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    The final chapter has more than 10,000 words written. When I wrote "Complete" three times, I was in a small chain hotel, watching the morning light slowly brightening outside.  It felt like going to school under the stars in the winter when I was a child. Although the road was dark and the sky was dark, I knew everything would be fine.  The vibrant feeling of all that awaits in the dark is rarely available in adulthood.  Only occasionally did I stay up all night long while working on a manuscript, listening to the chirping of birds at dawn, and trembling with hunger as I watched the light slowly begin to appear in the gaps in the curtains.  Only then did he step out of a world he created and return to the real world.  This is the true feeling of writing, as if you have to talk to yourself to prove your existence after being abandoned by the whole world.  In other people's happy or painful times, the sound of the keyboard becomes the only accompaniment.  Anyone who can endure this kind of loneliness is a good person, and I shamelessly think so.  The full text of "My Goddess" is three million words long, which is already the longest attempt in my history.  Although it may not be satisfactory in the middle, it at least proves that I can still persist in writing for two years with almost no major problems.  Some progress was delayed due to physical problems in the middle, but overall, I still surpassed myself back then.  After I finished writing, I told my friend that this feeling was quite like having a child at home. Although I was very dissatisfied with him, I still felt a lot of reluctance when he left me to start his own business.  Novels always end one day, just like people always have to finish one part of the road and then start another. There is nothing to regret.  As an author, my regrets mostly come from my lack of effort. This kind of self-blame almost runs through my entire writing life.  ??In 2004, I started to devote myself to online writing and wrote "The Legend of Rebirth". I was very lucky and became famous almost overnight.  Since then, I have been criticized for being too literary, too bitter, and too willing to put great effort into showing the inner changes of ordinary young people.  According to the current laws of Internet literature, this approach is almost self-defeating.  But I am also an extremely stubborn person, so choosing the theme "My Goddess" this time is not a good idea in the eyes of most people.  For this reason, I have also thought about what is a good idea?  The synopsis of the story "My Goddess" has changed twice in my mind. The first time was called "A Good Man", which is an extremely vulgar name.  The character Su Yifan in the story has been a good guy countless times, but no girl really likes him.  By chance, he began to change himself, and his life finally changed as he insisted on continuing to be a good person.  Because this subject matter is too close to reality, I did not write it down.  The second time it was called "Dad, I am Your Lover", the outline of the story is almost the same as the current one.  But considering the omnipotent Internet monitor this topic was also passed, and a lot of details were modified, and finally became the "My Goddess" today.  Yes, you and I both have one or even many goddesses in our hearts, right?  The pursuit of a goddess is an essential step in the growth of all young people, just like salt is needed in cooking to make it taste good.  No matter you are in love openly or secretly, no matter you succeed or fail, only those who have experienced this kind of life can be considered rich and worthy of their youth.  So in the end, I am still the Zhou Xingwen who wants to say something to others. Although it may be rotten, I still have to at least continue to try.  It¡¯s better to say it than not to say it, for me.  Someone asked me, what did you talk about in "My Goddess"?  I don't know how to answer him, but I think I have a relatively standard answer.  I told a story about how to recognize myself.  Only by recognizing yourself and understanding yourself clearly can you know who your goddess is, who your goddess wants to be with, and whether you can be with your goddess.  Whether pursuing girls or doing what you want to do, this is more important than anything else.  Patience, tolerance, kindness, these are things that are not very valued in this era. If you can retain some of them, maybe you will get more than you imagined.  Even waiting is sometimes a kind of beauty.  There is a lot I want to say, but this is just a story, and I hope it can give people a sense of satisfaction.  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­ Su Yifan is different from most protagonists of online articles. Although he always expresses his opinions and often has to make choices, more often than not, he hopes that life can be peaceful and happy, and that everyone around him can be happy.  This kind of character is not suitable for being the protagonist of an online novel, but I just wrote it.  The results were not very good, and I feel really sorry for my editor.  This is the price of willfulness.  For the next book, I hope to write a story that makes everyone more relaxed and happy, and at least makes the editor happy.  I want to believe that there are people like Su Yifan in this world. He is kind but not kind.Weak, he is silent but not cowardly, he expects good things but does not pursue them crazily, he can accept the kindness of others and understand the pain of others.  Each of us should have at least one or two of these qualities in order to make the world a better place.  I know that many people may say that this idea is too OUT, too old-fashioned, and too boring.  