This is not what I want, what I want is just an ordinary life, the life that is too ordinary is what I yearn for the most.
Those who have not experienced it will not understand this feeling. Those young people who are still looking for adventures, who knows the sadness and pain in those thrills? And the painful price to be paid?
And I just want to find peace!
Regardless of whether Qi Xuanye's feelings for me are true or false, I hope that this feeling will stop here and stay here. Maybe it's because of the fact that I'm still pregnant with Qi Xuanye's child. Everything between me and him can no longer be changed. He has given me too many painful memories. Sample?
If I had a choice, I would rather nothing happened at the beginning.
To be honest, I thought about leaving, but this is an unrealistic idea, Ye Zhongming will not let me go. He may do whatever it takes to get the child in my womb.
From another perspective, in comparison, Qi Xuanye and Yun Mengze may be the ones I can trust!
I am too tired, and today is enough. I wiped away the tears from the corners of my eyes, turned around and lay down directly, with my back to Qi Xuanye, and tightly closed my eyes.
This is not the first time to sleep on his bed, it still makes me feel very comfortable, the big soft bed, comfortable pillows and bedding, but behind me is a man I must control and cannot be tempted by.
This time, Qi Xuanye didn't touch me. Since I chose to remain silent, it's meaningless to talk too much. He also lay down next to me, wrapping me in his arms from behind.
The intricate relationship between me and him has made my relationship with him complicated and distorted. If there were not so many bad experiences, if Qi Xuanye was not a shady person, perhaps it would not be like this today. But in the world, there is no so-called "if". What should happen has already happened. No one can change it, and it will not change.
?This night, I didn't sleep well all the time, I woke up every day, and didn't fall asleep until it was almost dawn. I had just slept soundly for a few hours when the alarm set on my phone woke me up with a 'jingling' sound.
I habitually reached out to touch it, but before I touched it a few times, the alarm on the phone stopped. I yawned, opened my eyes slowly, and found myself curled up, facing Qi Xuanye, nestled in his arms, even with one foot on his body, and I was still hugging him.
As soon as I raised my head, Qi Xuanye was lying on my side, the same as when he was lying down last night, with a charming and gentle smile on the corner of his mouth, and deep love in his deep black eyes, locking me firmly in his in the pupil.
The action is so intimate, this is taking him as my pillow! ?
I hastily removed the foot that was riding on him, turned over and sat up from the bed. Being seen by him, my heart fluttered for a while, the dodging eyes, and the unnatural expression have proved everything.
Qi Xuanye was not in a hurry to get up, put one hand on his neck, and smiled meaningfully: "I see that you sleep so comfortably, I don't want to disturb you. You didn't sleep much all night, you just fell asleep for a while, otherwise Let's sleep again!"
Qi Xuanye patted the place where I just nestled in his arms, there were still traces of my nesting on the bed, and then I noticed that my mobile phone was still on his pillow, obviously the one who turned off the alarm just now was Qi Xuanye.
Instead, I waved my hands again and again, pretending to be calm and casually responded: "It's time to go to workII'm not like you, even the current job was cheated by you, the devil knows how you got into our bureau Captain of the rift."
I took my mobile phone back, just turned around, and wanted to get out of bed along the other side, only to feel a big hand behind me hug me from behind, followed by a pair of lips, sticking to my ear , exhale gently, provocatively provocative, lowered the voice, the voice is so soft: "I have been holding back all night, not willing to touch you"
I pursed my lips, pulled Qi Xuanye's hand around my waist, and said angrily: "Then you continue to bear it."
Qi Xuanye refused to give up, and took advantage of the situation to directly drag me down on the bed, followed by his whole body. Under his body, his tall and solid body made me look particularly weak.
"But I can't help it, what should I do? It's hard to get you on my bed once, at least I don't want to just let you get out of bed like this." Qi Xuanye's burning eyes made my face feel hot , My whole body became dry.
I quietly swallowed my saliva, my mood became tense, and I faltered: "You you always always like to talk for nothing I can't trust you"
I knowDao himself is actually meat on the chopping board at the moment, if Qi Xuanye wants to 'eat', he doesn't need any reason, isn't it like this every time before? He doesn't need to ask for any advice from me, just open his mouth and 'swallow' it!
Just when I thought of this, I realized that I hurriedly changed my words: "It's not like I won't be back at that night just wait for night! I don't want to be late for work all the time!"
I pretended to be very serious and nodded, thinking that I really had an idea. Qi Xuanye has never been a person who likes to discuss with others. He will do what he wants to do immediately, and he doesn't need to ask for any opinions from me at all. Since he can ask for my opinion at this moment, that is to say, he may not intend to do anything to me at all.
