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Volume 4 Chapter 24 To jump or not to jump

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    The guard recognized Liu Shijie, a beautiful woman who lived in the villa community. She was a hot-blooded man and a pretty girl in the community. They, the security guards, paid attention to her and would quietly comment on her when they were bored in private.  It¡¯s late at night, why is this girl out?  "Miss, what do you want when you go out?" The guard asked out of concern.  Shijie¡¯s condition looks bad. Looking out of the window, she seems to be wearing pajamas.  Whether it¡¯s pajamas or not, the guard can¡¯t actually confirm. There are so many weird clothes nowadays. Maybe people like this style when they buy clothes?  "You don't have to worry about it," Liu Shijie said coldly and bluntly.  The guard was so shocked by this sentence that he lost his temper, thinking that his good intentions were being treated like a fool.  Isn¡¯t it just to look pretty? Why are you so arrogant?  Of course Shijie ignored the guard's slander. She really didn't care what others thought of her.  There are no street lights outside the community, and the villa is bought close to the suburbs. It is not very popular late at night. Unlike the city center, it is extremely noisy even in the latter half of the night.  Shijie didn¡¯t know where to go. Every time she was upset or sick, she would walk around as a habit.  When you walk, you will feel much better.  But obviously, today, this method does not seem to be very applicable. ? Following one road aimlessly to the end, relying on intuition, she took another path. Shijie faintly heard the sound of running water.  In front of it is a bench and several willow trees. The orange lights in the distance are scattered on the willow leaves, giving it a dreamlike feeling. The river that runs through the city center is hidden behind the willows.  Shijie walked under the willow tree, leaned on the cold railing, and stared at the river below in a daze.  The river water is illuminated by the weak light, reflecting a few pieces of light from time to time, like a broken mirror.  Slowly, she lay down on the railing.  The river was very gentle, with the sound of flowing water and occasional reflections. Shijie stared at the river for a long time, her head felt dizzy, and her consciousness began to blur.  This river seems to be an attraction, luring Shijie to get closer and become one with her.  There was a railing between Shijie and the river, and she had the urge to jump down.  "If you jump down, I'm afraid you can be done with it." It is said that suicide is also a kind of traditional Chinese culture.  Generally speaking, in ancient times, when big figures committed suicide, either because they were given poison by the emperor, they couldn't think of it, and they had some spare money, so they chose to swallow gold.  Those who think they are loyal to the country and the country like to hit walls and pillars, and their brains and blood are scattered all over the floor, which is quite a visual impact.  Common people don't have gold, they can't swallow gold; they don't have extra money to buy medicine, hit the wall, etc., they don't dare to try. If they are not afraid of pain and death, they will not be so miserable. The only choice they can make is,  The most economical and affordable way is to hang yourself. It costs nothing, does not hurt too much, and the death scene is not too ugly. Family members will not be too sad when they see it. ?????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? A man of letters, a gentleman, feels that he cannot live any longer, so how should he solve it?  Swallowing gold is too tacky; hanging yourself feels spineless; imitating Japanese culture and having a caesarean section is too painful; imitating ancient loyal ministers and hitting the wall is even more impossible. Those poets who engage in art and pursue beauty do not like that ugly way of throwing themselves into the river.  It's a method that suits them very well.  Since the great patriotic poet chose to commit suicide by drowning in the river, this method of self-commitment has been passed down to Zhang Ruolin's world. Even in the twentieth century, scholars like Wang Guowei and Lao She adopted this method and passed it down from generation to generation.  It is said that the river water is very clear. After death, people in the river disappear in the blink of an eye.  Shijie has also fantasized about her own death countless times.  Actually, it¡¯s more like dreaming.  Dreaming about the herbs on the shore and the orchids on the islet, they are rich in fragrance and green in color.  Dreaming about crystal clear river water, dreaming about beautiful pebbles under the river bed, dreaming about free-swimming fish, dreaming about egrets flying in the sky, dreaming about the blue sky, and dreaming about the white clouds.  I just can¡¯t dream of the sun.  Where is she?  It must be dressed in white, why is it white?  ??White, looks very pure.  The old saying goes like this: If you want to look pretty, dress filial piety. In a Western-style wedding, the bride wears white.  Dressed in bright red, although it looks festive, it would be awkward to throw yourself into the river wearing red clothes.  The state of mind when jumping into the river should be full of sadness.  Just like when Qu Yuan threw himself into the river, he felt sad for the state of Chu. ?Shijie is a young woman who doesn¡¯t care about the country and the people, but she doesn¡¯t want to destroy the poetic sadness.  What will happen after jumping down? Shijie only knows that she will disappear from now on.  All sorrows and troubles, all indifference and pain will come to an end. At the end of your life, write these three words "The End of the Play".  Shijie followed the railing and finally found the stone steps. Going down from the stone steps, you can reach the river.  She reached the river, squatted down, and ran her white hands across the river. The waves splashed on her wrists, wetting her sleeves and the stones under her feet.  The temperature is just right, very cool, not too cold.  Walking on the edge of life and death, Shijie suddenly wondered if Ruolin would know after she jumped.  If Ruolin didn't know, the meaning of her jumping into the river would have been lost.  Do you want to leave her some information to let her know that there was a woman who loved her deeply and died for her?  She was thinking that if Ruolin knew about it, she would definitely cry to death and be in pain. Ruolin is a sentimental girl. Although she is a little overbearing, boyish, careless, and carefree, she has a very soft heart just like her.  heart of.  To Shijie, playfulness is unacceptable.  No one can accept that the heart of a loved one is divided into two halves, and only getting half of it is incomplete. However, Shijie can accept the waning of the moon, but she cannot accept the incompleteness of love.  After all, even if the moon is waning, that half of the moon does not belong to her, but to all the people on earth in this hemisphere.  Of course, if this waning moon belongs to her, she will probably want to get the other half.  Anyway, she just can't accept that Ruolin has someone else.  Ruolin should always belong to her alone.  Even if you can't win her heart, you still have to leave a place in her heart that will always belong to her.  She wants Ruolin to never forget her. Every time she thinks of her, her heart aches.  What I fear the most is that a person will leave quietly, like a water splash, disappearing in the flowing water in an instant.  She wants to leave her mark on Ruolin's heart.  Thinking of happiness, Shijie wiped the corner of her eyes with her right hand, why did she shed tears again? This must be a good day. The tears flowed out again after wiping them away, and suddenly she smelled a strange smell.  After sniffing my slightly wet hands, there was a fishy smell.  As if she had just touched the river water, she put her left hand into the river water again. The smell was very strong.  Shijie¡¯s pretty face wrinkled together, and she blamed herself at the same time, why didn¡¯t she notice it just now?  The river smells so bad, how can I jump into it?  Jumping down and pouring water into your mouth will make you sick to death.  "If it were salvaged, I don't know how ugly it would be." If Ruolin saw it, I'm afraid her last impression of Shijie would be that smelly and aesthetically pleasing corpse.  She doesn¡¯t want to be like this. If it were during the day, she would definitely find that the river water was not clear enough and was extremely turbid, but now it is at night.  Shijie immediately gave up the idea of ??jumping into the river.  Feeling that the river had deceived her, Shijie stood up from the stone so angry that she suddenly slipped and fell into the river with a "plop".
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