Lin Xiaohua's voice changed. Before, her voice was crisp and charming, but now it was deep and hoarse, with a trace of vicissitudes and unconcealable exhaustion. Is Lin Xiaohua slowly getting older now? I started to feel sorry for this girl, but what else could I do? "You should have guessed that Lin Furui and I are both from the same village. We were both born in that not-so-glorious village - Robber Village." Lin Xiaohua began to slowly recount a tangled past, probably because time was running out. , so she spoke very concisely. But I also clarified this entangled story from her telling. That started when Lin Furui was possessed by God. Lin Jianguo once told me that since his son became possessed, he went to live with another family, and this family happened to be Lin Xiaohua's home. "Most of the people in the village are named Lin. Just like many ordinary villages, there is always a common surname in a village. Lin Furui and I are not related, but he enjoys the highest treatment in our family because my parents He is a fanatical believer in God. All his hopes are placed on that God. Do you know why? " "Because I am their only daughter, and I have been in poor health since I was a child. As I get older, it becomes more serious. Most of the time I can only lie in bed and wait for someone to take care of me, but I don¡¯t know the condition. My father loves my mother very much, and my mother can no longer raise children due to physical reasons, so who cares? Don¡¯t they want their daughter to be healthy? The omnipotent God becomes their only hope, so of course they become fanatical believers. ¡°Maybe it¡¯s because of this, or maybe it¡¯s because our family¡¯s situation is different. Other families were simpler, with no relatives, just me and my parents. When God chose where to grow up, he chose our family. " From Lin Xiaohua's narrative, I I can only imagine what kind of condescending treatment God received in their home. But the truth is far more exaggerated than I imagined. The people who robbered the village were wealthy, and their lives must be unimaginable to other villages in the land of China. Even in troubled times, they lived a stable and prosperous life, not to mention other things. As far as food and clothing are concerned, even if the clothes are not silk and satin, they are still exquisite. The food they eat is not delicacies from the mountains and seas, but they are also rich in fish and meat. But for God, how dare Lin Xiaohua¡¯s parents let him live the same life as everyone else in the village? It's always much higher. So, since God came, the life of Lin Xiaohua¡¯s family has changed. The most delicious food was given to Lin Xiaohua before, but when God came, it was given to God. Even many of them were things that Lin Xiaohua had never seen or eaten before. Whatever clothes are made, they are always given to God first, and they are the best. "At that time, I was just a little girl who often lay in bed. Like other children, my world was very simple. There was nothing magical and I didn't understand the difference in status. What was different from other children was that , my world is also very lonely, I have no friends, no brothers and sisters, all I have is my parents. Children's thoughts are always simple. I don't understand anything. I just feel that my parents love me and not you. You know, the god at that time was just the image of a child." Lin Xiaohua's voice was very lonely, as if she had returned to that time when she could only lie in bed. I can imagine her sadness at that time, but she didn¡¯t dare to cry too much with her parents, so she could only endure all these doubts silently. Children who are born with defects, if they are not extreme, are afraid of sensitivity and premature maturation. Obviously Lin Xiaohua belongs to the latter. She is uneasy about having a healthy-looking brother take away her love, but compared with this uneasiness, it is even bigger. The biggest fear is fear of being abandoned by parents. "At that time, I always didn't understand the love my parents gave me, and I didn't know at all that the fundamental reason why they were so devoted to God was because of me. It's a pity that they left too early, and I understood it too late." Lin Xiaohua Her voice revealed a hint of sadness and irreversible regret, but compared to Lin Furui, this woman was much more free and easy. After the silence, she chuckled and said lightly: "However, this is Mr. Tiandao. There is reincarnation. What I owe them will be paid back sooner or later. I am not in a hurry. I just want to pay it back. " I don't know what to say to this woman. Her state of mind should be worth it to a certain extent. I look up. But I have a question, why did Lin Xiaohua¡¯s parents leave so early when they treat God so much? Thinking of this, I couldn't help but ask. Lin Xiaohua, however, played with the ends of her hair leisurely and said to me: "You have