I didn't want to talk about family affairs before I was 30. At that time, I had a traditional mentality that family scandals should not be made public. Later, another voice emerged in my heart, which was to face everything calmly. Especially when I participated in the self-help meeting of Uncle General Mobilization, I saw those strange men telling real stories, and I heard my friend Lin Shao telling his family, love, and marriage in front of everyone. I was deeply touched. Maybe Mr. Lin is right. Only by telling the most embarrassing experiences in your heart that you don't want to recall can you truly be able to afford it and let it go. Since I asked the fourth question, my mother has given me a little bit of a good look. As for Master Shi Yongyong, he is too busy, busy doing business, busy eating, drinking and playing cards. Generally, he has no time to care about me. Only when he loses at cards will he go home and get angry with me. Because of this, I often pray that he wins every time. Not long after, I witnessed my parents fighting for the first time. It may not be accurate to say that there was a fight. In fact, a woman who was eight months pregnant was chasing a man who was suspected of cheating with a kitchen knife. This incident caused my mother to have fetal turbulence and became the root cause of her illness. This incident also attracted dissuasion from relatives on both sides because they were getting divorced. That was the first time I experienced their divorce. I was very scared at the time. I was afraid that after they left, no one would want me. Many years later, after I experienced their eighteenth divorce, I suddenly changed my mind: Why don¡¯t you just divorce! As for the reason for their first divorce, it¡¯s a long story. At that stage, our family ran the first dance hall in the town. There were five ladies in total in that dance hall. Of course, in that era, people didn¡¯t call prostitutes ladies, but ¡°cats¡± or ¡°cat ladies.¡± At that time, there was also a very popular anti-pornography movie called "Persian Cats". The so-called Persian cats were the code names of a group of prostitutes. In the Sichuan dialect at that time, people commonly called looking for a lady: Catching a cat. In that era, every time Master Shi Yongyong got drunk, he would tell his glorious deeds at the top of his voice: "I think back then, I was carrying a kitchen knife when I was twelve years old, and catching cats when I was thirteen" Because of this, the small town A bunch of gangsters worshiped him. My mother suspected that during her pregnancy, Master Shi Yongyong had an affair with the cat lady in the dance hall. The two escalated from a quarrel to a fight, and then from a fight to a divorce. Under the dissuasion of relatives and friends on both sides, the marriage was not divorced and the dance hall was transferred. Without the song and dance hall, Master Shi Yongyuan opened a teahouse again, and devoted his limited youth to unlimited gambling business for many years. In the 1980s, Master Shi Yongyong did master some of the world's most popular gambling skills. He often won more than he lost when he went out to play cards. In the 1990s, many gambling methods were different from those in the 1980s, and Master Shi Yongyuan gradually failed to keep up with the times. Moreover, as he passed thirty and went straight to forty, his brain became increasingly insufficient. It is said that he could count cards when he was in his twenties, but he lost this ability after he passed thirty. In this way, a generation of gambling gods in the small town changed from winning more and losing less to losing more and winning less. It just so happens that my mother is a very snobbish small-town woman. Usually when Master Shi Yong wins money, she will not express her opinion. Once Master Shi Yongyong lost money, she became dissatisfied, and the two often quarreled over this. In 1994, the conflict between the two over gambling became irreconcilable. In order for Master Shi Yongyuan to quit gambling, they closed the teahouse after discussion. From then on, my mother opened a small restaurant, and Master Shi Yongyong showed a strategic vision that amazed later generations of time travellers. He started selling something called Sanzhu Oral Liquid. In the next two years, our family was thriving and nourished. In 1996, Master Shi Yongyong was no longer satisfied with selling oral liquid. After figuring out the routine, he chose to be self-reliant and teamed up with a group of people to sell something called a swing machine. That kind of thing should be regarded as a product of the nascent stage of MLM in our country. It only took half a year for Master Shi