As if she had lost her soul, Shijie pushed open the door unsteadily, walked to Zhang Ruolin's door, and gently clicked it a few times. No one responded. After knocking a few times, in this quiet night, the knocking sound floated far away. When she didn¡¯t get a response, Shijie¡¯s heart felt completely numb. She didn¡¯t know what to do, so she knocked on the door desperately, which seemed too weak. She, Shijie, was not a shrew, and she didn¡¯t want everyone to know about this. Xiao Min and Qian Qian should be sleeping soundly, she doesn't want to disturb others' dreams. At the end of the corridor was the stairs. As she walked along the stairs to the end, she heard the cry of "meow". This is Xiao Qian¡¯s pet, and of course Shijie¡¯s pet. When Qianqian was away, Shijie always fed it. Wearing white pajamas, it¡¯s a bit cold in the middle of the night. But the coldness in my heart was worse than the coldness in my body. The eyelashes have long been stuck together, the tears have stopped for a while, and the eyes are a little strange. Sitting on the sofa, hugging her legs and leaning on the back of the sofa, she thought of Ruolin. By this time, has she fallen asleep? She must be asleep, otherwise she would definitely open the door. She thought of Ruolin and lost the smile on her face. If her shadow appeared in her mind normally, Shijie would definitely laugh. She couldn't remember. Should you feel sad? But why don¡¯t I feel that heartache? The whole person seemed to be numb, and Shijie doubted whether she had lost human emotions. Lifting his hand and putting it in front of his eyes, he could not see the slender fingers, which was very strange. I touched my nose and felt something, but I felt like there was a film between my fingers and my nose. In short, it¡¯s not very true. The room was flooded with darkness, and Shijie felt like she was floating in mid-air. When I stood up from the sofa, I seemed to feel no gravity. ??Do all zombies in science fiction movies feel this way? Shijie suddenly thought of it. I heard the cry of "meow" again. From the sound, it seemed that the little cat was hiding under the coffee table. Hearing its voice, Shijie felt a lot better for no reason. ?Bending down, she stretched out her hands to take her little pussy out. Shijie seemed to be touching its smooth and clean fur. She did touch it. Xiaomi touched her hand and ran away quickly. She could only feel the smooth touch. "Do you even dislike me?" Shijie asked in a low voice. But it¡¯s more like talking to myself. "Mi, be good, come here and let me hug you, Mimi." Shijie followed Xiaomi and shouted softly. Xiaomi ran halfway and heard Shijie¡¯s voice. She turned around and didn¡¯t move much. Shijie took the opportunity to grab it and hold it in her arms. Qianqian likes to give Xiaomi a bath. There are no fleas on it. Maybe it was attacked by Qianqian a few times today. Shijie can smell the fragrance of shampoo from it. ???????????????? And it¡¯s the shampoo Shijie specially bought, she likes that brand best. Xiaomi was very warm and kept making "hmm" sounds. Shijie hugged it and it "meowed" twice more. Following Xiaomi's head and touching its back, Shijie asked gently: "Didn't you hate me just now?" She didn't get a response. Xiaomi couldn't understand Shijie's words, but she could hear that Shijie was speaking. Jie's tone was very gentle, and with this comfortable touch, relying on years of experience as a cat, she said "meow" with satisfaction, "Didn't you hate me just now? " "Didn't you hate me just now? " Shijie asked this question over and over again, but never got a response. Her tone was still gentle, and it was so gentle. She suddenly grabbed Xiaomi's belly and slammed it onto the coffee table, "Plop. "With a scream, the cat hit the ground from the coffee table, and the black shadow suddenly disappeared. Hearing the scream, Shijie was suddenly very satisfied, with a trembling feeling coming from her spine. , making her feel comfortable. She straightened her back and smiled nervously. However, after she finished laughing, she felt empty and uncomfortable. "Little girl, she seemed to wake up from a dream. "Mi, Xiaomi, where are you? Come out quickly." No response was received. After Xiaomi was injured, she ran away without a trace. Shijie spoke in a low voice for fear of waking up others, but in the dark room, she She didn't think about turning on the light. She felt guilty for dropping her baby just now. She really felt guilty.I feel guilty, terribly sad, and have the urge to cry. Ruolin ignored her. Even the cat hated her. Is she really that annoying? "Yes, it would be great if she was a little bit stupider. If she turned a blind eye to Ruolin's matter, she might be able to sleep with Ruolin in her arms now. "Why do you have to be so smart? It would be great if I were a fool. But if I become a fool, will Ruolin still like me? Shijie can¡¯t think clearly about this question. "But she really wants to be a stupid woman, but she can't be stupid. Being smart is sometimes a burden, and thinking about problems all day long can be fatal. She really wants to live happily without thinking about anything. When she meets something she likes, she does it. When she meets someone she likes, she does it wholeheartedly. If you fail or lose, don¡¯t think about it anymore. Shijie¡¯s thoughts are like an overloaded motor, constantly turning in the middle of the night. The more I think about it, the more I can¡¯t control it. These problems are all weird. What am I living for? Why doesn¡¯t Ruolin like her and goes to hook up with another woman? What are my shortcomings? Why does Ruolin hate me? What¡¯s so good about that woman Liu Mei? These questions kept spinning in her mind. Often she still couldn't figure out one question, and other questions appeared. After thinking about it for a while, her mood became worse and worse. She slowly opened the door, relying on her nearly twenty-year walking habit, and walked out of the house, but she was thinking about those entangled problems in her mind. The cold wind outside could not cool down her burning head. The fresh air could not blow away her complicated thoughts. Once Shijie enters that peculiar mental state, she seems to have entered another Shijie. There are no stars in sight late at night in the city, and there is no moon today. You can see weird colored lights flashing in the distance, which is very unnatural. She glanced in the direction of the swing, but she didn't sit on it. Pushing open the iron door, there are white street lights, and not a single person can be seen. Along the road, she walked to the garden of the community, where several banyan trees were planted. Thick aerial roots protruded from the branches and wrapped around the trees, which looked a bit strange. I always feel like they are squirming quietly. What a silent night, completely different from the hustle and bustle of the day. This is the most relaxing time for Shijie, but now she can't relax at all. Following the street lights, Shijie walked aimlessly down to the entrance of the community, glanced at the door of the small house next to her, and the guard inside looked at her deeply.