Like an outsider, Li Jingshen stood alone and watched Shen Zhichu carefully pick up the cat as if he had found a treasure.
He felt very uncomfortable.
Shen Zhichu turned around holding Nian Nian and wanted to leave. After seeing Nian Nian, she really didn't want to stay in this place for a second.
Seeing that she was about to leave, Li Jingshen stretched out his hand to stop her. Although he was thinner than before, he was always taller than Shen Zhichu, standing there like an impenetrable wall.
"I miss you these three days." Li Jingshen is like an abandoned puppy, perhaps because he hasn't had a good rest, his eyes are black and blue, and the eyeballs are entangled with red blood, as if he has cried a lot. In that state all night.
Coupled with the fact that he said this in a hoarse voice, it was hard not to make an ordinary person feel compassion.
But unfortunately, Shen Zhichu is not an ordinary person.
"I see, get out of the way."
After receiving Shen Zhichu's indifferent glance, Li Jingshen felt as if he had been shot in the heart, and it hurt like hell for a while.
He wiped his face: "Shen Zhichu, I said that I miss you very much, the thought that I would die without you, you know?"
"I don't know, and I don't want to know, let alone" Shen Zhichu paused, turned his face and smiled sarcastically, "Aren't you dead now?"
Pain and guilt appeared on Li Jingshen's face. His eye sockets were red, which was caused by the pain. In addition to the chest pain, his head hurt and his legs also hurt. He didn't know how he had the strength to stand here and talk to Shen Zhichu.
"But I'm really dying. Shen Zhichu, I've never been in a relationship in my life. I used to think that liking Xia Mingyue treated you badly and did a lot of wrong things. I know I don't deserve your forgiveness " Li Jingshen looked at her tears streaming out sadly, "I really want to let you go and look at you from a distancebut I tried I really can't do it, Shen Zhichu, I really love you, there is absolutely no one in this world who loves you more than me."
Shen Zhichu hugged the cat in her arms tightly, there were still tears in her eyes that could not disperse, but now they were sinking down, and she looked at Li Jingshen gloomily.
This person said he loved her? How ridiculous.
While saying he loved her, he pushed her into the abyss.
"Do you know why I joined forces with Lu Tingchuan to burn myself here? It was because I hated you, I took revenge on you, and I wanted to get rid of you. Li Jingshen, I have died once. Shen Zhichu is at your mercy, what right do you have to stop here and say you love me?"
The woman who was full of Li Jingshen back then was burned to death in that fire.
Li Jingshen only felt that his chest was getting more and more painful. He bent down subconsciously and wanted to find a place to sit down, but he couldn't because as soon as he left, Shen Zhichu would leave without mercy.
Li Jingshen breathed tremblingly, wiped away the tears on his face, he looked at Shen Zhichu as if he saw a life-saving straw.
He gently raised his hand, just a small move, Shen Zhichu took a few steps back holding the cat, the guard in his eyes was like a knife that pierced his heart.
Li Jingshen lowered his eyes, and a bitter smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.
"I know you hate me, blame me, and don't believe me anymore, but what I'm saying is the truth. It's a great gift from God that you can show up again. I never thought that it would only take two years to cling to you for the rest of my life No, just one year" Li Jingshen raised his index finger.
Lung cancer is in the middle and advanced stage, and it will die in about three years. I heard that people with lung cancer get uglier as they go to the back. Just a short year.
When the time comes for him to die, there will be both sides of life and death, and he will be powerless to entangle him if he wants to.
For such a small wish, as long as he asks Shen Zhichu more, maybe she will satisfy him. He has more confidence, and when he looks at Shen Zhichu's face, his eyes cast aside the pain, and there is more cautious expectation.
"You used to take care of my food, clothing and daily life at home, and I will take care of you for the next year, and I will be your cow and horse."
"I'll slowly make up for what I owed you before. Speaking of which, when we were together, we hadn't done many things" Li Jingshen's eyes were in a daze for a moment, as if he had fallen into the memory of the past.
"In the past three years after you left, I really wanted to be like an ordinary couple. I cook and you take care of the food. We take a walk after dinner. I do all the housework by myself. I am no longer day and night. I work overtime, spend the extra time with you, we can go to the amusement park and watch movies together, yes I still owe you a grand wedding, I owe you a suitable ring, We haven't had our honeymoon together yet"
Shen Zhichu's faceExpressionless, he lowered his head and looked at Niannian in his arms, gently stroking its fur, scratching its neck as before.
After listening to Li Jingshen's "love words", she had a slight reaction, "There is no need to give what I didn't give before, Li Jingshen, have you ever heard a sentence? Belated affection is cheaper than grass, like summer There is no point in existence of a duvet, an electric fan in winter.¡±
Li Jingshen shook his head: "But the fan in winter can wait until summer, and the quilt in summer can also go to winter, right? Since it exists, it must be meaningful."
Shen Zhichu frowned, she really wondered if Li Jingshen couldn't understand people's words.
"But if you love me, do I have to be with you, let alone a year, a month, a day, an hour, a minute, a second, I don't even want to be with you, Li Jingshen, let me ask you, I Why do you have to be with someone who hurt me instead of choosing someone who treats me well from beginning to end? Isn¡¯t it good for us all to have our own lives? Why do you insist on inserting yourself into my life?¡±
"But didn't you force yourself into my life at the beginning? Shen Zhichu, why did you leave as soon as you wanted after you inserted into my life, and escaped completely?" Li Jingshen was so excited that he directly grabbed Shen Zhichu's emaciated shoulders. .
Shen Zhichu was startled, and subconsciously wanted to struggle, but Li Jingshen's hand was as strong as a giant hunting tongs, and she was afraid that too much force would hit Nian Nian in her arms, so she could only stand stiffly on guard.
They are too close to each other's breaths, one is trembling, the other is clear.
Shen Zhichu raised his head, his voice was cool: "Are you still wronged? Then let me ask you, how did you treat me when I loved you and you didn't love me? And how did I treat you? You married me, and for this reason I have drawn blood for Xia Mingyue for four years, and we will not owe each other long ago."
"Li Jingshen, look at this cat. It is so afraid of fire but it wants to save me in the fire. It knew I was dead but waited here for me for three years. I only took care of it for four months. What about you? , Four years, I haven't been able to warm your heart for four years, I want to see what your heart is made of at that time!
"Relying on my love for you, hurt me again and again! Trample my dignity! Lock me at home like a dog and force me to give birth to you. Have you forgotten these? Don't say anything to exchange me for summer." Mingyue is indirectly protecting me, this is just an excuse for your weakness! You are really worse than a cat!"
"You know you love me now, and you want me to forgive you. I didn't strangle you to death with a dog chain. Don't joke about affection. Your regrets are worthless in my eyes."
"Stop talking!" Li Jingshen suddenly called out, he stretched out his hand and hugged Shen Zhichu into his arms, the embrace was three years late, the long-lost breath temperature, it was obviously still the same person, the smell, how could it have changed?
Li Jingshen wanted to hug this woman with all his strength, his arms trembling, as if he wanted to embrace her into his body with such strength, and become one with flesh and blood.
At this moment, Li Jingshen seemed to be hugging a piece of driftwood in a dying struggle in the sea, as long as he let go, he would die instantly.
Shen Zhichu struggled fiercely in his arms, she supported the cat with one hand, and scratched his neck with the other, biting while beating, she scratched a few bright red blood marks on Li Jingshen's chin, and bit her arm hard.
It hurts so much to look at, it's all bleeding, but Li Jingshen doesn't seem to feel it, because for him, another place in his body hurts more than this trauma. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com