Yongyuan to succeed. He successfully offended all his relatives and friends. He summed up a successful marketing model: focusing on acquaintances. Because of this, the relatives and friends who were deceived have no contact with our family, and the relatives and friends who were not deceived also stay away from our family. In my memory, since that year, even my uncle and aunt who often came to my house have never visited me again. Occasionally, I met my parents on the street, and no one said hello to each other. The only good thing is that once I met my uncle on the street, he asked me to go to his house to play when I had time, just don't tell my parents. At that time, I still didn¡¯t hate Master Shi Yongyong. I even thought he was great. He sacrificed a lot and endured a lot for this family. Later I discovered that I was too wishful thinking. 70% of the money he earned in the most unreasonable way was spent on the gambling table, 20% on banquets, and the last 10% on At home "Blessings come in pairs, and misfortunes never come alone." While Master Shi Yongyuan was busy with his business and scolding others with cold expressions, my mother was not idle either. She has never been a fuel-efficient person, and she would not be happy if something went wrong. She believed in a religion, which was neither Christianity nor Catholicism, but the religion of Li Moumou. Yes, my mother practiced wheel kung fu at that time. ¡°Later, when Wheel Gong was suppressed across the country, she almost faced jail time. Since then, she has become a bit weird. As for what kind of strange thing it is, I can¡¯t tell. During those years, there were also some very tender stories. One day, Master Shi Yongyong went to a parent-teacher meeting. I happened to get the first place in the exam. He stole the show at the parent-teacher meeting. When he came back, he promised me: "If you come first in the exam next time, I will quit." Wine!¡± So, I really got the first place in the exam. When he saw my report card that day, he was very happy and said: "Go get me a drink!" I said: "Didn't you agree to stop drinking?" He said: "What do you know? You got first place in the exam, of course I do. Let¡¯s celebrate.¡± Just like that, he filled a bottle of white wine in front of me. Master Shi Yongyuan is a very emotional person, he is easily impressed. Once he watched a TV series in which a father quit smoking, drinking and gambling for his son. In the end, his son was admitted to college and the family lived a happy life. After watching this play, Master Shi Yongyong was very touched. He once again promised me: "If you get the first place in the final exam this year, I will definitely stop gambling!" So, I got the first place again. I still remember that after I got my transcript that day, I ran home happily. As soon as we got home, he was about to go out, and I breathlessly told him: "Dad, I got first place in the exam!" He didn't have any reaction, and casually said: "Wait, wait until I come back from playing cards." Under my stunned gaze, he went out to play cards coolly. That was the first time I really realized that he never took me seriously. After 1997, not only did Hong Kong have a very difficult time, but my family also had a very difficult time. Master Shi Yongyuan has become notorious in the small town, and it is becoming increasingly difficult to make money. We moved again, leaving town A where we had lived for many years and moving to town B, which is more affluent. During that period, my mother basically didn¡¯t care about anything. She was obsessed with her faith. Apart from washing clothes and cooking, she devoted all her time to her faith and practiced Qigong behind closed doors whenever she had time. In order to show her preference, she often asked Xiaohai to protect her when she practiced Qigong and never let me get close. She also made a promise to Xiao Hai: "When Mom is done, I will accept you as my apprentice." At that time, I was particularly jealous of Xiao Hai. I learned to smoke and drink in 1996, probably because my mind was too unbalanced. Xiaohai is a very powerful person. In my childhood, he has always been the target of my pursuit. I usually get the first place in the class, but he often gets the first place in the grade. He is the real hope of his parents, and I am nothing. ¡°Later, I learned that Xiaohai had a more powerful place, and he had a special purpose for Master Shi Yongxin. In the summer vacation of 1997, Master Shi Yongxin took his two sons to visit my second aunt. Because of the swing machine incident, my second aunt originally didn¡¯t want to talk to Master Shi Yongxin, but in the end she couldn¡¯t bear to turn away our two children. Everyone