Li Jingshen suddenly lost the ability to speak, like a sharp knife pierced into the deepest part of the heart inch by inch, the pain was bloody.
"Li Jingshen, I'm so tired." Maybe she was really tired, but her voice was too soft to be heard.
I used to think that it was good to be alive, but now I realize that living is the most difficult thing, it is too difficult, time turns into a knife and cuts her flesh bit by bit, every minute and every second is torture.
"It was just an accident" All he wanted was for Shen Zhichu to be well, but he found that Shen Zhichu's complexion became more and more unhealthy, and his body became thinner and thinner.
It was he who asked the doctor to forcibly remove their child, but he never thought that Shen Zhichu would lose his motherhood.
"Accident?" Shen Zhichu looked at Li Jingshen and said hoarsely, "Is it an accident that you want to take away my child? It is also an accident that you control my memory? Do you know that one of your accidents will kill a person's life. Li Jingshen You are satisfied, my bird has finally been broken by you."
Can a bird with a broken wing still live?
Li Jingshen admits that he is selfish and can do whatever he can to get what he wants, but now he is helpless, obviously he was the leader at the beginning, but slowly changed positions.
"Shen Zhichu, I did all this because I love you so much."
"Your love is too expensive, I can't bear it." Shen Zhichu really fell in love with Li Jingshen during this period of amnesia. She always sighed that Li Jingshen was very good to her, but now it seems that he gave her All good things will cost her a heavy price.
Now that love has all turned into ashes and disappeared.
"Zhichu, I have never loved anyone in my life, and I don't know how to love anyone. I want to be nice to you, but every time I make things worse"
"There are many things I can't tell you. I'm afraid that you will be stimulated when you are sick, and even more afraid that you will leave me."
"Zhichu, will you never forgive me no matter what I do?"
Li Jingshen's voice became softer and softer. The first sentence was for himself, and the last two sentences were for Shen Zhichu. He was like a prisoner in despair. He was used to the darkness, but Shen Zhichu's appearance became His only light, how could he be willing to return to the darkness after he tasted the warmth, what should he do for the rest of his life?
"I said that I would hate you forever." Shen Zhichu said in a calm tone, saying that he hated him, but his face was very flat and did not reveal a trace of ferocious hatred.
Li Jingshen nodded: "I also said that I will make up for you for the rest of your life, even if you hate me for the rest of your life."
The two of them are now a tight knot, and if they want to loosen it, they can only cut off the other end, and Shen Zhichu's end is already tattered, and it can be broken with a light pull.
Shen Zhichu closed his eyes
After Zhao Qian brought the blue and white porcelain vase containing the ashes back to the villa, he asked the housekeeper to arrange for someone to pack a few sets of clothes and toiletries for Li Jingshen.
Auntie Zhang's eyelids have been trembling for the past two days, her left eye is twitching and the right eye is twitching, and her right eye is twitching non-stop. She feels uneasy.
Before packing up the clothes, Mrs. Zhang asked Zhao Qian: "Mr. Li hasn't come back for several days. Is he going on a business trip somewhere?"
Zhao Qian replied without thinking too much: "Mr. Li is in the hospital right now when he's not on business."
"Why are you in the hospital? What's wrong with you?" Mrs. Zhang asked worriedly.
"It's not President Li, it's Madam who is hospitalized."
When Aunt Zhang heard this, her eyes were both startled and frightened, and she grabbed the apron with both hands: "Madam is back? Why is she hospitalized?"
Zhao Qian didn't notice anything strange about her, and said "um", Shen Zhichu was inconvenient to tell them about the abortion and hospitalization, so he didn't say anything more to change the subject and asked Aunt Zhang to clean it up, and he would take it to the hospital later.
Aunt Zhang went upstairs in a hurry and opened the closet. On the right was Shen Zhichu's clothes, and on the left was Li Jingshen's. Two completely different styles of clothes were placed in the same closet.
Shen Zhichu's clothes are more casual, while Li Jingshen's clothes are mostly strict shirts. From the clothes a person wears, one can probably see the person's usual personality.
Auntie Zhang opened the suitcase, began to carefully pack Li Jingshen's clothes, and finally put two of Shen Zhichu's, holding a sweater, she couldn't help but shed tears.
Madam is in the hospital, does it prove that her baby was removed? Counting the time, the baby in her stomach is four months old.
Auntie Zhang tidied up her clothes and took them down while crying. Zhao Qian waited downstairs, took the suitcase and hurried to the hospital.
Auntie Zhang did not dare to raise her head with red eyes, she rubbed her eyes after the person left, and muttered "? myself.
Li Jingshen lived carefully in the ward, but Shen Zhichu acted like nothing had happened, watching TV in a daze, sometimes staring at the birds outside the window non-stop.
Li Jingshen suddenly remembered what Shen Zhichu said two days ago.
¡ª¡ª"The bird's wings were finally broken by him."
At night, Shen Zhichu was often awakened by nightmares, gasping for breath, like a dying fish struggling on the shoal, Li Jingshen hugged her tightly, his body was very warm but he couldn't warm her heart no matter what.
The cold liquid dripped into her neck, and he was crying for the dead baby, and for Shen Zhichu's loss of the right to be a mother.
Shen Zhichu ignored the indwelling needle on the back of his hand, raised his left hand and grabbed the man's neck forcefully.
Her strength is too weak, let alone strangle him, she can't even hurt him.
The neck that pinched Li Jingshen was trembling all the time, not because of fear or pain, but because of the uncontrollable trembling of the crippled hands.
"Don't touch me, disgusting."
"Okay, I won't touch you, and don't move your left hand, it's still stuck with needles"
The blood ran back a little, but it was fine, but the protruding blood vessel seemed to seep.
Li Jingshen let go of her tremblingly, and returned to sit on the chair beside the bed. He didn't even dare to look at her directly, let alone how to hug her in the best posture.
The ending of the two of them seems to have been doomed to tragedy, so even the intimate gesture of hugging hurts
Shen Zhichu closed his eyes again, his brain began to feel groggy, and sometimes he would confuse the time, and always felt that he was still in that unremarkable town. Although the rental house was not big, it was her home. The bed was small, but it was enough Warm, the food is not exquisite but filling enough to keep children from starving.
Shen Zhichu put his hand on his abdomen, imagining to touch it as usual, and then suddenly woke up with a start, his eyes were pitch black.
Her child has already been peeled out of her stomach, and even the "little house" where he lived was brought out.
It is good if the uterus disappears with the baby, so that the baby will not be cold in the sky
Li Jingshen said that she is sick and cannot have children. She is indeed sick. She has been ill for a long time, and there is no medicine to cure it. The only way to escape is death.
She is clearly alive, but her soul has long since disappeared. Perhaps she accompanied the dead child and burned it into a handful of ashes and put it in the small blue and white porcelain. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com