Only at this moment did Shen Zhichu realize that Li Jingshen really had cancer and was about to die.
He was lying on the bed, coughing loudly with his mouth open, and the white sheets were stained red with blood. He was like a fish caught in a case, struggling powerlessly in the face of death, and could only open his mouth to try to survive with the last bit of oxygen.
Shen Zhichu stood against the wall for a while, I don't know how long, when the doctor came out, her feet were numb.
One of the doctors kindly reminded: "You can go in and have a look, but pay attention, what is needed now is rest, try not to disturb him."
When Shen Zhichu went in, he stood at the head of the bed and looked at Li Jingshen quietly.
What can you see in winter?
¡ª¡ªShen Zhichu, when you recover from illness, I will take you to see the snow.
There is no snow in Rongcheng.
¡ª¡ªThen wait a little longer, go to the north to see flowers, go to South Street to eat snacks, go to the east to visit the ancient city, go to the south to see the sea, where there are seagulls flying high.
Li Jingshen's face is ugly, white as a piece of paper, this is definitely not an exaggeration, it is really bloodless, the indoor lights are very bright, and the white light shines on his face with a sense of transparency and fragility, he looks like It was as if he was about to disappear, his lips were the color of lotus root, dripping into his arm, she looked at his hand, she knew it was cold without touching it.
Li Jingshen was awake: "I still want to eat your cooking today."
"If you still want to eat, aren't you afraid of death?"
"I'm afraid" Li Jingshen smiled lightly, but didn't open his eyes, afraid of seeing Shen Zhichu's cold and impersonal eyes.
He gently closed his eyes, his eyelashes trembled, and there was a faint glimmer of water in the gaps, "But am I not about to die? Since I am going to die, I should eat more before I die, and eat more to remember the taste."
Shen Zhichu raised his eyes and looked out the window.
Li Jingshen suddenly asked: "What is it like when a person dies? Will it hurt?" He actually wanted to ask how much pain Shen Zhichu had at that time, but after thinking about it, there was no point in asking, except to humiliate himself Besides, he couldn't feel the pain that Shen Zhichu was suffering at that time.
And In fact, he was secretly afraid of the answer.
Shen Zhichu didn't think too much about it, and she answered whatever Li Jingshen asked: "It hurts before death, but the consciousness will disappear soon. The last thing that disappears after death is hearing. Death is like a wisp of green smoke. When the wind blows, it will disappear." Scattered, no unwillingness, no resentment, no sadness, just like a breeze."
Li Jingshen pursed his lips and said nothing.
Shen Zhichu lowered his head again, and saw the bare five fingers of his left hand without nails, which he pulled out after she died, and also saw the burns on his chest.
Shen Zhichu changed the subject and said: "I know that after my death, you tried to taste the pain of my life, but it is really meaningless. To you, it may be repayment, but repayment must be received by the other party sincerely. .¡±
Li Jingshen didn't want to hear this.
He said, "After you died, I had a dream. I dreamed that you disappeared in the fire and said a word to me. If you said there was me in the world, you would not come."
"I have such an idea, but think about it, if you miss a Bai Qiujing because of you, it will be a regret in my life, and I will be even more unwilling, and the loss outweighs the gain."
Li Jingshen opened his eyes and froze for a moment.
"I'm thirsty."
Shen Zhichu saw that he was a patient, so he didn't bother with him, so he turned around and got a glass of water to feed him.
At noon, Shen Zhichu cooked some porridge, which was just enough for two people. It tasted bland, and those who took too much medicine had thick coatings on their tongues, so they couldn't taste the taste at all.
?There were also workers making arrangements outside. This time they took a lot of roses and even laid out the red carpet. Shen Zhichu was wondering whether Li Jingshen had predicted the time of his death and prepared for him to go on the road.
But shouldn't funerals be white? Why the red carpet? Even the flowers prepared are red roses.
I don't know why, but Shen Zhichu suddenly remembered a very popular video some time ago.
¡ª¡ªThe black bears the coffin.
Shen Zhichu asked: "Have you ever thought about how to arrange your funeral?"
Li Jingshen said a little tiredly, "I'm already dead, so I don't have the heart to know what happens after death."
"Where's Zhao Qian? Why didn't I see Zhao Qian with you." In Shen Zhichu's impression, Zhao Qian and Li Jingshen have always been together.
Zhao Qian spent the longest time with Li Jingshen among all of them.
But she hasn't seen him once during the long time she's been here. Could it be that something happened? Shen Zhichu couldn't think of it.
Li Jingshen replied: "??Dashan.
Shen Zhichu looked at the document and was stunned. She really didn't expect that Li Jingshen would give her such a secret.
So these are enough, as for the safe, Shen Zhichu didn't check it.
Shen Zhichu can directly copy these copies and take them away, but she is not sure whether Li Jingshen has left behind, such as planting black hands around Bai Qiujing and his family.
In addition to worrying about Bai Qiujing, Shen Zhichu was most worried about Bai Mu and Bai Wanwan, the two women were powerless, so it was not impossible to kidnap them if they really wanted to be ruthless.
Shen Zhichu went out and asked, "Will you really let me go when I put on that wedding dress?"
"right."
"I want an exact time."
"before tomorrow."
Li Jingshen's eyes didn't seem to be lying, Shen Zhichu went out, and gently closed the door of the room, Li Jingshen knew that she agreed.
The makeup artist came over when he saw Shen Zhichu, "Miss Shen, Mr. Li said he wants us to put on makeup and take some photos for you. Do you have any ideas?"