Is Dorothy afraid of a fire? If she had to answer it herself, the answer would just be: not afraid. However, although it cannot be said that he is afraid, when he does all kinds of small tricks in private and keeps the other party in the dark, it looks like he has played a trick on everyone, and ultimately leads to the current situation even if it is not all because of himself. Dorothy still feels apologetic when faced with a misfire. This kind of apology is not very strong, and for her, there is a reason and necessity to do so. The more she thinks deeply about everything in the doomsday fantasy, the more she feels that what she did is not wrong.
Yes, if I have to say it, when Dorothy acted like this, she felt that she had a rightful name. But even so, she would still find it difficult to show off in front of him. This feeling of having to be secretive will also make her doubt whether what she is doing is really correct. Since she cannot be aboveboard, is her righteousness a kind of hypocrisy? Although she always doubted herself, she still did everything she wanted to do. Even if you keep asking yourself whether this is the right thing to do, you will eventually give yourself a proper reason and tell yourself that this is the right thing to do.
Dorothy does not regret everything she has done so far. Because this is the conclusion she came to after countless observations and reflections, and she never intends to regret and leave just after patting her butt. She also thought about the possible consequences and made sufficient psychological preparation before executing the plan with a cold attitude. Compared with the determined people she had met, she didn't feel that she lacked much in terms of attitude.
Having said that, it would still be great if we could leave the London Repeater before waking up from the fire. Dorothy did not deny her feelings.
Once you wake up from a fire and know what Dorothy did inside the repeater in the past, what will your feelings and thoughts be like? In any case, a confrontation was inevitable, but Dorothy didn't know what she should say about the accident. Although everything in the doomsday fantasy was real to her, there was no doubt that the hospital reality was more real and more like the source. No matter what she did or what happened in the doomsday illusion, if this influence cannot interfere with the reality of the hospital and is only limited to the doomsday illusion, then this influence is nothing more than an illusion to her.
Dorothy didn't know how Xise viewed the relationship between the reality of the hospital and the doomsday fantasy, and she also believed that she could not put the two on an equal footing like Gao Chuan did, let alone the people like Huo Zhao and others in the doomsday fantasy. Likewise, fix your own cognitive foundation in the doomsday illusion.
Of all the people she knew, she felt that her perspective on these things was actually closer to those of the researchers in the hospital. Even though Dr. Ander's team most often uses the color center, as far as she is concerned, she feels that she is more compatible with Dr. Ander's team.
If possible, Dorothy actually doesn't want people in the doomsday fantasy to know what she has done. She completes the plan quietly. In this way, everyone's pain will end unconsciously and can be reduced. There is a possibility that they will overreact after knowing their own plan.
Without everyone noticing, it is no longer possible to end the doomsday illusion, end the pain of all doomsday syndrome patients, and end the depressing and despairing future that Dorothy feels is the most ideal situation. .
Omi is right, the deviated ritual of Torchlight may have had the strongest impact on her. What hurt Dorothy the most was not that her spirit was hit, but that the advantages she had painstakingly created, the carefully laid traps, and the various means used to correct the progress of the plan had almost all failed in the distortion of this deviation.
The plan that was completed with painstaking efforts and exhaustion was almost completely overturned and fell into an irreversible situation.
By this time, Dorothy had gotten over the initial shock and self-blame and reorganized her thoughts. She felt that the reason why she still didn't give up at this point was not because the plan seemed to be theoretically successful. To go deeper, it is actually because those around me have never said that they want to give up. Even in such difficult times, even if they have unharmonious ideas and positions, they are still trying to do more things. Therefore, you cannot be the first to give up.
??We are all facing the same danger, the same hardship, the same despair and madness. Why don¡¯t others give up, but why do I have to give up?
From this perspective, Dorothy feels a bit like "she is actually being dragged along by others". However, it doesn't matter even if she is dragged away by others. Dorothy has a kind of stubbornness. She will never give up first. Even if she is shameless and insists on being dragged away by others, she will continue to do so.go ahead.
Therefore, when Omi mentioned the fire, she could say: "It doesn't matter." She really didn't want to face the fire at this time, but if there was really no way to avoid it, she would never apologize to the other party. if.
"Is it really okay? You actually care about how others will think of you, right? You actually care about how other people think of you, right?" Omi stared at her with sharp eyes, "Although you have been insisting, you are actually A coward, aren't you? Do you think others will forgive you?"
"No." Dorothy had never thought that the people she used to execute the plan would forgive her, but it actually didn't matter what they thought, because: "They can't forgive anything anymore, they All are dead."
"So, because you think they will die no matter what, why not let them make more contributions to your plan on the premise that they must die?" Omi asked back: "Can you say this to the fire escape? ?¡±
"On the other hand, Omi, you are also the one who has your own plans, and you are also the one who silently watched me complete the plan. How would you answer this question?" Dorothy threw the question back again.
