After hesitating for a while, she still didn't dare. After thinking about it, Chu Mei smiled: "Forget it, don't worry about it, just don't do it if you don't want to do it. Try this Xiaoba Do you know that in addition to the ingredients, the most important thing about these small pieces is the heat. If the heat is over, the flour on the outside will dry up and taste very bad; if the heat is not enough, the flour will not be there. It will be soft and delicious only when it is cooked. " Chu Mei opened the box and took out a piece of Fu character cake, broke off a piece and fed it into Hu Zhenfang's mouth. Hu Zhenfang had no intention of appreciating the taste and just chewed it subconsciously. . "How's the heat? Is it much better than what's sold on the street?" Chu Mei bit the word "fire" very hard, then put the cake into her hand: "Eat slowly, I'm going to hand in the diary." After leaving, Hu Zhenfang still sat there in a daze. She looked at the box, not knowing what the consequences of this would be. Can that little lock on the box really lock those secrets? Hu Zhenfang stood up, opened the box, took out the diary, and re-examined the diary of the past year at the table. Looking at those thrilling words, he wondered why he wrote these things in the first place. She was lying on the bed regretfully. There seemed to be something under her body. She stretched out her hand and found a match. Hu Zhenfang was stunned. Who threw it on her bed? She remembered her matches¡. I looked at the bedside and saw that the matches were still there. Could it be Chu Mei? Hu Zhenfang climbed onto Chu Mei¡¯s bed and rummaged around the pillow, but couldn¡¯t find any matches. Is it her? Is she asking me to burn it? Hu Zhenfang's eyes lit up, but then his eyes dimmed. This fever was difficult to explain. What should the superiors do if they track it down? After thinking for a long time, Hu Zhenfang gritted his teeth, picked up the diary and walked out. The door opened and Deng Jun came in from the outside. Hu Zhenfang subconsciously hid the diary behind him. Deng Jun glanced at her and asked her where she wanted to go. That? Hu Zhenfang said in a slight panic that he would go out and have a look, and it would be fine. With that said, he walked out quickly. When he reached the corner of the stairs, Hu Zhenfang looked back. There was no one in the corridor, and the laughter of classmates could be heard from several open doors. Hu Zhenfang breathed a sigh of relief, hid the diary in his arms and hurried downstairs. After leaving the building, Hu Zhenfang looked around, turned and walked towards the back door of the school. On the way, he met a few classmates from the next class and greeted them. Hu Zhenfang turned to a fork in the road. This road was relatively quiet and rarely walked. To get to the back door, you have to pass through a small forest. The senior couples often meet here for trysts. Although the school explicitly prohibits falling in love, it does not strictly prohibit it, so this place has become a paradise for lovers. However, couples at this time can be as open-minded as Chu Mingqiu's previous life. At most, they can cuddle up together, kiss secretly, and eat forbidden fruits. However, it is not possible to book a room in a hotel. At home, or in the dormitory during the holidays. Hu Zhenfang saw a few pairs of figures in the woods on the road. She sighed in her heart, thinking of the love letter she received in middle school, the shy boy, and his flushed face. Now he has entered a factory in his hometown, working on shipbuilding. Factory work. After leaving the school gate, Hu Zhenfang quietly looked back. There was no familiar figure behind him. The School of Geology is in Dianhai District, and there are many colleges and universities around it. It was the peak period for students to return to school, and many people got off the bus carrying luggage. students, the street is very lively. Hu Zhenfang held the newly bought diary, still wondering, what should she do? After hesitating for a while, she did not return to school, but turned and walked towards the nearby farmland. Chu Mei went to the Youth League Committee of the department and handed her diary to He Xin. To her great surprise, she was the first person to hand in the diary. The deputy secretary of the party committee who was in the office praised him greatly when he saw this. "Classmate Xiao Chu, you are actively moving closer to the party committee, which shows your trust in the party. Now some students are worried and think that the diary is a **, but they have never thought that we ** people dedicate everything to the party. There is no There is nothing to hide, the selflessness in your heart is broad, only in this way can you better serve the motherland and work for the party! If they don¡¯t even dare to hand over their diaries to the organization and open their hearts to the party, how will they work for the party in the future? How to be loyal to the party's cause? We often say that we should give everything to the party. Why don't we even dare to disclose our diaries to the party? This is a question worth pondering. Classmate Chu Mei, you are a leader. Good! Although you are from a capitalist background, our party¡¯s policy is component-based but not component-based. It focuses on individual performance. Your performance in this movement is understood organizationally. Comrade He Xin, such a classmate is We should develop to join the League and join the Party!" He Xin nodded frequently. Chu Mei felt even more uneasy, but she had to pretend to be calm and said: "Secretary, I, I just feel that there is nothing to hide. So I went back to get it after the meeting yesterday. Oh, by the way, I still don¡¯t have the diary for the past two days.Secretary He, when can this diary be returned to me? " "Don't worry, after the organization has read it, it will be returned to you soon. I won't miss you from writing your diary. "The deputy secretary smiled and said