But is there only pain in life? No, there is hope in life, and some happiness can be squeezed out.
Li Jingshen's memory can't be said to be good or bad now, sometimes he is so good that he can clearly remember a small thing from a long time ago, but it is also so bad that he forgets where he put his phone in a blink of an eye.
Regarding the matter of Shen Zhichu, he remembered it most clearly, probably because he thought about it a lot.
When people suffer from insomnia at night and cannot sleep, their brains can't help thinking about bad things in the past. Some people are so embarrassed that their scalps go numb, and some people clenched their fists and screamed in pain.
It is difficult for him to think of happy things, but when he thinks about it carefully, he has no happy things worth thinking about in his life.
Shen Zhichu was willing to stay by his side, not because of old love, but because of his threats.
Now that this threat is gone, she naturally wanted to leave without looking back.
He has used countless methods to keep Shen Zhichu behind, locked her at home, threatened her with her relatives, tied her ankles with chains and locked her in a room surrounded by surveillance cameras calling all the time People stared at her, and indirectly broke her legs and trapped her in a wheelchair.
He can keep a person, but he can't keep a person who wants to die.
He is so crazy, and his methods are ruthless, when he thinks about his past self when he is startled, he can't help breaking out in a cold sweat, his back feels cold, and he can't sleep all night.
Think about it, he and Shen Zhichu have been entangled for so many years. During the time when Shen Zhichu just married him, four years was the time when he was most likely to fall in love with Shen Zhichu, but he wasted time and forged a lifetime of love. but not.
Li Jingshen thinks that he can make up for it, as long as he corrects the bad habits of the past and treats him sincerely, he will be able to compare his heart with his heart.
But the reality is cruel after all. Shen Zhichu fell in love with someone else, the person she should have fallen in love with from the beginning.
Thinking of Shen Zhichu's gentle expression when speaking to another man, lying in his arms softly, cooking for him, and putting on a wedding dress for him.
As soon as he thought of Shen Zhichu transferring all the good things he had given him to another man, an inexplicable dull pain collapsed from his heart in an instant.
He was thinking about those pictures in a daze, and the pain from his heart was continuously transmitted to every corner of his body, even his scalp was a little numb from the pain.
If I had known this before, why bother to talk about not only Shen Zhichu, but also himself.
Shen Zhichu said: "I hope you are alive, the sufferings of this world will not let you go."
When Li Jingshen heard Shen Zhichu's words, his expression moved slightly: "Then I'll take it as if you want to live with me."
The topic of "life and death" was too heavy, Li Jingshen changed the subject, "Today is Christmas Eve."
It's getting dark, and all the lights in the villa are turned on, even the lights in the storage room are on. If you look from the outside, you will find that this is the brightest place, and you can see it at first glance from a long distance. The various colored lights in the city have not yet functioned, and the night outside is illuminated by street lights.
Li Jingshen asked: "Shen Zhichu, would you like this kind of wedding without me?"
Shen Zhichu shook his head: "Li Jingshen, you really don't seem to have tried to understand me. You think that my liking is just your opinion, and you force what you think in your heart on me. Maybe other women will be moved by this kind of preparation, but I Won't."
The wedding she likes is a Chinese wedding, and her favorite color is not white but red. What she wants is to wear a red hijab and a wedding dress and wait for the person she likes to pick her up.
Li Jingshen's eyes showed a sense of loneliness, not a little warmer than the sky outside.
The heater was turned on inside, thinking that Shen Zhichu would not feel cold wearing a wedding dress and bare feet, but it was a bit uncomfortable to be dragged by the heavy wedding dress after sitting for a long time.
This wedding dress does not belong to her, it looks like a shackle on her body.
Fortunately, she will be able to take it off and leave here soon.
Shen Zhichu stood up and said to him: "Li Jingshen, thank you for putting your weaknesses into my hands. If it weren't for these things, maybe I wouldn't have been able to get away so quickly. I don't care about anything you gave me. It's not rare, as long as I still have people around me doing well, then I guarantee that Mrs. Li will be doing well too."
After all, Shen Zhichu was too kind, and Li Jingshen smiled softly: "Now you have all the important documents of the Li family, and they can be annexed completely. Now the Li family is worth more than the Bai family, and you can save decades of struggle."
"I'm not you. I've learned a lesson once. I know that what's mine is mine. I won't take what's not mine. Even without the money, I can do it." Shen Zhichu mentioned the hem of the wedding dress and left it behind. , Move your feet a bit.
&nbIt doesn't feel cold at all.
Such chaotic thoughts, but one thing is clear, she can't stop here, she lifts her skirt, and walks out step by step, the diamonds on the skirt reflect the colorful light, like stars.
Li Jingshen stood behind him, looking at Shen Zhichu's back with red eyes, he pushed her hand away and still held it in mid-air.
Pushing away the person you love the most with your own hands is no different from tearing your heart in half alive.
The temperature of Shen Zhichu's hair still remained on the fingertips, as if he briefly touched his "sun" and then returned her to the sky that belonged to her.
He owed Shen Zhichu a grand wedding, owed her a suitable ring, owed her wedding dress, owed her two children, owed her to grow old, owed her a lifetime, owed her a lifetime of affection, and now someone is giving it to her on his behalf. up.
His reluctance in his heart finally turned into willingness.
"Shen Zhichu, I love you." Li Jingshen said, his voice was not loud, just blowing into Shen Zhichu's ears with the cold night wind.
Those things between him and Shen Zhichu are full of regret when mentioned, but full of deep love when remembered.
Even though he knew that he and Shen Zhichu would no longer have anything to do with each other in the future, he still couldn't help but want to tell her over and over again how much he liked her.
"Shen ZhichuShen Zhichu" While calling her name, he wanted her to look back at him, but at the same time he didn't want her to turn back.
Afraid that if she turned around, he would really be reluctant to let her go.
Shen Zhichu did as he said, without looking back, she walked towards Bai Qiujing firmly.
"Bang¡ª¡ª" the fireworks rose, and the Christmas Eve fireworks bloomed.
It turns out that this is what it feels like to lose someone. Seeing her hugging Bai Qiujing, the ribs in her chest seemed to have been taken away. Li Jingshen seemed to have lost his strength, so he could only stagger to find a support and hold it tightly with one hand. Covering his heart with one hand and coughing, his heart was piercing, the blood dripped on the black suit, and in the dim light, it seemed to be disappearing dimly.
Li Jingshen looked up at the fireworks in the sky, the fireworks tonight are no worse than the fireworks on New Year's Eve night.
Accompanied by the sound of fireworks, Li Jingshen's eyes kept overflowing with hot tears, and the tears fell into his mouth so bitter that he felt astringent. He choked up a bit, and said in a hoarse voice:
"I wish you a happy wedding and a happy life forever."
Li Jingshen closed his sore eyes, what a pity, he lost the love of his life in the last moments of his life, and he sent her to another man's arms with his own hands.
He remembered what Baimu had said to him in the teahouse that day.
"Shen Jing, the indifferent genes of the Li family can be changed. In my eyes, interests are more important than people. I am willing to exchange all the property of the Bai family for Zhichu. Please return her to us." (Remember the website URL. : www.hlnovel.com