I have always wondered why Torchlight has such an ardent tendency and staggering persistence in the concept, phenomenon and meaning of "deviation". "Deviation" is not a good thing for everyone who has planned actions. Everyone who has made a dream plan for his or her life will hate "deviation" very much. Just looking at the narrow group of "human beings", no one is completely without order and planning, because the structure and thinking of "human beings" themselves are all produced from an orderly structure. The movement that makes up a person is orderly, the matter that makes up a person is orderly, and the energy that makes up a person is orderly. Orderliness must also be the basis for human beings to recognize themselves and external objects. Even though many people claim that human thoughts are chaotic, this "chaos" is, in a more significant sense, an exaggeration of the complexity of human thinking.
People always regard "order that is so complex that it is dizzying" as chaos, but it is really not chaos. Just as the idiom "a mess" expresses, even if a person cannot pull out the threads from the mess and sort it out, it does not mean that the mess is disordered. On the contrary, whether from a larger macro perspective or a smaller micro perspective, it is inevitable to see that the so-called "mess" actually strictly adheres to order.
Therefore, from a human perspective, complete chaos is like a fantasy that exists in theory but cannot be observed in practice. Furthermore, "deviation" in the sense of causing disorder is absolutely undesirable.
I have always believed that it is normal for everyone to hate "deviation". And Torchlight, who is keen on "deviation", is naturally abnormal from the beginning. In fact, I have always felt that the Torchlight, which yearns for "deviation" and always creates "deviation", should be a villain that many people reject from the bottom of their hearts. It should not have the soil to grow and develop, nor should it be a positive example, standing on the front line against the doomsday truth religion. On the other hand, it should be an existence that should be subconsciously rejected by both the existing "enemy and ourselves".
In the past doomsday illusions, there has never been a mysterious organization as inexplicable as "Torch Light", but the fact is that in this doomsday illusion, it not only exists, but is also very powerful. This is the only one. Examples are enough to make people feel that there is some essential difference between the current doomsday illusion and the doomsday illusions of the past.
Of course, it is difficult for me to explain the more specific situation. But after learning about "Torch Light", a mysterious organization that pursues "deviation", I have always had a strong feeling.
¡°Torchlight is not a friend or a companion. It does not side with any of the existing camps, nor can it be simply classified into the signs of doomsday that have already appeared. It is a separate, unique, different kind of crisis from the one that has already emerged. What's more, is it really the comprehensive manifestation of the impact of the "virus" on the spiritual world of patients with doomsday syndrome? I also have deep doubts about this.
I have always felt that sooner or later, Torchlight will become another enemy than the Doomsday Truth Religion. Now, this intuition has come true. What¡¯s even more frightening is that I may have underestimated the nature of the ¡°deviation¡± that Torchlight aspires to.
In front of my eyes, the members of Torchlight were almost twisted into another inhuman form of existence in a short period of time. They were not only the performers of the deviation rituals, but also the defenders who guarded the rituals. It also inevitably becomes a distorted part. If we say that in the past, I could see that there were some logical things and orderly and progressive manifestations behind the disasters caused by the Doomsday Truth Religion, and I also felt the possession of this logical, orderly and progressive part. charm, and believe that it is this unique charm that continues to make the mystery expert a part of it.
So, the consequences and phenomena caused by the deviation ritual in front of you have a kind of horror beyond logic. It seems to be divergent, but in fact it is always based on memory and logic, and it is absolutely impossible to cover and understand the horror.
I am Gao Chuan. I have experienced too many mysteries. From the changes in myself and the changes in others, I can detect the threat from the "virus" that seems to be sudden and chaotic, but is actually very orderly. But because of this , so I can be so sure that the existence of the torch light and the deviation rituals it triggers are most likely not directly related to the "virus", but something similar to the "virus" in level, but in essence Something very different.
Unfortunately, my language cannot accurately describe "virus", nor can I accurately describe this thing that is different from "virus".
"The experience I gained in dealing with mysterious events and fighting "viruses" in the past is of almost no use to the deviation rituals of Torchlight. I even doubt that "Jiang" is?Have the power to defeat it.
Now, in this underground hall where the torch light is used to hold deviation rituals, three phenomena are entangled together. Within the scope of observation, the same distortion can be seen, but it seems that you can intuitively feel different from this distortion. Phenomenon, and within the scope that cannot be observed, it is still possible to reason and imagine the twisted confrontation that is also taking place. I don¡¯t know how many people like me are still ¡°thinking normally¡± in this center of confrontation.