"Me? I don't think there's any problem with this. I can say it even in front of the fire." Omi said completely nonchalantly: "If the death of other people will promote my plan, then it doesn't matter if they all die, or It's better to die, that's what I think. You should know that I have always been quite selfish, but you are different, right? Emotion, when I understand this, I know that no matter how close you are to the ultimate weapon in terms of ability, you are still an imitation full of flaws and can never become the real ultimate weapon. On the other hand, those who hope Isn¡¯t it quite selfish for you to be the ultimate weapon?¡±
During the conversation between the two, the entire London repeater was emitting a strange sound that not everyone could hear, but those who could hear it would feel that this was a sound that something had gone wrong. It was as if the gears of the clock were stuck. Although the power still allowed the mechanical structure to operate in sequence, it could not rotate no matter what. It was a jamming sound, also like a cracking sound, which made people feel that the repeater was undergoing some serious test and might collapse at any time.
When she heard this voice, Dorothy even felt that this was the result of the antagonism between herself and Omi. First, it was the antagonism between herself and Omi that led to the antagonism between the three pillars that formed the basis of the repeater. Later, The influence of this opposition is getting bigger and bigger, involving more factors, thus amplifying it into a terrible impact that affects the entire repeater structure.
However, Dorothy could no longer judge whether this was actually the case. Just now, all connections between her and the London repeater have been interrupted, and all the permissions she once had have been blocked. Even though the super system has been supporting it, the name "Dorothy" has been removed from the safe list. On the contrary, Father Sisen, who was standing beside him and unable to communicate normally, still retained the authority occupied by the "Black Nest" to a certain extent.
After all, this London repeater belongs to both Netball and NOG, and "Black Nest" is also a member of NOG's permanent governing body.
Those mysterious organizations that once formed the NOG are now very few left. Among the remaining mysterious organizations, there are also very few surviving mysterious experts. Just like the "Black Nest", according to personnel records, Father Sisson is already the last survivor of this mysterious organization. Even during the period of his disappearance, his name was almost included in the death list and completely removed from the authorized personnel.
The status and authority of the "Black Nest" are an important help for Father Sisson to successfully invade the London repeater.
Dorothy doesn¡¯t know why Omi, who has now regained most of the authority over the London repeater, still retains authority over the ¡°Black Nest¡± and Father Sisson, but she doesn¡¯t intend to speculate in depth. Unless she can leave the London Repeater, no matter what Omi does, she will be in the driver's seat, and she can only let it go.
Therefore, getting rid of the London repeater must be the primary goal.
In this tense atmosphere, the confrontation between the two sides is still based on communication. In Dorothy's view, it definitely does not mean relaxation or relaxation.
Because, from the beginning, this kind of communication would not be able to achieve results. In the current situation, language is the most fragile force, because neither oneself nor the other party can give up their own ideas and follow the other party's pace and plan. As a result, the goals that both parties have worked hard for may very well be lost. It's always been different. The reason for cooperation in a certain process, just because, to achieve different goals, we have to go through a similar process, that's all.
Between people with different goals, different means, different cognitive and thinking angles, and different priorities, but still insist on their own opinions, it is meaningless to want the other party to understand your language. Even if you really let the other party understand you, It is meaningless unless the other party can admit that their own idea is better and more correct, and is willing to follow this better idea to do things. Many times, even if the other party admits that their own ideas are better and more correct, they are still more willing to go their own way.
In this way, contradictions always exist, confrontation is inevitable, understanding is meaningless, and language is weaker than ever, but it is not as efficient as directly using violent methods to transform the other party's thoughts.
Under the premise that communication is meaningless and absolutely impossible to achieve results, what is hidden behind the confrontation that is still carried out in the form of communication is definitely not the communication itself.
Dorothy didn't know what Omi did in this exchange, but she did try to implement ideological transformation on Omi herself. Consciousness walkers are best at doing this kind of thing. Although she is not a consciousness walker, she is There was no shortage of such means. On the other hand, although she didn't feel it, she didn't feel that Omi didn't make any small moves on her "thoughts".
¡°Perhaps it was the defense line established in the past that prevented the other party from making great achievements in one fell swoop, or perhaps it was because the other party¡¯s methods were too clever and prevented him from noticing it at the first time.
Consciousness, thought, cognition, and all methods, processes, and phenomena that are subjective to the objective are all targets that can be attacked. For all things that can recognize "self", all things that can think, and rely on thinking to guide behavior, this kind of attack will have the most thorough impact.
It¡¯s hard to tell whether your thinking has been affected when you start thinking.
Dorothy didn¡¯t believe in the instincts possessed by her Omi-completed body, but she couldn¡¯t completely stop using this instinct. The reason why instinct is instinct is that it seems to be resistable, but it does affect a person's understanding of self every moment. On the other hand, precisely because he uses such a body, Omi's influence on him will theoretically be more direct and secretive.
In this kind of confrontation that is invisible, intangible, and even impossible to feel, she uses the "super system"'s observation data of herself as a reference. When connected to the "super system", she had already begun to back up and analyze her self-perception and thinking patterns at that time. Based on the current state as a standard, it is also possible to clearly understand what changes have occurred in one's ideology and behavioral activities in the following time.
She even eliminated suspicious points from the initial sample and completed a minimal backup. Once something goes wrong with her ideology, she will use this backup to overwrite her self-understanding. Perhaps the "self" restored from this minimal backup is also missing too many things to be truly regarded as the original "self", but it can avoid the enemy's infiltration and influence to the greatest extent.
The ideological battle never stops during communication, it is just invisible. This kind of battle is even more secretive and anxious than the direct material destruction.