to talk about it all the time, you idiot, why are you so anxious?" I never turned around to look at Lin Xiaohua, but there was something in the corner of my eyeBut I accidentally saw the tips of Lin Xiaohua's hair, which was shockingly gray. I didn't feel anything else. The only feeling I had was heartache. What could be more cruel than this? I watched this woman wither in front of me, but there was nothing I could do. . Lin Furui's side has fallen into silence. He is holding Lin Jianguo in his arms. Whether he has passed away or is still alive, I don't know. The wind blows from their bodies leaning against each other and lifts the ends of their clothes and hair, as if they are also telling the story of their life. The grievances are over, the deceased has passed away, and I send you a farewell condolence. But Lin Xiaohua never glanced at him. There was a kind of death in his heart that was terrible, even though she was still telling his and her story. The little girl who neither cried nor made trouble, but was just silently restless, her parents who pleased her, and the God who was always cold and aloof lived together under such a roof, until one day two months later, things changed a little bit. That was a small detail at a dinner table. It was a normal day, but there was still a special dish prepared on the dinner table, which was for God. It is a rare thing in the northwest. It is always due to the vagueness of memory. Lin Xiaohua does not remember it. She just remembers the strong desire to eat it at that time, but how dare she make trouble? She was afraid of seeing the reproachful eyes of her parents, and of seeing God¡¯s aloof indifference, completely ignoring her contempt. However, that day, God turned his head, his eyes were gentle for the first time, and he looked with a little curiosity at Lin Xiaohua who was being held in the arms of Lin Xiaohua's mother and being fed, and said softly: " Do you want to eat this?" Lin Xiaohua remembered that sentence for a long time, because when God came to her house, he didn't say a word to her at all, and looked at her with a cold and condescending look. She had no idea that this boy could look at her with such soft eyes and speak softly and gently. "Perhaps it's because I've been alone for too long? I've never seen anyone be gentle to me except my parents? Or maybe it's because he has always been so aloof, and suddenly lowered his attitude and asked me like this, and I was too 'mean' I was flattered. In short, at that glance and question, I suddenly felt that he was so kind and good-looking, and I will never forget it." When Lin Xiaohua talked about this time, there was a smile in her voice, which was very small and beautiful. A seed was put into my heart at a young age. Faced with such a gentle inquiry, Lin Xiaohua's world seemed to be illuminated by a ray of sunshine, which gave her courage. She actually said "hmm" in a daze, completely forgetting what she had warned herself to be sensible and more careful. Be good, why can't you argue with your little brother? Lin Xiaohua's "hmm" made Lin Xiaohua's mother panic. She subconsciously slapped Lin Xiaohua, not hard, but urgently. She kept saying, "Why are you so ignorant?" He smiled apologetically at God. Is it an apologetic smile? Lin Xiaohua only made her own guess, but she was really frightened. Looking at her father's reproachful look, she felt that she would be abandoned in the next second. But when her mother raised her hand again, it was caught by God. He simply said: "Don't hit her, she is very good." Then, he let go of Lin Xiaohua's mother's hand. Then, he reached out and took several chopsticks to pick up the dish that Lin Xiaohua wanted to eat, and then smiled gently at her and said, "Let's eat together." "This is a scene that I can never forget in my life, and it is also the first time that Lin Furui and I have This encounter. You should have guessed that in the past two months, I have always seen God, because when Lin Furui was awake, he always went back to his home. He did not go back that day. One of my encounters with him, It was after these two months. I still remember the feeling at that time, when a pair of hands pulled you out of despair and gently fulfilled your little wish. At that moment, he was God. God is never God." The smile in Lin Xiaohua's voice became heavier. If I could look at her at this moment, her eyes would be open. ??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? away out of the back???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? out???????????????????????????????????????????????????????????Could it be that the affection that can¡¯t be resolved is revealed?)? But the pitiful thing is that he is so good in the memories, but in reality he is no longer there. How painful is that? When the wind blows, the figures of Lin Furui and Lin Jianguo cuddling together, are they the last of them in Lin Xiaohua's eyes?