Looking back on it afterwards, she felt ridiculous for her reaction at that time. She just poked at the fried eggs on the plate in front of her, and her brain didn't even think about what he was talking about, but just planned what she should do that day. thing. ? There is no doubt that his daughter and him come first. Returning to Korea is no better than Japan. In Japan, no one knows who she is. The trend caused by "Sorry, I Love You" has long faded over time. She can go wherever she wants. Can.
But in South Korea, such freedom is obviously a luxury. She is thinking about how to take her daughter out to play more. After all, no matter how young the child is, she cannot stay in this small corner of the house all day long.
On the other hand, she is concerned about his work and rest. She knows that he is a workaholic. If no one controls him, he can almost eat, sleep, and devote himself to the company, which is definitely not good for his health. There was nothing she could do to help her at work, and the only way she could do it was to arrange her life. She even began to consider whether she could learn some nutritional medicine, massage techniques, etc. from Sachiko.
She just asked casually: "What are you talking about?"
"Me and Yoona"
Ding¡ª¡ª
The metal chopsticks punctured a small piece of fried egg and hit it on the plate, making a crisp buzz. She turned to look at him, with residual confusion in her expression. The world seemed to suddenly become quiet. Not far away, in the living room connected to this place, the sound of advertisements on the TV rang clearly. Jixiu, who was holding the remote control in her hand, also turned her head in surprise and looked towards him with surprise in her eyes. elder brother.
He lowered his head slightly.
This action. It seemed that everything around him sank as he lowered his head, including the background, light, sound, and her heart.
"What" The unbearable silence lasted for a moment. In the sound of advertising that sounded far away in the silence, Xiujing frowned, her expression hesitant and confused, and then she escaped and smiled: "Youyou and What's there to talk about, Yoona? She played a prank on you again? Okay, okay, I'll go talk to her when she wakes up. Or I can teach you a lesson"
"Xiujing!"
The reasons she was looking for for herself came to an abrupt end. In the living room on the other side, Zhixiu, who finally realized what her brother wanted to do, looked at him with her eyes widened in surprise. Look at my sister-in-law again. Several times I wanted to interrupt or say something. But still couldn't speak.
In the small restaurant, a strange silence spread for a while. She turned the wheelchair slowly: "Uh, I'll go firstbrother, sister-in-law, I'll go up first" After that, she left in a hurry, forgetting to turn off the TV.
Neither Lin Xiujing nor An Junhyuk responded. He just looked at the table, and she looked at him.
After a long while, Xiujing took a deep breath and said, "Okay, tell me, what do you want to talk about between you and Yoona?"
When she asked with a slightly trembling tone, An Junhe was stunned for a moment and let out a long breath. In fact, preparing to talk openly and honestly about the matter between himself and Yoona was not an impulse, but should be regarded as the result of careful consideration. For him, he has kept this matter in his heart for a long time, and every time he sees something Her ignorant smile made the guilt in her heart deepen.
In the past, he felt that it was not a bad thing not to mention some things clearly. The truth was often more hurtful than lies, but in fact? That's just an excuse to escape. After all, paper can't cover up the fire. No matter how hard you hide it, how can you hide it for a lifetime? What will she do when she discovers the truth herself?
Maybe this is a bit pretentious, but he thought that instead of causing her to be struck down by greater pain many years later, it would be better to make this matter clear before the sinking is deep.
But at this moment, he realized that he had underestimated the fragility and vulnerability of a woman's heart and overestimated his own psychological preparation. Even before he came back, he had already thought of many words, even when to say what to say. I had planned every expression I made, but now I was sitting in front of her, seeing her gradually numb expression, and listening to her slightly trembling tone. The countless details that had been planned in my mind were actually unable to adapt to the situation in front of me. .
He opened his mouth but could not speak.
Looking at him, after waiting for a long time, Xiujing took a deep breath and finally said: "What do you want to talk to me about between you and Yoona?"
He lowered his head, wiped his face with both hands, and remained silent.
"Say" She took a deep breath again and tried to control her voice: "You are you together?"
An Junhyuk didn¡¯t answer, but the silence said a lot.
At that moment, Lin Xiujing suddenly didn¡¯t know what expression she should make. The moment before she asked, she still had some small fantasies in her heart and tried to think optimistically., maybe something happened to Yoona, or maybe it was just a cheap joke he made.
But what reality responded to her was the result she least wanted.
She breathed hard, and the space was surrounded by a quiet and depressing atmosphere. The air seemed to become thicker, squeezing from all directions, trapping them in it.
