Li Jingshen's hand that was rubbing the medicine stopped, his throat was dry and hoarse, and his voice seemed to come out of it: "Yes, I didn't treat you as well as you imagined, it can be said that I was not good at all, but you liked me back then. It's true, and now I love you too and want to take care of you for the rest of my life."
Shen Zhichu has no memory of the past, she stays in the lie fabricated by Zhao Qian and him, and thinks that she and Li Jingshen were in love at the beginning, and she can't wait to remember the past, just so that she can love Li Jingshen better now , and can spend the rest of his life in his favor with peace of mind.
But now Li Jingshen told her that their past was not good at all.
Shen Zhichu didn't know the meaning of restoring memory.
"Do you want to know the past?" Li Jingshen asked very carefully.
Shen Zhichu hesitated for a while, and finally shook his head: "The past is the past."
Li Jingshen secretly breathed a sigh of relief, if Shen Zhichu was chasing after the past, he really didn't know what to say.
"But Li Jingshen, although I have lost my memory, it doesn't mean I don't understand anything. I can't tolerate a little sand in my eyes. If you treat me like this again in the future, there will only be an end between us. I would rather die than be wronged. I'm by your side."
Li Jingshen panicked, and subconsciously opened his mouth, but Shen Zhichu interrupted him before he could speak.
"Don't make any promises to me. I still understand the reason why the wolf is coming. We know each other well."
"good"
Shen Zhichu turned around and went to the bathroom to wash his hands. The smell of active oil was very strong. She used hand sanitizer for a long time to get rid of the smell.
While washing her hands, she stared at herself in the mirror, the uneasiness in her eyes couldn't be concealed, she said those words to Li Jingshen and then to herself.
Let it go if you can, and let it go if you can't. She can forget about the past and don't care about it, but she can't easily forgive Li Jingshen just because she said "I'm sorry" in the future, after all, she is not the Virgin.
? After Shen Zhichu washed his hands and went out, Li Jingshen had already packed the medicine box and put on his pajamas. He was quietly standing at the foot of the bed like a wooden man.
Shen Zhichu was a little cold, so he went directly to bed and put on the quilt: "There is one more thing."
"What's up?"
Shen Zhichu looked at Li Jingshen's dim eyes: "Do you not like children?"
Li Jingshenda said: "I like it." How could he not like it, he wanted Shen Zhichu to give birth to his child even in his dreams.
But Shen Zhichu can't get pregnant, and she may not be able to have children for the rest of her life because she has cancer.
"Then you" Shen Zhichu bit his lower lip and paused before continuing, "Then why did you let me take anti-Y pills this afternoon?"
Li Jingshen lowered his eyes: "That's not a drug for avoiding sex"
"No? What's that?"
Li Jingshen can't tell the truth, even though Shen Zhichu said that they don't care about the past again, but as long as she thinks about the past, can she really not care about it?
He knew how much Shen Zhichu hated him, if he really remembered the past, he would probably avoid him far away.
So Li Jingshen didn't dare to gamble, so he could only continue to make up lies: "That's the medicine you take every night, didn't you find it?"
Only then did Shen Zhichu realize that they were all small white pills, and she was a little embarrassed.
"I thought you didn't like the child I gave birth to?" Shen Zhichu said, still looking forward to it, she likes children very much, and she and Li Jingshen are both good-looking, the baby born must be very cute, Shen Zhichu has already thought about it Good name.
"I'm thinking that the best thing is to have a boy and a girl. I have already thought of the baby's name. The boy is called Jinzhao, and the girl is called Suisui. Doesn't Sui Sui have Jinzhao a good meaning?"
Shen Zhichu raised her head slightly, the soft light shone on her face, as beautiful as a painting.
Li Jingshen's mouth turned bitter, "Chu Chu, we will not have children of our own in the future."
Shen Zhichu suddenly seemed to have been splashed with cold water, she asked in a daze, "why?"
"It's because of me." Li Jingshen had a sadness in his brows, as if there was something unspeakable, "I can't"
Shen Zhichu's pupils constricted slightly, and the gap in his heart was too great. This feeling was like finding a candle in the dark to light it with great difficulty, and it was extinguished as soon as he saw a glimmer of light.
All the good things she had imagined just now were gone.
"It's okay" Shen Zhichu said dryly, holding back a smile, "Actually, I'm not ready to be a mother, you can't have children, we can adopt them, I'm justThey came out of the orphanage. When the time comes, we will go to the orphanage to adopt a pair of good babies. The names are the two I just thought of. How about it? "
Shen Zhichu tilted his head and looked at him like a cute cat, Li Jingshen reached out and stroked her hair.
"Do you want to raise a cat first while you are staying at home?"
"Is it okay?" When Shen Zhichu's mood was sinking to the bottom, Li Jingshen's words immediately lit up her eyes, those cunning and round pupils like cats made her look pure and innocent, Li Jingshen could imagine After arriving at her, there is a warm picture of holding a cat.
"Of course, as long as you like."
Shen Zhichu has always liked furry pets, and has wanted to keep one for a long time, but she has never had the chance, and seeing Li Jingshen's meticulous appearance all day long, she guessed that he might not like it, so she never mentioned it.
"But cats will shed hair, do you really not mind?"
Li Jingshen choked for a moment, "I don't mind, someone will take care of the cat's fur."
"Well."
Li Jingshen was planning in his heart to have someone go to the pet market to bring back a cat tomorrow, but Shen Zhichu had already been lying down wrapped in a quilt.
After solving a bunch of things, she is so sleepy now, she looked at the time and it was almost two o'clock.
She said softly in a hoarse voice: "The cat's name is Niannian, there are fish every year, every year is safe and there is a present"
Seeing her tired expression, Li Jingshen felt a little distressed. He stood by the bed and wanted to go to bed and hug her to sleep, but he didn't dare, because Shen Zhichu hadn't asked him to go to bed yet.
When Shen Zhichu saw that the lights hadn't been turned off, and there was no movement in the room, she wondered for a moment what Li Jingshen was up to, she half-closed her eyes and saw that Li Jingshen was still standing beside the bed, and asked lazily, "What are you doing?" Still not sleeping?"
"You didn't put me to bed."
Shen Zhichu almost laughed angrily, originally wanted to ask him to sleep on the sofa, but the sofa is so small and hard, thinking of Li Jingshen's injuries, he finally couldn't bear it.
She lifted a corner of the quilt: "Come up and sleep."
Li Jingshen's expression brightened, he went to bed and put on the quilt like a happy husky, and hugged Shen Zhichu into his arms with every inch. (Remember the site URL: www.hlnovel.com