"Shen Zhichu is gone, why should I waste my energy?"
Everything Bai Qiujing did was just for Shen Zhichu. He worked hard to take over the Bai family in order to make Shen Zhichu feel at ease. He faked the illusion that everything was fine, and he didn't want Shen Zhichu to think wildly and feel guilty and uneasy.
In order not to "drag" others, Shen Zhichu is always used to sacrificing herself. It used to be like this, and it is like this now. This comes from the environment in which she grew up, and she lacks a sense of security because she lacks love. She will remember a little bit of kindness to her from others , a piece of candy given casually will also become the most beautiful taste in her memory.
There are undoubtedly two types of people who lack love, one becomes indifferent, and the other is extremely sensitive. The more lacking, the more eager they are. They don't have much sense of security. If others give her a sense of security, she will return it.
Baimu was silent.
Bai Qiujing didn't say anything more, he completely abandoned his work and continued to look for Shen Zhichu.
But no matter how hard I searched, I couldn't find Shen Zhichu, she seemed to have disappeared out of thin air.
Bai Mu also searched for it for a day, asking for news everywhere, but she couldn't find it in Rongcheng, maybe the person is no longer here, disappeared for such a long time, maybe he went abroad.
Bai Qiujing didn't sleep all night, and he ran around in the rain during the day. He didn't eat, and drank a few sips of hot water at most. In addition to the acute gastroenteritis attack, he endured the pain for a long time, and his face turned blue.
The indwelling needle he pulled out was changed to the back of his hand and continued to be inserted. After a short rest, he injected the medicine. After the pain was not so painful, he pulled it out and started looking again. He didn't take his body seriously at all.
Bai Mu knew that she couldn't persuade him, so she let him go. Li Jingshen's phone was not online, so she sent a text message if she couldn't get through.
It's useless to send too much, Bai Mu only sent a short message, four words in a concise manner.
¡ª¡ªTalk face to face.
During the time she left Bai Qiujing, Shen Zhichu did not leave Rongcheng, she was still in District C of Bancheng.
Staring at the mobile phone in a daze every day, or standing by the French window with a book and looking out, Li Jingshen doesn't answer what she says, like a puppet, not like a living person at all.
Li Jingshen felt that sometimes he was quite cheap, he would rather Shen Zhichu scolded him like before, scolded him as a wolf, mentally ill, or scum, rather than lose his soul like now.
Could it be he really did something wrong?
"You haven't eaten anything today, aren't you hungry?"
Shen Zhichu, who was tired from standing, curled up on the rocking chair. The heater was turned on in the room, and she only wore a short-sleeved dress. The clothes she left here six or seven years ago were of good quality, and they smelled musty after a long time. Son, wash and dry to wear.
Shen Zhichu didn't bring any clothes, and she didn't want to wear the clothes that Li Jingshen bought for her, so she might as well wear the old clothes that were left here before.
Li Jingshen looked at her wearing her old dress, with nostalgia in his eyes.
"You are still the same as you were at the beginning, nothing has changed."
Li Jingshen looked at Shen Zhichu like this, and what appeared in her mind was her twenty-year-old appearance. At that time, Shen Zhichu had a flamboyant smile on her lips. Everyone said that Miss Shen was as proud as a white swan. The suitor is defiant, but every time she looks at Li Jingshen with warmth and admiration.
No one expected that Shen Zhichu, who was so proud one day, would give up his face to chase a man, and everyone knew the trouble.
Afterwards, Li Jingshen changed the indifference of the smiling Shen Zhichu, and even the sweet dimples disappeared in the end.
The Shen Zhichu in his memory is getting farther and farther away from him. Even if she is still standing in front of him now, he can't imagine the way she looked at him and smiled in the past.
"The only thing that hasn't changed is you. If I'm still the same as before, I'll be cheap and stupid."
Li Jingshen's heart tightened: "That's not what I meant."
Shen Zhichu sneered and smiled, "Then what do you mean?"
The injury Li Jingshen gave her was a double blow of revenge, not only physical but also physical torture. During the years of her death, Li Jingshen kept this place very well, even the wedding photos she smashed and threw away before were restored. Put it in its original position without moving.
Shen Zhichu couldn't stop the sadness in his heart, so sad that he couldn't even vent his anger.
"Li Jingshen is the only one who deludes himself into thinking that nothing has changed."
Li Jingshen's fingertips twitched, he clenched his hands, and changed the subject without a trace: "Eat something, you have a bad stomach, don't feel hungry."
"Eating with your face makes me so sick I can't eat."
