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    Misjudgment.

    Dorothy mustered up her courage and stood up straight while holding on to the wall. She didn't know what Omi would do next, but if she was trapped here, her plan might become Omi's plan.  Dorothy has many problems that she cannot figure out, but it is understandable that most of her current abnormalities are caused by Omi.  Super Dorothy's identity has always been able to support her identity in the doomsday fantasy in the past. On the other hand, the changes in herself in the doomsday fantasy will also feed back to the real Super Dorothy in the hospital to a certain extent.  body.  No matter what Omi did to herself in the doomsday fantasy, no matter how she understood the connection between Super Dorothy and the Dorothy in the doomsday fantasy, judging from what she is doing now, she may have found  method of interfering with this connection.

    Although it is hard to believe that the character he once regarded as the "Omi trap" and written in the script turned against him when he was unaware of it, but at this time, he must retreat first

    Retreat?

    Dorothy felt unwilling to accept that all the things she once thought she had under control were changing at a crazy pace.  The order that I thought I had sorted out was becoming chaotic in a way that I couldn't detect.  After all, my own cognition is limited. Even if I am able to obtain a lot of information as Super Dorothy and am far superior to humans in all indicators of consciousness and thinking ability, this transcendent quality is still limited.

    No matter how much you know, when what you need to face is still unknown beyond your own knowledge, you will not be able to make a correct judgment.  This flaw has not changed in the past. Dorothy knows very well why she needs Gao Chuan, because when she faces mutations, disasters and malignancies that are beyond cognition, incomprehensible, unimaginable, and fatal,  He is always in a hurry and does not have the courage to face the disaster that may destroy him in the next moment.  However, Gao Chuan will not.

    Although she didn¡¯t want to admit it, Dorothy had no other thoughts except admitting that she was inferior to the mobility shown by the color center in the reality of the hospital.  Even though she once felt that she was an important and central being in the plan, when she chose to descend instead of rising to the surface with the color center to face the terrible and unknown disaster, she no longer felt that she was really that important.  Well, this is not an objective cognition, but a subjective feeling of inferiority and guilt.

    It is obviously not a material structure that can produce such subjective emotions, but this emotion seems to appear from another channel and in another form in her thinking, and occurs when she recognizes it.

    If it is the color center, it will definitely do something.

    If it were Gao Chuan, he would definitely do something.

    So, what about yourself?  I just fell down in pain, clearly descending from the reality of the hospital, and came to the doomsday illusion that I regarded as my "home field", but still couldn't do anything. Is this okay?  Dorothy knew that no matter what choice she made, even if it was to escape, neither the Color Center nor Gao Chuan would say anything blaming. Assuming that it was her choice that led to the worst situation, in the end  For a moment, the other person probably just smiled gently and told himself, "There is nothing we can do about it."

    But, if there is really no other way, then isn¡¯t everything I have done in the past a joke?

    Although we still can¡¯t be sure whether Omi is an enemy, we can¡¯t be sure what will happen if we continue to trust Omi and leave everything to her.  However, if you just give up like this, then the struggles you have shown in the past will look like shit!  The promises I once swore to were like shit!  The assertions I once made were like shit!  The reserve and drive I once displayed were like shit!  Everything you own is a pile of stinking shit!

    It was obviously a plan that I decided, designed, and pushed forward. It was a plan that I finally took shape after groping hard in those painful and desperate days.  Was that plan that was as important as his own life interrupted just like that?  Will it be taken away by others without any resistance?

    Dorothy felt confused. She had too many persistences that she could not explain. It was like crawling and rolling in the mud on a rainy day, walking side by side with people who were supporting each other. She finally saw the end point, but suddenly it came.  An inexplicable person said to himself: There is no need to do this anymore, because from the beginning, such hard work has no results.

    Dorothy suddenly felt angry.  In her life, she has experienced a lot of pain, loss, guilt and helplessness. She has endured all the pains that a human being can experience. However, even if she does not have anger, she always feels that "even if she is angry", what will happen?  Woolen cloth?  So, no?Angry.

    But now, she is angrier than ever.

    The object of anger is not the sudden change, nor the long-planned Omi, but himself.

    "You know? My brain is a little abnormal." Dorothy gasped for air and said to Omi.

    "You have lost your brain a long time ago. Although you look like a human on the outside, you are not actually a human being and do not have an organ like a brain." Omi said this without any sarcasm, as if he was just talking.  Explain a fact: "Your consciousness fluctuates very abnormally. You are probably thinking about some random things, which are meaningless at all. You think you have enough reasons, but even those reasons are not comprehensive and logical.  Think about it, what are you thinking about? Are the reasons you think important really important? Are the facts about Torchlight really important?  The deviation ritual has a greater impact on you than anyone else, because you are the only one who insists that "everything is under control" when facing the unknown. It's interesting, right?  My own observations and actions have gradually built up a strong self-confidence for myself, but no matter how strong this self-confidence is, it will turn into a corresponding weakness when deviations occur. "

    Dorothy could no longer listen to Omi's explanation. In her heart, the emotions that should not have occurred but had already occurred were burning her as if they were devouring her soul.  Everything that made her feel hurt, whether from others or from herself, became the biggest force supporting her continued activities.  She believed that the only thing she could do now was to vent this power.

