I saw Liu Xiaobing closing his eyes after hearing his words.
"You don't have to pretend. The doctor just said that your body is fine, so please stop pretending to be faint." Xi Yan showed no mercy at all. "Although Sister Ru called me yesterday to explain the matter between you and Sister Ru. Maybe I was still a little uncomfortable when facing you, but I know that it was really a misunderstanding and the responsibility does not entirely lie with you. More Besides, Sister Ru left yesterday, and she is completely out of your sight. I will not pursue this matter any further."
Hearing that Wang Ru was gone, Liu Xiaobing's brows couldn't help but twitch, and an inexplicable sadness surged out of his heart.
Maybe he and Wang Ru have no feelings at all, but that stubborn woman who longs to be a mother has her own child after all. Now that he hears that she wants to take her child away from his sight, how can he feel sad? Waves?
He suddenly felt a little sad
"This is Sister Ru's own decision. She doesn't blame you. Everyone understands her desire to be a mother, so there is no need for you to blame yourself."
Xiyan still couldn't bear it. Seeing the obvious twitching in the corners of Liu Xiaobing's eyes, she comforted her.
"However, even now, I still want to know what you really think about me, Wang Ya, this lady who claims to be your baby kiss, and the female mayor who looks at you abnormally. , what kind of mentality do you have, and what choice will you make about our feelings for you? I hope you will make a decision today, as long as you choose not me, Xiyan, and the reason is still there. If you convince me, then I will definitely turn around and leave, and I promise that I won¡¯t have any tangles with you in the future!¡±
"You really want to know what I'm thinking?" Liu Xiaobing opened his eyes and stole Xi Yan's words.
The voice is a little dry and hoarse, and there are also some complex feelings in the tone.
Xi Yan didn¡¯t speak, just nodded.
"What about you?" After Liu Xiaobing got the answer, he turned and looked at the other women.
It¡¯s just that the glance passed through Lin Xueer¡¯s eyes inadvertently.
"Tch! What are you looking at me doing? I don't have any emotional entanglements with you! Besides, even if I find a boyfriend in the future, he will definitely not be such a playboy type!" Although Lin Xueer's first thought was She thought so disdainfully, but when she saw Liu Xiaobing's casual look across her, she suddenly felt an inexplicable throbbing in her heart.
Those eyes gave her a somewhat complicated look, mixed with sadness, entanglement, melancholy, and some helplessness.
Precisely because of this look, Lin Xueer suddenly gave up the idea of ??getting up and leaving, leaving space to these four emotionally tangled young men and women.
Because she has nothing to do with her here.
But when she saw the complicated look in Liu Xiaobing's eyes, she suddenly decided to stay here.
Because she wanted to know what was the reason for the big boy in front of her to have such a look in his eyes that made people feel heart-beating.
Seeing several women nodding in acquiescence, Liu Xiaobing looked at them one after another for a while.
Slowly spit it out from your mouth. "I feel that none of you are suitable for me."
"Why?" All the girls said in unison at the first time.
"Don't you guys say anything, just listen to me, okay?" Liu Xiaobing stopped them and paused for a moment.
"Do you know which song has always impressed me the most? It's "Chess Piece" by Faye Wong. Maybe when you hear this, you will wonder why I suddenly said these things and why I answered us with a song. Inappropriate reason. Because it was originally a song about a woman expressing her sad mood. It said that she was in a passive position in love, like a chess piece at the mercy of others, but she seemed to have no choice. It seemed to mean to flaunt herself. She is a silly woman who sacrifices everything for love. She is unwilling but unable to escape the shackles of love.
Yes, maybe Faye Wong just wanted to express this feeling. But for me, I heard a different feeling from this song, or it can be said that I heard a different feeling from this song, and these are what I really want to tell you.
Indeed, life is like a chess piece, and since we come to this world, we are destined to be just a chess piece. Of course, this metaphor may be a little inaccurate for you, because your destiny is always in your own hands. Because you always feel like you are controlling the entire chess game of my life. And I am destined to be a soldier who cannot retreat in my life, because I must have my persistence. In fact, these have nothing to do with love, what is really related is family affection. "
Speaking ofHere, Liu Xiaobing's face clearly showed a helpless smile.
"Speaking of which, you should know some of the situations in my family. That is the unpleasantness that happened between my grandfather and my father. Maybe both of them were not at fault, but the facts that resulted have left an insurmountable mark in their hearts forever. The result is that the two have no contact with each other, and they don't feel like a complete family!
In this situation, the saddest thing in my heart is actually my father. Maybe now he can understand my grandfather¡¯s helpless behavior at that time, but he absolutely can¡¯t let go of the fact that my grandma died in a foreign country and ended up without a place to stay. This was his biggest knot and the only reason why he couldn't forgive his grandfather.
Do you know? In the years when our family first settled in QD, whenever the holidays came, those were definitely the days that my father didn¡¯t want to face the most. When others are laughing and gathering together, he always shuts himself in the room and feels sad alone, because he longs for family and family gatherings! It's just that he is helpless and helpless, because he really doesn't have it!
This scene lasted for many years, until he married my mother, until he had two sons, my brother and me, and until the four of us formed a relatively complete family, my father finally got out of the haze in his heart and became a family. The hope and vision of life. "
At this point, Liu Xiaobing's tone was choked up, and he just smiled bitterly again.
"Haha, you may find it a bit unbelievable when I say it. You don't know what kind of life I lived at home when I was a child. My father was a scholar and worked as a private teacher in the village, earning only a few dozen yuan a month. My mother took care of me. We have several acres of thin land, tending livestock, and taking care of my brother and me. She had not had enough food and clothing since she was a child, so she only survived with the help of kind people in the village, and her body has always been very weak. . So it¡¯s not hard for you to imagine our family¡¯s living conditions, right? It¡¯s no exaggeration to say that I¡¯m already in junior high school, but I never have even a dime of pocket money in my pocket.
But even though life is poor, my parents still feel extremely happy! Because I didn¡¯t know that my grandfather was still alive at the time, they were two nominal orphans, and they really had an indescribable love for this small family that supported each other and had a pair of sons! What's more, my brother and I have been good at studying since we were young, and it gave them hope for a better life!
"It's a pity that this poor but peaceful life was broken by real life as my brother and I grew up."