"Then I'll bring it to you."
Li Jingshen turned around, the plum blossoms outside the yard were in bloom, so many flowersRui, it seems that you can smell the fragrance even with the window closed.
Shen Zhichu likes to drink porridge, and Li Jingshen cooked delicious shrimp porridge, with a lot of shrimp meat, the porridge has been boiled for a long time and has already become soft and sticky, and the aroma can be smelled before reaching the kitchen.
This is what Shen Zhichu likes to eat, will she eat it?
In addition to porridge, Li Jingshen also wrapped a lot of wontons and put them in the freezer, as long as Shen Zhichu was hungry and wanted to eat, he could eat them.
Li Jingshen filled a bowl of porridge and brought it upstairs. Shen Zhichu was still curled up on the rocking chair with her knees hugged as before. She looked at the plum blossoms outside, as if fascinated.
After a long time, Li Jingshen went in and put the porridge on the coffee table: "Let's have some porridge."
"Don't eat, I have no appetite."
"I'm not looking at you, I'm going downstairs."
Shen Zhichu's tone was flat: "As long as you touch it, I feel disgusted."
"Then what do you want?"
In the room, Shen Zhichu turned his back to Li Jingshen, let go of the indifference on his face, and said in a tired voice, "Go out, I'm hungry, I can find food by myself, I don't need you to remind me that I will suffer from stomach problems when I am hungry. , I know that I will get stomach problems, and I even know that if it is serious enough, I will get stomach cancer.¡±
Li Jingshen's stern face exuded a strong hostility, and his eyes turned scarlet: "Since you know that you will get sick, eat well, instead of being angry with me here, and just stare blankly for a day without eating!"
He didn't want to use strong means to force Shen Zhichu, but often the method he didn't want to use was the best method, and the porridge was no longer hot when it was set aside.
He tried the temperature, and after making sure that his mouth would not be burned, he walked over and grabbed Shen Zhichu's hand.
She is very light, and she can pull people up straight away. Shen Zhichu was lifted up suddenly and pulled the tendon in her arm. She gasped from the pain and gritted her teeth: "Li Jingshen, let me go!" !"
Li Jingshen threw her onto the bed, then pinched her jaw to force her to open her mouth, and then the other hand went to hold the bowl of porridge, and poured it into her mouth.
The porridge cooked by Li Jingshen tasted good, but the umami taste in it caused Shen Zhichu, who hadn't eaten all day, to experience stomach discomfort. After being forced to drink half a bowl of porridge, her body had a stress response, and she opened her mouth He spat it out, and the corner of his mouth was scratched by a spoon, and the skin was not broken, but it was red.
When Li Jingshen saw her vomit, he immediately let go of her, fearing that she would choke her trachea, and even patted her back to soothe, as if he wasn't the one who pinched her mouth to feed the porridge just now.
Shen Zhichu vomited and tears came out, and the carpet under the bed was also dirty, her eyes were red: "Li Jingshen, are you going to treat me like before?"
Li Jingshen paused, and said: "I don't want to, but who told you to only eat this way, Shen Zhichu, I have a bad temper, since you choose to come to my side, you should be obedient and stay, and you can eat when I tell you to eat, Didn't you say that you know all my methods? Then you don't seem to see the Bai family falling into crisis because of your 'self-abuse', right? "
The room was very quiet, Li Jingshen looked at Shen Zhichu, his black eyes were quiet, and said softly: "You also know that I don't have much time, so just stick to me, it will be good for all three parties."
Threats are the best means.
Shen Zhichu has not felt the pain of nausea for a long time, she met Li Jingshen's serious gaze, knowing that he is really capable of doing anything.
Shen Zhichu glanced at the half-bowl of porridge left on the side, reached out to pick it up with trembling hands, picked up the spoon, and swallowed it tightly in his mouth spoon by spoon.
When Li Jingshen saw her "obedient" appearance, his heart ached beyond measure. After Shen Zhichu ate all of it, he returned to the indifferent appearance just now.
"Do you still want to eat?"
Shen Zhichu shook his head.
Li Jingshen knew that her stomach was relatively small and didn't force her, but if she ate too much, it would make her stomach feel uncomfortable.
He held an empty bowl: "Isn't it enough to be so obedient earlier? You have to make me angry and force you, I have stopped at the Bai family, and they will be on the right track soon, but you have to be clear, I can suppress you." If you can suppress them once, you can also suppress them for the second time, the result depends entirely on your attitude towards me." (Remember the website address of this website: www.hlnovel.com