Love letter. One to 30-year-old Li Zhaohua, never mailed.
My dearest Li Zhaohua.
One summer when he was sixteen, Song Qingyan met Li Zhaohua for the first time in a small bar.
It was an afternoon with good sunshine. As a good baby, Song Qingyan decided to listen to his uncle sing for a while before leaving.
Many people think that he likes to play with gentle people, but in fact, he prefers rock and roll boys like his uncle. My uncle was nineteen years old at the time, a freshman in freshman year, and sang in this bar.
He just prefers people or things that seem free and unscrupulous, because he is the kind of person who is very cautious. To put it nicely is prudence, but to put it badly, it is not decisive enough.
Always analyze decisions rationally. Every decision will be considered for a long time, and once it is made, it will never be changed.
Stubborn to terrible, stubborn to annoying.
He envied that kind of arrogance and admired that kind of free art. When he was young, he saw moths rushing to the flame, and it was so tragic. This was the state he had always yearned for but could not achieve.
Who would have such a bookish spirit, who would have such uninhibited madness, who could come and go freely like the wind.
Until he met Li Zhaohua.
No matter how many years later, he still remembers her slightly raised neck, her tightly pursed mouth, sitting alone in front of the drum kit, bored, as if she couldn't care about anything, nothing.
Her hands were very slender, holding the drumsticks, as if turning a pen, round and round, and round and round, disrupting the rhythm of his heart.
If that just got his attention, and what she did next blew his mind. He didn't know if she played well or not, but he just thought how could someone be so devoted, and frowned slightly, as if living with the drum set.
When it stopped, he didn't know, he only knew that the applause continued, and his uncle said words of thanks on it, and then there was a new song.
And Li Zhaohua didn't smile because of the praise from the outside world from the beginning to the end, just sat there quietly, bored, and once he started to perform, he was extremely serious,
It turns out that this is moths to the flame.
He thought, if the bar was on fire now, Li Zhaohua would not get up, he was sure. He just knows. He already knew her from the beginning to the end.
Some people fall in love because of curiosity, but he is different, he falls in love only because of understanding, he just understands Li Zhaohua.
Perhaps, they were confidants or husband and wife in the previous life, otherwise, why did he have such a strong sense of familiarity with her?
From that day on, every weekend, Song Qingyan would come to the bar to watch her perform. From his uncle, he learned more about Li Zhaohua, which school he was in, his grades, and the reason for coming to this bar.
Uncle noticed something wrong with him a little earlier than Song Qingyan, and one day he suddenly said, "You don't have a crush on Li Zhaohua, do you?"
"Huh?" Secret love. Is this crush?
"Xiaoyan. Others don't know you, so uncle doesn't know you. Hehe. You never ask more than three questions about other people's affairs. Although you try your best to cover it up, the things you ask Li Zhaohua are either explicit or covert. There are at least a hundred sentences, and more"
Song Qingyan thought it was good for him to keep it secret, but it was so obvious, he was very cautious, "Uncle" He blushed.
"Oh my God, my sister is still worried about you and thinks you don't like girls. It's fine if you like girls. If you like them, go after them. But Li Zhaohua is a bit troublesome."
"What's the trouble?" He couldn't help asking.
"She doesn't know us very well. Usually, she doesn't come to dinner parties, and I don't know what kind of boys she likes. You have to rely on yourself to understand her."
That is, he doesn't like boring social activities, and loves to play with himself, or there are relatively few people who can play with her, he can see it.
"However, it's really excellent. Ayan has a good eye, but my uncle is very vulgar. He likes those delicate girls, and the dumber the better, he can be tricked into bed! Hehe."
"You can't say that either." He spoke for his uncle.
"Haha. You're not pretending, you just think Li Zhaohua is special, right! However, special girls will be more proud, so you have to be mentally prepared."
Proud, umhe didn't tell his uncle, but in fact, he had followed Li Zhaohua several times, as if it was the same way home. And each time, she never looked back.
Li Zhaohua has no nostalgia for the scenery of the past at all, and only cares about moving forward.
The only time to look back is also??Because of him, because of a little milk cat that was abandoned by the side of the road. Li Zhaohua passed by, he ignored it at first, and after a while, he came over with milk and put it in front of the little milk cat.
However, her kindness ended here, and she didn't show her kindness so much that she took the cat home. Or he thought, after all, she saved it, maybe one day she would remember it, and he took the cat home.
This is just a small episode. Most of the time, he just followed behind silently, until one day when she found out, she stopped and still didn't look back, but ran away at an astonishingly fast speed. He froze for a moment before realizing that this was not going to work.
Song Qingyan, you can't like people, just follow them.
But no one told him what to do to increase the time with her.
Every time the performance was over, the courage he had brewed with great difficulty disappeared without a trace, and he watched her leave.
He is so shy in front of someone he likes for the first time. He needs a little time, he thought, at least let her know him first.
He thought about it, and then started from the same school. He changed to the school she attended, because her class size was too large, and he had to be placed in class B. Later, he regretted it all the time, and he should have fought hard at that time and told his mother that he had to go to her class A.
A little closer, a little closer. Li Zhaohua will see him.
Because the sixteen-year-old Li Zhaohua lives in his own world, completely unable to see other people. This is something he only found out later. She is obsessed with what she likes, and never puts boys in the same school in her eyes.
What was even more frustrating was that even the girls in her class knew him later, but Li Zhaohua still didn't. He didn't like to show off at first, but for her, he participated in the sports meeting, gave speeches on stage, and performed in theatrical performances. Only she could see him, and he made a list of them all.
? Until after marriage, Song Qingyan still felt regretful and helpless when he thought about those years. In the second year of high school, I worked so hard to show myself, but Li Zhaohua, did you really not see it?
How much he wanted to know her in the sophomore year of high school, let her pay attention to him, and even like him if possible. As soon as she took the initiative, he immediately said yes.
Unexpectedly, Li Zhaohua told him with a bewildered face that she was studying philosophy at that time, and the object of her worship was the German philosopher Kant.
But there are still intersections, such as at the sports meeting. One day, he saw her standing in front of a small stall buying water, and he also walked up to her, but she left after buying.
Another example is theatrical performances. He thought she would have a talent show, but later learned that Li Zhaohua did not participate, but he had already signed up for it. It was impossible to quit. But, he can't sing! So I had to perform a poetry recitation
When it was his turn, he thought Li Zhaohua was in the audience, so he read a passage of Shakespeare's sonnets to her. Because of her charming voice, outstanding appearance, and affectionate recitation, she became popular
But he didn't know until after reading that Li Zhaohua ran away from the third show because he felt that the performance was boring
Another example is the value of the week. Every time it is their turn to be on duty for a week, he must choose those who are late at the school gate. Because there must be Li Zhaohua among them.
He wanted to catch her with his own hands, and then let her go with his own hands. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com