Over in the living room, the sound of advertisements on the TV continues, but it seems to be ringing in another space. The sunlight also shone in clearly, but in the light there were more shadows of tables and chairs, covering this side in a messy way. She could not feel the scorching temperature at all as expected, and the coldness almost froze her blood. That was A numbness emerged from the bottom of her heart, making her unable to make any expression.
"Are you together?"
Out of some unknown reason, she asked again. After a moment of pause, An Junhe replied: "Yes."
"Ha" She wanted to say something, but when she opened her mouth several times, what came out was just such a meaningless monosyllable. A certain absurd emotion came to her mind. A moment ago, even in In the short moment after he answered, she was still holding on to some small expectations, but after hearing his words with her own ears, many scenes from the past about Yoona and him came to mind.
The absurd feeling flooded over her like a tidal wave. She laughed and thought about how it was possible. She stopped immediately and the chopsticks in her hand slipped and hit the table with a clang.
She leaned weakly on the chair and covered her mouth with one hand.
"We have been together since the end of last year"
"At the end of last year?"
"Yes If we really talk about my relationship with her, it should be earlier." An Junhe rubbed his forehead and said softly: "It should be the year before last, but she was still young at that time, and I didn't realize it ¡¡±
The year before last, Yoona moved here.
Memories came one after another. She should have noticed it a long time ago. What girl would live in a man's house for no reason?
She should have noticed.
Starting from the year before last she suddenly remembered something, "I remember that there was a time when Yoona moved back home, and you guys"
"I was already with you at that time, and I told her it was impossible for us, so"
So Yoona left. She didn¡¯t know what happened in the middle, but obviously many, many things happened when she didn¡¯t know it. She was kept in the dark like a fool and didn¡¯t know anything.
The sense of absurdity became more and more intense, and her thoughts were confused, "How is it possible Yoona was only so old at that time, you and her" At this point, the words stopped abruptly. She suddenly remembered that Yoona was born in 1990, but he was born in 1986. The difference was only a few years.
Her whole body suddenly became weak. She lowered her head, holding her head with both hands, and her white fingers penetrated into the waterfall of long black hair.
"So, since the year before last, you have been hiding it from me you have been hiding it from me"
"I don't know how to tell you. At first I was afraid you would think too much, but thenyou were pregnant with Jingyan again"
"So you think I can bear it now?"
She raised her head and looked at him, her eye circles already red, "Why don't you continue to hide it?"
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"Tell me, since you've been hiding it for so long, why don't you keep hiding it?"
"say something!"
Her eyes were red and shiny, and she yelled. Seeing that he lowered his head and said nothing, her anger was like fire. She grabbed the pepper tube on the dining table and threw it away. He didn't hide, the bamboo tube hit his chest and fell down.
Why don¡¯t you speak!
Why don¡¯t you speak! !
His silent look, which she had felt reliable and safe in the past, now seemed so hateful. Tears finally flowed out, and she shouted angrily. There were platters of fruits, fried eggs, plastic salt shakers and other things on the dinner plate. , kept flying towards him, some missed, some hit him and fell to the ground, but he still didn't speak or dodge.
Anger burned her brain, and she grabbed the plate and threw it away.
boom!
Wow¡ª¡ª
The plate hit his forehead with great force and broke into pieces. The fragments cut open his forehead, and red blood slowly seeped out. The color was so bright, it flowed down, and flowed into his eyes as he subconsciously turned sideways. The tiny spots of light that spread through the window extended there at some point, and his eyes were smudged with the crystal clear blood reflected by the light. Eyes dim.
I don¡¯t know why, but her hand that raised the other plate paused in the air, a sharp pain grabbed her heart and made her unable to breathe.
In her memory, when had she ever seen him like this?
He is An Junhyuk. In the most difficult times, when facing the most powerful enemy, he never lowered his head. In the past countless days and nights, his back was always straight and his head was always raised. Failure His will cannot be dampened, until today
¡¡Why¡¡
Tears welled up.
Why don¡¯t you say anythingeven if you have to defend yourselfwhy
The space became quiet for a moment, then the plate fell onto the table, rolled to the ground, and shattered. The dappled sunlight, like those fragments, shines quietly between the two of them in this living room, dragging their shadows to the other side.
At a certain moment, the woman¡¯s shadow squatted down, the air flowed gently, the wind chimes swayed softly, and the singing played on the TV made her cry bitterly (To be continued)