But I prefer to believe that what I write can bring some beautiful things to readers.  Beauty is not given by others. If you want to get it, you must first know how to do it.  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­ There is no doubt that from the very beginning I have already set the ultimate identity of Su Xiaoqing, why she came, and why she did what she did.  If you look carefully at the previous details, you can easily find some clues.  Su Xiaoqing's feelings for Su Yifan were not that of brother and sister, but a feeling similar to admiration, watching the person she had always loved grow up again.  Su Xiaoqing has never had any requirements for Su Yifan, just like Su Yifan named her Su Xiaoqing.  I hope you have an easy life, I hope you are healthy and happy, and I have no requirements for you beyond this.  Sometimes I think that if some parents could have such simple requirements for their children, then life might be better.  ??The details of Su Xiaoqing¡¯s relationship with Su Yifan during her growth process are not described too much, in order to leave some imagination for everyone.  It is not unusual for a girl who was brought up under Su Yifan's gentle care to fall in love with her adoptive father. However, because of my peculiar personal aesthetics, Su Xiaoqing was set to be a strong and almost powerful girl.  Such a girl can endure extreme physical pain and go back in time through time. Of course she can do anything for Su Yifan.  So I won¡¯t be surprised if anything happens to Su Xiaoqing and Su Yifan. After seeing through life and death, it¡¯s nothing.  The soul is all about love, so what else does it matter?  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­ The character Cheng Shuixin was not originally intended to be what she is now, but she was the first to ¡°come alive¡± among all the characters.  When you write about a girl in the most delicate parts, you will be able to fit her thoughts, imagine her emotional changes, and even simulate the ups and downs of her thoughts.  From the beginning, Cheng Shuixin played with interpersonal relationships with a little vanity, and eventually became an indispensable part of Su Yifan's life.  I love writing about this transformation process.  Just like something you may not have liked many years ago, after a few years you will realize that it is actually okay.  In fact, our lives all involve forgiving others. As the author, Su Xiaoqing and I also forgave Cheng Shuixin. This part was not written, but the change in Su Xiaoqing's attitude can also be seen in the story.  There are many people who don¡¯t like Cheng Shuixin because she is too realistic, so realistic that she is almost real.  But one of the reasons I prefer to write this isif a girl is your goddess, there's a good chance she's someone else's goddess as well.  When you are surrounded by many people and doted on you, if you want to win her favor, you must recognize the reality.  Cheng Shuixin's own growth process is a mirror. I originally wanted to write her more realistically, but out of kindness to the beautiful girl, I left it alone.  In the end, one of Su Yifan's biggest helpers was Cheng Shuixin.  Because of the reality, Cheng Shuixin chose to help Su Yifan stabilize and unite the girls around him, and also took on many things.  From this point of view, Cheng Shuixin is actually the second female lead.  This girl who makes people love and hate is the type that you and I are most likely to encounter in life.  I wrote Cheng Shuixin because I think everyone may encounter reality.  Conquering reality is the dream.  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­ Compared to Cheng Shuixin, Xiao Yang is more noble.  But I don¡¯t like to write that kind of terrible cold beauty, so I wrote Yang Bingbing, who is a bit of an idealist.  The little lion is undoubtedly my favorite character. I spent a lot of pen and ink describing Yang Bingbing's figure. She is not as big as Cai Qi in breasts, her figure is a little plumper than Cheng Shuixin, and she also has a slight advantage in height.  If you carefully imagine such a tall girl, Xiaoniao, by your side, will you feel a sense of accomplishment and happiness?  Yang Bingbing is the kind of girl that all boys dream of. She is both a friend and a girlfriend. She does not have high material needs and never minds what she gets.  These beautiful qualities seem to be very rare today, but I believe that Yang Bingbing¡¯s character of daring to love, hate and full of sense of justice can still be seen in many girls.  This world needs beauty, I have emphasized it countless times, so Yang Bingbing was born.  Su Yifan didn¡¯t get much help from Yang Bingbing, and even more often he gave Yang Bingbing help.  This is because I feel that if Yang Bingbing always helps Su Yifan, this story will probably become "I""Rich Rich Girlfriend" and the like.  Although it's pretty good-looking, we still have a bit of a pursuit, right?  ¡°When Yang Bingbing and Su Yifan went out for the first time, I wanted to write about the sex scene, but unfortunately at the time I always thought it would be better to hold it in I held it in until I suffered internal injuries, and I absolutely blamed me.  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­ Zhang Yao is a very magical character. This character comes from a gamer novel I wrote before.  When she sings, she is astonished and becomes a goddess, but she is usually so silent that she doesn¡¯t say a word.  This is actually a true portrayal of many otakus and otakus around us, and even a portrayal of myself.  I saw a performance before. A dancing girl sprained her foot the day before and could hardly move.  