knows that the second aunt loves Xiao Hai the most. She always thinks that Xiao Hai is the hope of the entire family. My grandfather was a landowner and had two wives and ten children, seven boys and three girls. Among my grandfather¡¯s children and grandchildren, there has never been anyone who ranked among the top twenty in the class. Including me, I never experienced the feeling of being among the best before I was in the third grade of elementary school. But Xiaohai is different. He has been number one since the first grade of elementary school and has been a top student for more than ten years. Because of this, Xiaohai is regarded as the hope of this family, and he is simply the banner figure of the third generation of our family. In that era, the mantra my uncles, aunts, and aunts used to educate their children was always this sentence: "Look at how great Xiao Hai is," or another sentence: "If you were half as good as Xiao Hai, I would die in peace!" Every time he visits relatives, Xiaohai receives various gifts and lots of pocket money. ?There is a memorable incident in my childhood. That year, our brothers went to pay New Year greetings to our fourth uncle. The fourth uncle gave Xiaohai a red envelope, and the fourth aunt specially prepared a Saint Seiya toy for him. I was elated at the time, thinking that even if my gift wasn't as great as Xiao Hai's, it wouldn't be much different. As a result, I forgot about it for a long time, and my fourth uncle and aunt had no intention of giving me anything. I couldn't help but ask: "Fourth uncle, where am I?" The fourth uncle said impatiently: "Son, wait until you get the first place in the exam." From then on, I never entered the fourth uncle's house again. When we go to home, we continue to talk about the experience of going to the second aunt's house. When I was picking up marbles outside the door that day, I heard Master Shi Yongyong inside the room say: "Second sister, even if you don't believe me, you should believe Xiao Hai. To tell you the truth, the family can no longer open the door, and Xiao Hai's tuition fees have become Question. For Xiao Hai¡¯s sake, please help me once. I won¡¯t make the swing machine anymore. When I get back, I¡¯ll open a shop and run a small business honestly.¡± Forever master twenty thousand. But Master Shi Yongyong didn¡¯t open a shop. He took us to the county town for a few days. Xiaohai and I spent two days playing at Uncle Wu's place in the county town. On the third day, I saw the distinctive face of Master Shi Yongyuan. Whenever he loses money, he must look like this. That night, he ignored my presence and ran to the house to discuss with Xiaohai, asking Xiaohai to insist that he would go to Beijing to attend a summer camp immediately. The next day, he used this excuse to lobby his fifth uncle, and borrowed 10,000 yuan from his fifth uncle on the grounds that Xiaohai was going to Beijing to attend a national summer camp for primary school students. It was then that I realized that Xiao Hai was actually his tool to defraud money. ¡°But I am not even qualified to be his tool to defraud money. I am so worthless, no wonder I have no status in this family. In the autumn of 1997, when everything was withering, my life showed signs of recovery. That year, an old friend of Master Shi Yongyuan came back from afar and came to my house specially. That uncle is very special. I always call him Uncle Hongtashan. Uncle Hongtashan comes from a wealthy family and has been smoking Hongtashan since the early 1990s. You know, the salary of an ordinary worker in that era was only 200 yuan. Smoking cigarettes that cost 7 yuan a pack was simply too luxurious. Every time Uncle Hongtashan came to my teahouse to play cards, he would give me 10 yuan and ask me to buy cigarettes for him. He would never give me the remaining 3 yuan directly. I particularly like Uncle Hongtashan, and I wish I could help him buy ten packs of cigarettes every day. Uncle Hongtashan also likes me very much. One time when we were having dinner, Master Shi Yongyong deliberately told all the advantages of Xiaohai, trying to divert Uncle Hongtashan's attention to Xiaohai, but Uncle Hongtashan said under the influence of wine: "This kid Xiaohai is evil. I don¡¯t like the evil ones¡± Because of this sentence, I prefer Uncle Hongtashan. How bad Xiao Haiyin is, I only need to give you one example. When I was in the third grade of elementary school, I borrowed a toy from Hyoga, one of the five Saint Seiya brothers, to play with at home. Xiaohai saw it and grabbed it directly. I was definitely not happy and started fighting with him. At this time, Master Shi Yongyong heard the sound and came over. Xiaohai cried bitterly and said with great grievance: "Dad, he took my toys and beat me!" . ????