"Yue'er passed away?" Seeing the Q-Q message sent by the other party, Tang Xiaosheng's mind went blank for a moment and he didn't react at all. He even wondered whether the other party was joking or whether Yue'er's Q-Q number had been stolen. It¡¯s just that the other party actually knows Tang Xiaosheng¡¯s name. This is obviously not something that can be explained by the stolen Q-Q account, because Yue¡¯er never calls Tang Xiaosheng¡¯s name directly on Q-Q, and it is impossible for outsiders to know Tang Xiaosheng¡¯s name. Tang Xiaosheng immediately sent a message to the other party's Q-Q asking: "Who are you?" The other party responded: "My name is Katie, I am Yang Ziwen's classmate. She and I have been classmates from high school to university. We have a good relationship. We have nothing to say. Don't tell me. Before she died last year, she told me the Q-Q password and asked me to keep it for her. " Tang Xiaosheng: "When did Yue'er die? " Katie: "Last year in September. ? I met Yue'er in April last year and chatted with her on QQ in July. What happened to her? Katie: "Ziwen (Yue'er) was diagnosed with a brain tumor in early April last year" Tang Xiaosheng: "At the beginning of April last year? She came to China to see me at the end of April. She was already sick at that time?" Katie: "Yes. After Ziwen learned that she had a brain tumor, the doctor said that she would probably not survive four years. Yue, she decided to go back to China to see you. Her parents originally disagreed. They wanted Yue'er to stay in the United States for good treatment, but Ziwen wanted to see you. So her parents took her to China. "Katie: "Ziwen was worried that you would be sad, so she didn't tell you about her cancer. A few days after arriving in China, Ziwen's condition became worse and her head hurt more and more. Her parents decided to take her back to the United States immediately for treatment. On May 3 last year, she returned to Miami. "Ziwen didn't want you to know about her illness, but she was worried that you would find her before she died. She then asked me to keep her QQ account. She only had you as a friend on her QQ account. She said that if there was no need to tell you about her death, just pretend that nothing happened. "I didn't want to tell you about Zi Wen." "Until this morning, I saw you sending a birthday greeting to Zi Wen. I suddenly thought it would be more appropriate to tell you." "Oh. Yue'er left a letter before she died. This letter was written to you. She gave me the opportunity to give it to you again. Can you give me your current address? I will send the letter to you today. I will send it to you from China." Tang Xiaosheng and Katie chatted for more than an hour. It¡¯s around eight o¡¯clock in the evening. Tang Xiaosheng is off work. After leaving the computer city, he did not go to eat or take the bus at the station, but walked aimlessly on the road. Until now, he still can't believe that Yue'er has passed away. It feels so ridiculous and unreal. How could this lively and wild little girl leave suddenly? ¡°When I met Yue¡¯er in April last year, this girl looked energetic and full of energy. She also kept saying that she wanted to travel around the world. How could she just leave like that? Recalling the few days he spent with Yue'er last year, Tang Xiaosheng couldn't help but feel regretful. He felt that he was so careless that he couldn't see that Yue'er was terminally ill at that time. I remember that on the night of April 30, 2010, Yue'er once played and sang "Angel Wings" on the guitar to Tang Xiaosheng. At that time, after the girl finished playing and singing, she suddenly burst into tears, which shocked Tang Xiaosheng. Until now, Tang Xiaosheng understood why his son cried that night. At that time, Yue'er was about to return to the United States with her parents for treatment. She knew that once she returned to the United States, she would never have the chance to see Tang Xiaosheng again. This separation is not for a month, not for a year, not for ten years, but forever. It¡¯s hard to imagine what this girl must have been feeling at that time. Facing the impending death, how much pressure will she bear? However, recalling the few days he spent with Yue'er last year, Tang Xiaosheng could see any clues. He didn't believe that the little girl who once chased him all over the construction site was actually terminally ill, and he didn't believe that the girl who repeatedly told him to be more The meat-eating girl has left. While chatting with Katie, Tang Xiaosheng got the contact information of Yue'er's parents. He originally wanted to call Yue'er's parents, but after trying several times, the international long distance call never got through. After wandering on the street for a few hours, Tang Xiaosheng walked directly back to the rental house. When he arrived, it was already three o'clock in the night. Although he had been working hard all day, Tang Xiaosheng still couldn't fall asleep after returning to the house. When he saw the acoustic guitar placed on the bed in the room, he couldn't help but think of He Yue.The short few days we spent together with my son. Last year, Yue'er once said that she planned to learn guitar playing during the summer vacation so that she could travel around the world with a guitar on her back. Thinking about it now, this was just a lie she used to deceive Tang Xiaosheng. Yue'er was already suffering from cancer at the time. How could she go out of her way to learn guitar? In fact, Yue'er specially bought this guitar as a gift to Tang Xiaosheng. On April 24, the first night when Tang Xiaosheng and Yue'er reunited, Yue'er found a copy of "Guitar Guide for March" in Tang Xiaosheng's room, and saw Tang Xiaosheng doing something in the book. There are many