clock, it's time to go back to celebrate the New Year."
Tong Chunxia didn't like to ask for help, but now he can only beg in a good voice: "Boss, don't close the door, I want to stay up all night ************, do you know what day it is today? The boss hung the lock with a bang, turned around, and looked at her angrily, "It's Chinese New Year, who wants to stay here for a few dollars?"
"Can't I show you?"
"Can you show me?" The boss smiled when he heard this, with a cigarette in his mouth, "Who spends the New Year's Eve in an Internet cafe? I still need your few dollars?"
The boss looked at her up and down, and said a little puzzled: "You are not at home to celebrate the New Year at night, why are you running out, where are your parents?"
Tong Chunxia didn't speak either.
"Arguing with your parents?" The boss said "tsk tsk" and shook his head, "It's too naive to run away from home every now and then. You, go home quickly, your parents still I don¡¯t know what it¡¯s like to be so anxious, don¡¯t stay here with me, don¡¯t come to me if you have an accident in the middle of the night!¡± (Remember the website website: www.hlnovel.com - Didn't finish reading? Add this book to your favoritesI'm a member and bookmarked this chapterCopy the address of this book and recommend it to your friends for pointsChapter error? Click here to report
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