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? Uncle Hongtashan only stayed in the town for a few years and then left. It is said that he went to a big city to do big business. He came back this fall just to see his old friends and take care of his old house in the town. That was the first time I felt that I had surpassed Xiaohai, because Uncle Hongtashan specially gave me a digital pager. In those days, this was a very rare thing. That night, Master Shi Yongyuan had a profound heart-to-heart talk with me. The final requirement of this heart-to-heart talk was that I try to get the first place in the next test, so that he would take me to see Uncle Hongtashan and do something by the way. I understand that I finally have the opportunity to become his tool to defraud money. But I couldn¡¯t be happy. I didn¡¯t know what they were thinking. Anyway, at that time, I had no shame to meet any relatives and friends, and I didn¡¯t want this family to deceive relatives and friends through me. That half-term exam, I had the heart to hand in a blank paper, but I didn¡¯t have the courage. I chose to pretend to be sick and ended up failing in the exam. Master Shi Yongyuan is an expert in heresy, and he quickly exposed my conspiracy. That day he grabbed a piece of plastic water two fingers thick in angerAfter beating me and breaking the water pipe, he took out his belt and beat me until my skin was bruised. That was the first time I was beaten without crying. At the age of fifteen, I already had a certain sense of resistance. Instead, I was laughing. I smiled and yelled at him: "Even if you beat me to death, you can't lie to me." Got the money!" He finally stopped and looked at me with a strange look. Since then, he has never hit me again. A few days later, he came to me and apologized. That was the first time he apologized to me. I was moved by his sincerity and I forgave him. He promised me that he would take me to Chengdu during the National Day to watch Quanxing play against Shenhua. I was immediately blinded by this empty promise, and the small universe was completely burned. During that period, I was hopelessly obsessed with football, so crazy that I spent all my spare time playing football. At that time, I was full of expectations for Sichuan Football Team. Even many years later, I can still casually name Li Bing, Wei Qun, Yao Xia, and Ma Mingyu. At that time, these people were the Four Heavenly Kings in the minds of Sichuan women and the Siguniang Mountain in the minds of Sichuan men. During that period, I always had a dream in my heart, hoping to watch a Quanxing football match live. It would be great if we could see Quanxing VS Wanda, or Quanxing VS Shenhua. For this game, I worked hard to perform. That year¡¯s National Day happened to be my birthday, and my family hosted a banquet for Uncle Hongtashan. Later I found out that at that birthday party, Master Shi Yongyuan successfully borrowed 30,000 yuan from Uncle Hongtashan. I prefer to understand this kind of "borrowing" as cheating. The next day, Uncle Hongtashan left and went to a big city. I was restless and had insomnia every night from that day on. Whenever I close my eyes, I see Uncle Hongtashan¡¯s smiling face. I know that I am the culprit of this incident. My most respected uncle Hongtashan was deceived because of me. I don¡¯t know if I will have a chance to see him again in the future. After Uncle Hongtashan left, Master Shi Yongyong snatched the pager that Uncle Hongtashan gave me and put it on his waist. When he walked, he always lifted up the clothes around his waist intentionally or unintentionally, for fear that others would not know that he had a pager. Similar. I felt bad, so I secretly got the schedule from a classmate, and I was shocked to find that there was no match between Quanxing and Shenhua during the National Day. I still didn't give up. A few days before the National Day holiday was about to end, I asked him: "Are you still going to watch the ball?" Master Shi Yongyuan was very calm: "No time, let's go next year." That afternoon I slipped out and took a bus The car arrived at the county seat. When I met my fifth uncle in the county town, I lied and borrowed 100 yuan from him. I spent 35 yuan to buy a ticket and take a long-distance bus to Chengdu. I passed by the Quanxing team many times outside their home stadium, but in the end I couldn¡¯t get in. That was the first time I ran away from home. Many years later, when I think back on this incident, I still can¡¯t accept it. It was the first time in my fucking life that I ran away from home for Chinese football! ¡¤