    Omi is well aware of Dorothy's changes from the material to the spiritual level.  No matter what Dorothy calls herself or what she calls her, whether she is perceiving the world from the perspective of the reality of the hospital, or looking at the reality of the hospital based on this doomsday fantasy, only in terms of her way of existence in the doomsday fantasy,  It had long been in her observation that maybe Super Dorothy really existed, but here, in this world she called the "Doomsday Illusion", she was still the incomplete imitation of the final weapon, made by Omi herself.  Completed her composition based on her own theory.

    "What on earth do you want to do? Omi. What on earth have you done to me?" Dorothy still wanted to ask clearly before taking action.

    "I didn't do anything." Omi's answer was hard for Dorothy to believe, but her tone was so calm and full of convincing power, "You may think that I was the one who calculated it from the beginning.  It¡¯s because of you that you become like this, but this is just your illusion. As for what I want to do to you, I can only say that I just don¡¯t want you to collapse like this.¡±

    "Lie!" Dorothy shouted loudly. The less clear her head was, the greater the power that was continuously generated in her body.  In the beginning, he was already trying his best just to stand up straight, but now, he seems to be able to launch an attack.

    "You are unconscious. Do you really understand what you are thinking? Do you really think that your current decision is rational?" Omi's expression remained unchanged, his hands were in the pockets of his white coat, and he  He walked up to Dorothy in three steps, bent slightly and stared into her eyes.  She could already see with her naked eyes that turbid colors were emerging from the whites of Dorothy's eyes: like yellow, like red, like pus from a wound, or like swollen capillaries.

    The bloodshot eyes all over her eyes distorted the girl's delicate face, turning her into an image that would make people think of her as "evil and ugly".

    Omi is very clear that Dorothy¡¯s current changes are definitely not just the result of the deviation ritual of torch light.  The reasons she mentioned before are of course valid, but they are not comprehensive.  The most basic reason why Dorothy's spirit is so greatly affected is actually her identity as the "ultimate weapon imitation".

    If Dorothy is not a replica of the ultimate weapon, no, this assumption is not true from the beginning, because the reason why she has such an identity is not a coincidence, but the inevitable Dorothy caused by a more essential reason.  In the doomsday fantasy, she will inevitably have the identity of "the imitation of the ultimate weapon". This was not her choice. Maybe she once thought it was her choice, but in fact it was not.  It's not something that other people can change, and Omi doesn't think he can change it either.

    Dorothy existed like a marionette in the midst of the indescribable terror.  Omi once thought: Maybe the recognition of "Dorothy" is just an illusion given to her.  Dorothy, and even Super Dorothy, the inner nature that determines what kind of existence she is has already undergone the most complete change. It is only for some reason that she has always been wearing the "Dorothy"It¡¯s just a layer of fake skin. This perception of ¡°she is Dorothy¡± can actually be broken with one poke. However, as long as she continues to recognize it this way, it will be difficult for outsiders to expose it. However, ¡°Who is she?¡±  The relationship between "what" and "what she thinks she is", "what she perceives herself to be", etc. is not determined by the latter.

    What is "Dorothy"?  Dorothy didn't know it, and Omi couldn't give an answer, at least not now. Even if she completed the "Dorothy" in front of her with her own hands, its inevitable flaws prevented Omi from continuing to collect information from her.  Enough data.

    "Dorothy" was too false and too weak, and a structure called "self-confidence" had to be constructed to stabilize the existence of this illusion. However, the deviation ceremony of the torch light gave this illusion the most fatal blow.

    The confusion of thinking, mental confusion, cognitive confusion and emotional confusion that Dorothy is experiencing now, and all the abnormalities in external recognition based on the self-perception of "she is Dorothy", are all caused by this.  And, just like a sandcastle washed away by sea water, it may completely collapse at any time.

    After stripping away the illusion of self-awareness of "Dorothy", what is the innermost thing?  Omi was quite interested in this, but he couldn't let "Dorothy" collapse like this.  No matter from any aspect, today's world is not good. Even if he has never been to a hospital, Omi can deduce a cruel scene from the information he has obtained.  The doomsday is happening in the doomsday fantasy, and the reality of the hospital is not much different. The connection between the doomsday fantasy and the reality of the hospital is so deep that it is most absurd to treat the two separately.  Omi believes that the researchers at the hospital mentioned by Dorothy made such a mistake.

    Omi feels that if the doomsday illusion can be viewed from the perspective of the hospital reality, and the doomsday illusion can be put from a perspective that is consistent with the hospital reality, those researchers will definitely be able to achieve more results.  The opposite is also true. Omi has never thought of putting "hospital reality" in a higher position than the world he lives in.

    "Whether one observes the doomsday illusion from the hospital reality, or observes the hospital reality from the doomsday illusion, it may not be completely correct to regard the two as different aspects of a whole, but it is more correct to regard them as upper and lower relationships. Omi thinks so.

    Unfortunately, Dorothy is like the representative of most researchers who observe doomsday illusions from the perspective of hospital reality. She always likes to use an overlooking perspective to understand what is happening.  Listening to her talk from this perspective every day, to Omi, felt like he was wasting his time listening to nonsense.

    Omi stretched out his hand, and in Dorothy's eyes, this hand was filled with inexplicable terror.  Although from the angles that can be seen, they are all human hands, but from the feeling brought by the oncoming face, it is not a hand, but something else that is indescribable and extremely huge.  Dorothy rolled violently to one side before being touched.  She already felt that although her thoughts and emotions were a bit confused, her body functions were becoming active again.
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