to He Xin, and He Xin also smiled and said: "Let me take a look first. If there is no problem, I can return it to you the day after tomorrow at the latest. " "OK! " Chu Mei pretended to be happy and left. The next day, the fact that she handed in the diary was broadcast on the school radio. The reporter from the school magazine also came to interview her. The editor-in-chief asked her to write an article and asked her to talk about the rectification movement. Two days later, He Xin returned the diary to her at the activist meeting in front of all the league members and activists. The department branch secretary publicly praised Chu Mei and suggested that the department branch should list her as a key development target. , as a typical example of students with bad backgrounds. After praising Chu Mei, the secretary severely criticized those students who had not yet handed in their diaries and demanded that they must hand them over within three days, otherwise Chu Mei would bear all the consequences. Finally, it fell into her stomach. She put the fake diary on the bedside. Hu Zhenfang took it to read when she wasn't paying attention. Chu Mei felt guilty, but couldn't take it back. After reading it, Hu Zhenfang frowned and suddenly Zhan Mei smiled at her, Chu Mei's heart was pounding. At night, Hu Zhenfang disappeared. Chu Mei tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. From time to time, she looked at the empty bed through the moonlight. Guo Lan was sleeping soundly, and Deng Jun was also sleeping. She couldn't sleep and kept turning over in bed. Deng Jun was very lonely now. Her classmates avoided her and never talked to her unless necessary. She was also dismissed from her position as league secretary. The league members were still there, and she was waiting. The final solution. Chu Mei couldn¡¯t sleep, so she simply got up from the bed, put on her clothes and went out. It was still cold in the corridor, but she huddled together and walked slowly along the corridor with her hands folded. The corridor was quiet, without any noise. The changes in the past few days have made Chu Mei feel dizzy. She was not from a good background and did not dare to stand up, so she could only hand it over obediently. She thought that she had delayed it for two days and other classmates had already handed it in. Only she and People like Hu Zhenfang might have complained in their diaries, but she didn't expect that she was the first one to do it. With the cold wind blowing, Chu Mei's head sobered up and she looked at the dark night sky. There was no starlight on the black screen, and the dim moon hung on the sky. The cold moonlight shone on the campus, and the surroundings were silent. Looking at the moonlight, Chu Mei's thoughts slowly came together. She suddenly understood that although the branch had given up. Diary, but this move was silently resisted by the students. The department branch was riding a tiger and it was difficult to get off. I stupidly bumped into it, which just solved the problem of the department branch, so a huge golden road opened in front of me. Joining the league and joining the party. What seemed to be out of reach yesterday was now right in front of her eyes. Chu Mei felt a little excited when she thought about it. The cold air made her feel a little fragrant and sweet. Chu Mei felt a little cold and tightened her clothes. After putting on the cotton-padded clothes, she moved her neck and suddenly found a figure standing there in the corner of the corridor. She was startled and looked attentively. "Who?" Who's there? " The figure slowly walked out, and it became clear under the moonlight that it was Deng Jun who came out wearing a cotton coat issued by the geological team. Chu Mei patted her chest and complained: "You scared me, why are you hiding there? " "I am now a street rat. Everyone avoids me and dare not disturb you. "Deng Jun said calmly. "Chu Mei felt excited and quickly put on a smile: "What are you talking about? Haven't you already passed the test? That is the third category. Didn't you say it's not serious?" "Under the moonlight, Deng Jun smiled. Chu Mei felt that this smile was so sad. She couldn't understand it. Deng Jun just decided to be a rightist. What's the big deal? At most, he would just go to the countryside like his father Chu Mingshu. Deng Jun has been working in the field for so long. She is young and has never suffered anything. Deng Jun sighed. A year ago, she was an outstanding member of the league, but in the blink of an eye, she became an anti-party element. She couldn't understand why. I have never been anti-Party, and I have never even thought about it. I was born in poverty. When I was a child, my family was poor, and my parents were ready to sell me as a child bride. Fortunately, the People's Liberation Army arrived, and my father became an activist for land reform and the chairman of the Poor People's Association. He was brutally raped by the Kuomintang. She was killed. With the care of the organization, she studied and joined the work. But in the blink of an eye, how could she become a rightist dissatisfied with the party? Deng Jun has been thinking about this problem for more than half a year, but the more she thinks about it, The more confused she became, the more she thought. She couldn't figure it out, so she looked for the answer in the book. M selected three volumes of Marx and Engels's works and read them carefully. "I used to think you were a little squeamish, but now it seems, I was wrong. "Deng Jun is still the same as before, but his tone is no longer so arrogant, with a bit of sincerity. Chu Mei smiled faintly and stood side by side with Deng Jun. Deng Jun looked at the dark night sky, his voice??Miao: "I used to watch the night sky in the wild. At that time, I had a colleague in the team who liked astronomy. Whenever he had free time, he would watch the stars in the sky. He taught me a lot about the stars. Unfortunately, there are clouds tonight, so