She insisted on going on stage for the sake of performance. Even though I tried hard to observe the whole performance, I couldn't tell that her foot was injured.  But after the performance, she almost jumped off the stage on one foot - everyone knew that it was very dangerous to do that, and she really couldn't bear the pain.  During the period of performance, she felt that she would shine, so she could block the pain.  Zhang Yao is such a girl. Only when she sings does she have herself and a soul that makes people feel radiant.  Zhang Yao was not good at ordinary communication, so she could only express her thoughts clumsily.  Such a girl is for Su Yifan to assume the role of protector. This is another only way for him to grow up.  If it weren't for Su Yifan, Zhang Yao probably wouldn't have encountered the following incidents and wouldn't have become famous so quickly.  If it weren¡¯t for Zhang Yao, Su Yifan wouldn¡¯t have realized that he needed to proactively do many things. If he wanted to protect Zhang Yao, he would have to make himself stronger both internally and externally.  Life often becomes long and painful as we move forward, especially before we meet the right person.  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­ Neel is the focus of the conflict in the early story. The story about her is actually the same as that of Su Yifan. She is a person who comes from loneliness and finally leaves loneliness.  Regarding Nell, many people thought she acted silly and naive at first. This was of course an illusion after seeing through many devil souls.  Although the real Nell is simple, she is able to distinguish right from wrong.  For Neal, Su Yifan is the most innocent haven she has ever seen. Su Xiaoqing is the reason why she is willing to live there, and Su Yifan is a more important factor.  ¡°Nelle and Su Yifan are together, she can inspire Su Yifan¡¯s wild side and let him learn how to attack.  This is very important for changing Su Yifan's life, even more important than protecting.  There are always malicious intentions of one kind or another in this world, and Su Yifan must learn to deal with them before something hurts him.  The appearance of Su Xiaoqing contributed to the change of Niel's original life. The girl who was originally going to be gradually obliterated in missions fell in love with the simple Su Yifan. She didn't know that it was this decision that changed her destiny.  Neil¡¯s love for Su Yifan is the purest. She is not interested in most things in this world. It was Su Yifan who helped her regain her love for life and dragged her back into the mortal world.  I like the character of Nell very much. The lonely and innocent girl always makes people heart-throb.  If possible, I also hope that Nell can spend more time with Su Yifan, but things are always different from what I imagined.  Just like the trajectory of our lives.  When I wrote about Nell¡¯s return, I felt as excited as Kris Su.  After thinking about it, I think that like everyone else, I still hope that there will be more beauty in this world, although this wish is very tacky.  Cheesy fruit and food always taste the best, right?  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ Chu Ruo represents Su Yifan¡¯s past, and Su Yifan to Chu Ruo represents the infinite possibilities of the present and the future.  This may include regret and nostalgia for the past, but also expectations and yearning for the future.  Chu Ruo is a common kind of little girl - bossy in front of others, but cautious in front of the people she really likes and cares about, like an ignorant little girl.  So most of the time Chu Ruo looked like a jerk when facing Su Yifan, and he was quite happy every time he was scolded like a bitch by Su Yifan.  Before this, Chu Ruo had tried to seduce Su Yifan several times without giving up. Although she was young, she understood that Su Yifan didn't really want to get that kind of happiness from him. He really cared about her.  As long as you truly understand, no little girl will not be moved by this kind of thought.  So Chu Ruo felt that being with Su Yifan was the best choice, even if this choice also faced the threat of other girls.  A little girl has the persistence of a little girl, Chu Ruo is better than Cheng ShuiXin and Yang Bingbing are undoubtedly more naive and innocent, but she is also the most stubborn one.  No matter how calm Su Yifan was, she wished he could hold her tightly.  In the end, Chu Ruo even changed herself to cater to Su Yifan. Her feelings for Su Yifan were so deep that others could hardly imagine it.  Chu Yin is so pitiful, the women¡¯s university really failed to stay in the university Han Yun is a person who really wants to stick to herself. This kind of person will not end well in a real social system.  It is not tolerated by the environment or by those who are accustomed to unspoken rules.  If she hadn't met Su Yifan, Han Yun probably wouldn't have been in the radio and television system for too long. She would have been excluded from this system that requires stability.  Su Yifan¡¯s unusualness made Han Yun feel that there is still hope in the world, and she felt that certain paths may not be correct.  A young man can criticize himself tit-for-tat every time, making Han Yun reflect on herself more.  If there was a mirror in front of you in your life, would you look into it or not?  Han Yun likes to provoke Su Yifan so much, mostly for this purpose.  The battle of wits and courage between you and me ended up being one-sided with Su Yifan helping him.  Han Yun marveled at Su Yifan's wonderful inner life under his dull appearance, and was gradually attracted by Su Yifan's seriousness and sincerity.  This is an era where adults and children all say "If you take it seriously, you will lose."  Will you really lose if you are serious?  