Just a simple flirt, or as a small intimate interaction in the morning, etc.
If this is the case, there is no need for me to pick up the conversation, just find a reason to prevaricate it.
"Evening?" Qi Xuanye evoked a charming smile, and leaned so close that his lips were almost touching: "It's easy for me to take it seriouslyyou can't escape!"
I took a deep breath, blinked my eyes, and squeezed out a smile in embarrassment: "Well I see"
I pressed my fingers against Qi Xuanye's chest, slowly pushed him away, turned over and hurriedly got up from the bed, and went to the bathroom to wash up.
When I finished washing and came out of the bathroom, I just pushed open the door, and I happened to see Qi Xuanye standing outside the door. He seemed to have been waiting at the door for a while, wearing a suit and tie hanging around his neck. Speaking, just raised his neck slightly.
Assi! It's really pushing an inch, isn't it obvious that I want to tie him a tie!
Forget it, there is absolutely no need to compare the truth with him, isn't it just a tie to make me angry and strangle you to death!
I sighed dissatisfied, but still obediently stepped forward to tie his tie. Carefully button up the tie, put it through the tie, cover it under the collar of the shirt, and fasten the tie to an appropriate degree of tightness. After fastening it, he habitually patted Qi Xuanye's shoulder and chest to straighten the suit.
This gesture that I was used to doing to my elder brother at home, now inadvertently doing it on Qi Xuanye's body, seems extremely ambiguous.
I don't know what I did wrong, which made Qi Xuanye frowned, grabbed my wrist, and stared at me closely with those bottomless eyes.
?Suddenly, I was startled. I twisted my wrist and wanted to pull my hand out angrily: "What are you doing? Fasten it? Why are you holding me?"
Before I could react, Qi Xuanye's movements were quick, and he pressed me directly against the wall behind him, a pair of sexy lips covered his lips, his soft and moist tongue stepped over his lips and teeth, and stuck into his mouth, fiercely ingesting everything Breath and Tsuze.
The forceful kiss made me breathless, I wanted to push him away, but I couldn't push him away, and there was no retreat behind me, so I resisted for three to five seconds, and then I gave up resisting, his hug was so tight , The fierce kiss is very possessive, and I can't wait to swallow me in one gulp.
My slight response only provoked a more intense kiss, and those restless big hands got into my clothes. I hurriedly avoided Qi Xuanye's lips, leaned on his shoulder and breathed heavily, which would not stop. Calm down the stable emotions, so as not to be sunk by Qi Xuanye's despicable offensive.
I am very aware of his methods. If I don't stop him in time, then if I want to go to work, I'm afraid I will have to wait until the afternoon.
"The tie you just tied I don't want to tie it for you again."
When Qi Xuanye heard my weak complaint, he couldn't help chuckling: "That's good"
From the perspective of outsiders, this scene at this moment may think that this is a loving couple, but I know very well in my heart that Qi Xuanye and I will never have a future, and I will never treat him If you are tempted, you can't.
After a brief tidying up with Qi Xuanye, they went out and drove to the bureau.
Fortunately, the car film on the glass of Qi Xuanye's car is relatively dark and opaque, and he is used to parking the car in the underground parking lot.
I don't want people to see that I come to work with Qi Xuanye, otherwise people will mistakenly think that I want to get close to Qi Xuanye for good development or for some reason.
As soon as we arrived at the underground parking lot, I took the initiative to walk separately from Qi Xuanye. I don't know why I was a little excited about this sneaky behavior, and I found it very interesting.
As soon as I entered the door, I saw that Chu Xinnan had just arrived. Chu Xinnan seemed to really not remember what happened last night, so he waved his hand to greet me: "Xiaoxiao, I just received a call. There is a case. Let's go!"
I rolled my eyes and followed Chu Xinnan slyly. I had just arrived at the station and was about to set off again. While Chu Xinnan took me into the car, he chatted with me: "Xiaoxiao, have you had breakfast yet?"
"Uh no I'm not hungry." It's true, I'm not hungry at all, and it's been strange recently, it seems that I don't feel hungry anymore, or I don't know that I'm hungry at all. Maybe it's because of work and the recent bad things, so I don't have more thoughts, maybe it's because of eating. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com)He followed Chu Xinnan slyly, just arrived at the bureau, and was about to set off again, Chu Xinnan took me into the car while chatting with me: "Xiaoxiao, have you had breakfast yet?"
"Uh no I'm not hungry." It's true, I'm not hungry at all, and it's been strange recently, it seems that I don't feel hungry anymore, or I don't know that I'm hungry at all. Maybe it's because of work and the recent bad things, so I don't have more thoughts, maybe it's because of eating. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com