I can't see them. Go to the stars, or I can show you where Sirius is." "Oh." Chu Mei sighed in a low voice, as if she was very regretful, but she was wondering what Deng Jun was doing at this time. Did she see it? ? Chu Mei's heart started to rise again. But soon she put it down again. So what if she saw it, now it¡¯s a done deal. They will be publicized in small meetings and everywhere, unless they are willing to slap themselves. "Looking at the stars on a summer night, the sky is full of stars, so beautiful. Sometimes, I think, if I didn't want to find oil for the country, I would rather study astronomy." Deng Jun's words were very lonely and thin: "Chu Mei, in addition to geology "What do you want to learn most?" "I don't know, I just want to learn geology." Chu Mei said, this is true. She never knew what she should do. One time she went to the Geology Museum and was attracted by those prehistoric things. She was deeply attracted by fossils, and the idea of ??doing geological work in the future was buried in her mind. Deng Jun showed a faint smile. Chu Mei could see the loss and confusion in her eyes, and her heart tightened. Deng Jun was a little strange tonight. What did he want to do with these nonsense words? The dark clouds in the night sky moved slowly, and a few shining stars emerged from the gaps in the clouds. Deng Jun looked at those stars dreamily. Chu Mei suddenly felt a little scared, and she held Deng Jun's hand. "Deng Jun, don't think about it. Things will be over soon. Don't think about it." Deng Jun smiled sadly: "I can bear a lot. If I don't have enough to eat or wear warm clothes, I can't bear it. I'm not afraid, but I, Meizi, you don't know, I'm afraid, I'm very afraid, I'm afraid that the organization won't trust me, I'm afraid that the party won't want me." Deng Jun cried silently on Chu Mei's shoulder. Mei Mei was shocked at first. It turned out that this seemingly strong woman actually had such a fragile side. She was in a complicated mood and didn't know how to comfort her. After thinking about it, she remembered what Chu Mingqiu said. "Deng Jun, you are such a person," Chu Mei sighed deliberately and considered her words: "The burden is too heavy. You told me before that you should treat it correctly. I think you should treat it correctly now. Maybe some people treat you correctly. There is a misunderstanding, but you should believe in yourself. Do you think it is? There is a mistake. We have changed our profession. Do you think it is?" Deng Jun nodded, and Chu Mei added: "I think, Deng Jun, I see. You've been reading recently, which is good. Read more Marx and Engels and change your worldview. The organization will definitely see it." Deng Jun slowly pushed her away, stared at her, and gradually showed a wry smile: "Chu Mei, I was a little jealous of you before." "Jealous of me!" Chu Mei was a little surprised. She didn't expect anyone to be jealous of her. She looked at Deng Jun in disbelief, and Deng Jun nodded: "I I used to be very strict with you, always thinking that you were born into a capitalist and your mother was a capitalist's little wife, but now that I think about it, I feel more jealous of you. " Chu Mei was a little unhappy. She was a little jealous of others saying that her mother was a little wife. Although this is true. "You have never been hungry, you have received a good education, and you are a good writer." Chu Mei was shocked. What was Deng Jun implying? Her mind was spinning rapidly. Deng Jun said unconsciously, but continued: "Although your father doesn't treat you well, you still have grandparents who can give you advice if you need anything. But as for me, my father sacrificed himself." "My mother has remarried, so I have to rely on myself for everything." "Hey." Chu Mei sighed heavily, and she was secretly wary. Deng Jun was too unusual tonight. Did she notice what she was going to do? How good? Chu Mei knew in her heart that there was no problem in hiding the diary from He Xin, but it was a bit difficult to hide the diary from the three classmates in the same dormitory. Guo Lan might be an exception. This girl was so carefree that she never paid attention to it, but Deng Jun and Hu Zhenfang were more concerned about it. Difficult, Hu Zhenfang is not here tonight, Chu Mei guessed that she had gone to imitate others. Deng Jun cried for a while and his mood gradually calmed down. The two of them had nothing to say and looked at the cold and dark night quietly. Sure enough, Hu Zhenfang stayed away all night and did not return to the dormitory until the next night. Chu Mei saw that her eyes were red and she had obviously stayed up all night. Hu Zhenfang reluctantly smiled at her and fell asleep. There was no opening ceremony at the university. The monitor, Jiang Ma, sent the girls a course schedule and informed them to go to the boys¡¯ dormitory to collect textbooks. The girls all went out to collect all the textbooks. Compared with the first grade, the homework in the second grade has not changed much, but a new book replaces an old book. As for what classes there are, you can tell by looking at the class schedule. Several people were talking around the class schedule. Everyone noticed that the class schedule this semester is relatively relaxed. In April, they will go to the countryside to support agriculture for half a month, and in May, they will go to the factory. Half a month of internship, which has never happened beforePassed. Although I am a junior student, I have heard from senior students that there is an internship in the second grade, which is a general geological internship, and they understand common geological conditions; and there is a sedimentology internship in the third grade, and they understand ancient geological changes. But now the course arrangement has changed. Supporting agriculture and going to factories are something that has never happened before. Chu Mei and the others discussed it a lot, but no one dared to raise objections.