Of course Han Yun didn't think so. How could someone succeed if he even lost his seriousness?  Han Yun strongly recognized Su Yifan's seriousness, so she finally fell into it without even realizing it.  To become the kind of person you least want to be, maybe only the power of love will make people do this, right?  ¡°At least that¡¯s what Han Yun did, and she doesn¡¯t regret it.  ¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­¡­ Cai Yan and Sister Cai Qi are killed and killed by each other -well, in fact, only the killing -in the early stage is a catalyst that Su Yifan's transformation.  Facing Cai Yan, Su Yifan behaved quite normally. He knew that Cai Yan was curious about him, and later he even knew that Cai Yan liked him.  Because of this, Su Yifan would not touch Cai Yan. He felt that liking was a very beautiful feeling, and he himself was deeply involved in it and couldn't extricate himself.  ¡°Compared with falling in love with Su Yifan, Cai Yan values ????his family¡¯s interests more.  It would be great for the Cai family to catch up with Su Xiaoqing. Cai Yan hoped to do something on his own from the beginning.  This simple concept is a bit like that of a spoiled young lady, but soon Cai Yan completely changed after being saved by the hero Su Yifan. She felt that she owed Su Yifan a lot.  With this mood, Cai Yan began to atone for her mistakes until she discovered that everything was to be blamed on her sister Cai Qi.  Compared to Cai Yan, Cai Qi is more sympathetic.  Because she is an illegitimate daughter, Cai Qi still lives a twisted life even though she has nearly infinite space in terms of money and material.  Having lived a life of friends and companions for too long, Cai Qi will feel empty inside and hate her sister who got everything.  It's not her fault, but she has to bear the fate of an illegitimate daughter and live with a mother who has the same twisted personality.  Under the changing circumstances, Cai Qi finally made that crazy decision.  People only feel regret after making certain wrong decisions, and Cai Qi is like this.  If it weren't for Su Yifan, if there were no coincidences, she would probably gain a lot but lose even more.  So it is not surprising that Cai Qi ends up with Su Yifan in the end. There is no one in this world worthy of her trust. Su Yifan's appearance may be the best salvation for her.  Weakness exists in everyone¡¯s heart, and Su Yifan happens to be such a patient person, allowing Cai Qi to release her weakness.  Many people are guessing who the girl Su Yifan pushed down first. In fact, from the beginning, I had thought that it would be a girl who didn¡¯t have too much entanglement with him.  Cai Qi is undoubtedly one of the best choices, and her life experience makes it easy for her to accept the current relationship.  "Compared to others, Cai Qi has more misfortunes in her life, so she is also the one who is easiest to be satisfied.  "You must be content in life. This is a lesson Cai Qi learned from Su Yifan."  ¡­¡­¡­¡­ ¡­¡­¡­¡­ Everyone can learn a lot on the road of life, I think this is one of the meanings of life.  Change and persistence, choice and giving up.  This is always the theme of life. You have to learn a lot and study for a long time before you can get some clues.  Growth is part of the theme, but more of it is that I think life should be like this, sincere, kind, simple, and full of optimism.  ??In fact, "My Goddess" to me,?A beginning to rediscover the state of writing online articles.  Before that, I stayed away from online writing for a while. A lot of things happened in the meantime, and I paid a lot for my dream.  When I start writing online articles again, maybe the subject matter will be inappropriate, maybe the text will not be in line with the current trend, maybe the story plot will tend to be dull But I really just want to write this story about how life becomes happier in the long run.  This is the same as my original intention when I started writing online articles.  Whether online articles or any other form of works, they all give people a window to other worlds.  Su Yifan's campus life contains many people's yearnings when they were young, even mine and some of my friends'.  As I said before, perhaps the most important thing about novels is that they give people a sense of satisfaction.  I hope a lot of people get satisfaction from my story.  If it really had that effect, I would be satisfied.  Having said this, some people will probably criticize me, saying, "What kind of writing is about preaching, what kind of feelings¡ª¡ªwell, I admit that the word feelings has been used very badly."  Are these pedantic things really suitable for this era?  I don¡¯t know, but I feel that since I have tried to persevere, it is better than never trying.  Just as secret love is meaningless, saying it out loud and being rejected is the truly heroic life.  Don¡¯t be afraid of being laughed at, don¡¯t be afraid of being misunderstood, don¡¯t be afraid of being looked down upon by others, if you don¡¯t do what you want to do, who can do it for you?  If life is an easy road to mediocrity, then at least tell yourself not to give up something when you are on the road.  Life can be better, just as novels can be more interesting.  I hope everyone can continue reading happily, and I hope everyone can live a more serious life.  Life is the best gift that fate gives you. You can love it or hate it. It is entirely up to you.  This is the core charm of life.  You see, I still like to be wordy and tell people something.  It¡¯s really hard to change Thank you all, see you in the next book.  In fact, it didn't take long, probably a month at most.  Let me live a normal life for a few days first
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