annotations and annotations, which shows that Tang Xiaosheng has studied this guitar book. After discovering this problem, Yue'er guessed that Tang Xiaosheng must like guitar. So, the little girl took matters into her own hands the next morning and ran to a musical instrument store in the city center to buy a new guitar and planned to give it to Tang Xiaosheng secretly at night as a surprise. It¡¯s just that the plan can¡¯t keep up with the changes. Yue'er soon discovered that Tang Xiaosheng didn't like others giving him gifts. That night, Yue'er bought sun hats, sunscreen, gloves and other things for Tang Xiaosheng, but Tang Xiaosheng gave her a scolding and told her not to buy them randomly in the future. thing. After this incident, Yue'er did not dare to give the guitar directly to Tang Xiaosheng. So, after returning to the hotel. She lied that she was learning guitar and asked Tang Xiaosheng to teach her guitar. After that, in the name of learning guitar, Yue'er naturally brought the guitar to Tang Xiaosheng's rental house. During the seven days they got together, Tang Xiaosheng always thought that Yue'er was really ready to learn guitar, and he even taught the girl enthusiastically. Looking back now, this girl didn¡¯t really want to learn the guitar at all, she just went around the corner and gave the guitar to Tang Xiaosheng. She acted so well that Tang Xiaosheng didn't notice any flaws. If there is a flaw, it would be the night before they parted. Yue'er once burst into tears after singing "Angel Wings". Tang Xiaosheng can still clearly remember Yue'er's eyes filled with crystal tears. After standing in the room for a while, Tang Xiaosheng walked to the bed and leaned on the bed, looking at the ceiling. Sit quietly The next day. Tang Xiaosheng did not go to work in the computer city. He asked the store owner for a week's leave. The boss did not agree, but Tang Xiaosheng did not go to work in the end. In the next three days. Tang Xiaosheng didn't go anywhere and stayed alone in the rental house for three days. Until the fourth day, he received a courier from the United States. This courier was from Katie. Inside was a letter written by Yue'er to Tang Xiaosheng before she died. The envelope of Yue'er's letter is white, with a snowflake pattern on the surface. Carefully opening the envelope, Tang Xiaosheng took out the pink letter paper. After unfolding the letter paper, the words came into view: "Brother Tang: Hello, I am Yue'er, hehe. When Brother Tang saw this letter, At that time, I thought I should have left. Brother Tang, you must be very angry now? I left without saying goodbye to you. It was indeed a bit unfaithful. I originally wanted to tell Brother Tang, but I was afraid of you. Sad Brother Tang, although I have passed away, don't be sad. I told you last time that based on my years of research, I found that there is a soul in this world after death. The consciousness will still be preserved and continue to exist in the form of soul. However, the soul is invisible, colorless and tasteless, and cannot be seen by ordinary people. Therefore, Brother Tang may not be able to see me. But, I am still alive. Be well. After I die, my soul may wander around the earth and start traveling around the world. Brother Tang, I may be hiding somewhere beside you that you can't see. Don't do bad things, otherwise I will see them all. Hehe, don't worry, Brother Tang, I will take care of myself. Don't worry about me. There are many souls on the earth. I will definitely be able to find friends to play with. Maybe it can resonate with other souls. I¡¯m really looking forward to it. What does soul resonance look like? ¡ Brother Tang, I¡¯ve been thinking a lot about how stupid I was when I was a child these days. , which caused Brother Tang a lot of trouble. I was so afraid of the dark that I didn¡¯t dare to sleep at night, so I always went to sleep with you in your room (shy~) As a result, the old witch in the orphanage found out and scolded you. I was punished and made to stand in the corridor facing the wall for a long time. When I was in the first grade of elementary school, a male classmate bullied me and you had a fight with him. I remember that the male classmate was a fat man, much fatter than Brother Tang. However, Brother Tang still beat the fat man to tears. Later, the fat man's mother went to the orphanage to complain, and the old witchHe started scolding you, and then made you stand in the corridor facing the wall for a long time. ¡(1788 words omitted here) Brother Tang, I sometimes think, if I had not met Brother Tang when I was a child in the orphanage, how miserable would my life have been? When I go to bed at night, no one stays with me, and when my male classmates bully me, no one helps me Thinking about it now, I suddenly feel that Brother Tang is so important, hehe. ¡°Brother Tang, you know, when I decided to go back to China to find you this time, I felt very worried and uneasy. We haven't seen each other for eight years. I wonder what will become of Brother Tang? Many of my classmates told me that eight years is enough time for a person to change beyond recognition. They all said that Brother Tang must have become a different person, and he may have forgotten Yue'er. So, I was very uneasy and really worried that Brother Tang would forget me. However, after meeting Brother Tang, I realized that Brother Tang had not changed at all. He was still the same as when he was a child. He was really happy! When I met Brother Tang, I felt as if time had flown backwards into the past. Everything is so familiar and friendly, it feels so good. Brother Tang, when sleeping in your rental house, I always think of the small house we lived in the orphanage before. It felt so cozy. However, I still want to give Brother Tang some advice. Your room is really a bit messy. Rats and cockroaches are everywhere, so you should be careful. Lest they take it away. Although such a house is very artist-like. But it's not very safe. Brother Tang, I think the solution to this problem is very simple, that is to get a girlfriend. If Brother Tang has a girlfriend. The house will definitely be clean and tidy. Brother Tang. You are not young anymore. It's time to think about getting married and having children. If you have time, you have to find a girlfriend as soon as possible. Don't act like a little shit, you know? (Pouts) By the way, Brother Tang, please keep my guitar and the "Great Philosophers" series of books for me first, and remember not to lose them. If there is a chance in the future, I will go back and get it. Brother Tang, you said you would invent a time shuttle, and then we would travel in time together. The time shuttle is very complicated, and it may not be easy for Brother Tang to invent it. But don¡¯t worry, Brother Tang, Yue¡¯er will help you. When I have nothing to do, I will also start to study the time shuttle. If I invent the time shuttle, I will notify Brother Tang. Therefore, brother Tang, you should be mentally prepared. Maybe I will suddenly appear next to you at any time, hehe. ¡(More than 1,000 words are omitted here) Brother Tang, although researching the space-time shuttle is very important, don¡¯t be too tired. If you are exhausted, Yue¡¯er will feel sorry for you, do you know? Be sure to have a good rest and balance work and rest. Also, remember to eat more meat! You have to put on more flesh. ¡ ¡ Brother Tang, when you read this letter, did your anger dissipate? Remember not to be angry or sad, everything is fine with Yue'er. Brother Tang, you may not know that when you are reading this letter, you are hiding behind you. Don't turn around and look, it's useless, I'm in a soul body now, you can't see it. Brother Tang, would you like to smile? When you smile, Yue'er will also smile at you, hehe. ¡¡¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ªYueer-Chen Yameng-Yang Ziwen ¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ª¡ªAugust 13, 2010 in Miami¡± After reading the contents of the letter, Tang Xiaosheng sat quietly on the sofa He originally wanted to smile, but unfortunately, he couldn't In the next three days, Tang Xiaosheng didn't go to work. The owner of the Computer City store was very dissatisfied. So, on August 21, Tang Xiaosheng went to the Computer City. Then he asked his boss to resign. After learning about Yue'er's death, Tang Xiaosheng suddenly didn't want to work. He felt that everything seemed to have no meaning, although he didn't know what the meaning was. After resigning, Tang Xiaosheng stayed in the rental house. Apart from eating and sleeping, he only does one thing - reading. The books he reads are the 36-book philosophy series "The Great Philosophers" that Yue'er left for him. The books were originally bought by Tang Xiaosheng as a gift to Yue'er. Unexpectedly, in the end, this set of books fell into his hands. Tang Xiaosheng did not read philosophy books before, and he did not like reading philosophy books. Generally, only two types of people are interested in this kind of thing, one is the dying person, and the other is the lonely person. For ordinary people, they have too many things to be busy with in their daily lives.?Family, study, work there is always something to be busy with. As for philosophical questions like "the meaning of life" or "what is the world", there is basically no time or interest to deal with it. Only when a person's life is about to come to an end, most people will wake up from a dream and suddenly realize that they are mortal. After death, everything they own will disappear, and everything they have exchanged for their whole life will no longer be available. Existence, this sense of complete destruction will inevitably make people feel despair and fear. This kind of despair and fear will make people rethink the value of life. It is precisely because of this that many people are philosophers before they die. If a person's thoughts before death are recorded, it will definitely be a good philosophy book series. In addition to dying people, there is another kind of person who is interested in philosophy, and that is the extremely lonely person. This kind of loneliness is not only physical, but also spiritual. To put it simply, he is a person who is so idle that his balls ache. "Unfortunately, Tang Xiaosheng belongs to this kind of person at this time, and he is so idle right now. After resigning from Computer City, Tang Xiaosheng didn't know what to do, but there was a doubt in his heart that kept haunting him: What is life? Yue'er suddenly left like this, a life disappeared like this, does it feel so ridiculous? Tang Xiaosheng couldn't help but start to re-examine his life. He will die one day, so what should he do in this short life? With such painful questions, Tang Xiaosheng began to read the 36 philosophy books left by Qi Yue'er, reading them day and night. From "Aristotle" we see "Descartes", from "Plato" we see "Hume", from "Hegel" we see "Heidegger", from "Socrates" we see "Kant" , from "Sartre" to "Russell", from "Nietzsche" to "Kierkegaard", from "Marx" to "Schopenhauer", and from "Dostoyev" "Basic" and "Wittgenstein" After reading 36 philosophy books, Tang Xiaosheng was still not satisfied because he did not find the answer from the book. After that, he went to the book city and continued to look for philosophy books. For three whole months, he spent almost all his time in the book city, and read almost all the thousands of books on the philosophy bookshelf. It wasn¡¯t until three months later that he made a major decision. (To be continued)