In front of me, apart from myself, there is no other thing that can barely be called a "humanoid", and I don't think there is anything else that is a "living individual". It seems that except for myself, other things that were once "people" and "human corpses" have melted from form and changed in nature. They are not pure matter or pure energy, but some kind of A complex and connected phenomenon that has never been seen before. I know very well that these indescribable things were things I once knew before I don¡¯t know how much time ago: the wizards of the Doomsday Truth Cult, the members of Torch Light, and even the mysterious experts who are not Torch Light.
Now, they have lost their original character. In self-observation, I am the only "person" who still maintains a human form and is thinking. It is closer to the concept of "human" than anything else around it.
What is happening here are at least three rituals: "Jiang"'s ritual, the torch light ritual, and the ritual of Doomsday Truth. And the characteristics of each ritual are interpenetrating, entangled, and changing, just like the three primary colors of paint are mixed together, turning into more colorful colors, and then turning into a deep and difficult-to-explore turbid chaos. black.
However, this black color is not completely integrated. If you observe it carefully, even a tiny being like me can still distinguish the layers with the naked eye. Some blacks are lighter, some blacks are richer, and some blacks seem to be slightly tinged with other colors. However, these levels visible to the naked eye are also gradually shrinking. From the perspective of thinking, I can deduce that "this complex and profound struggle in front of me" is spreading to other places, and it is even conceivable that the reality of the hospital compared to the doomsday illusion cannot avoid being affected by this battle. But I actually cannot directly observe these influences and changes. In observing all these, I feel that I am becoming some kind of incompatible existence. Only I still maintain my human form, only I am still thinking in a human way. Put it here Under such circumstances, he stood out like a black sheep in a flock of white sheep.
Of course I know that I am the starting point of "Jiang"'s ceremony, and my observations are very likely to be part of "Jiang's" observations. Although I have emphasized many times that I am not Jiang's puppet, I am still self-aware of the extent of Jiang's influence on me. Therefore, I can also imagine that if I am destroyed in the most fragile part of the ceremony that I am "Jiang", then "Jiang" will be kicked out of this battle.
However, even if I am really the most vulnerable, what can I do? The battle taking place here has completely exceeded the limits of my abilities.
I can only wait for the verdict of fate. Such waiting is painful, helpless and boring. I can only think, but I dare not do anything else, for fear that extra actions will lead to worse results. As for this battle between rituals, the entanglement of different meanings behind the rituals, and the indescribable and incomprehensible attacks on each other hidden behind these different meanings, when will it stop? It's completely unimaginable.
Everything that was happening around me, and the calmness of my own area, seemed to tell me that I was in the eye of this terrible storm. I felt that as long as I threw even a small pebble into this storm, it would trigger different and far-reaching changes. Because of this, I decided to do nothing.
"Compared to the vigorous movement, I feel that I am falling into a certain sense of "stillness".
Then, suddenly, every phenomenon I could observe went from violent motion to frozen stillness. The hidden layers of black seemed to be torn apart, swirling layer by layer, and soon dissipated within the range that could be observed. The colors and states of things are being restructured, and the scenery visible to the eye is coming to life again. I became aware of my breathing and heartbeat again. Just two or three seconds after my heartbeat began, the distorted phenomenon composed of three intertwined rituals in front of me disintegrated like a mirror being smashed.
I don¡¯t know the specific victory or defeat, but I feel that it would be better if the violent and distorted phenomenon collapsed than if it continued forever. At least after it collapsed, I could feel more substantively that "self" is not an empty word.The material foundation supporting "self" is also returning to normal. What surprised me was that I didn't feel tired at all at this time.
finished? Is this the end? I looked around in disbelief and touched myself again. Even though all my feelings had returned to normal, I could not regard everything I had experienced before as a dream.
I was the only one left in the underground hall. Everyone else except me has disappeared, as if they had never appeared in this world. For a moment, I couldn't find the enemy, and I didn't know how I should react. That huge, transcendent, and impossible-to-face battle still has a frightening aftertaste.
If possible, I really hope someone can explain it to me. However, without such a person, it is impossible to continue to feel the existence of "Jiang" from the depths of the body and soul. These vague feelings of confusion only made me feel that no matter which side it was, no real victory was achieved. Even so, the sense of "deviation" that permeated the underground hall was obviously different.
I know that the deviation ritual must have had a huge impact on the outside world, and every impact is definitely not in a good direction. However, it is completely unclear what kind of chain reaction it will cause.
I can only say to myself: "At least I saved a small life."
I waited for at least five minutes in the calm underground hall, and no one else came in. So, I planned to leave like this. For me, the beginning of this battle was inevitable. The process was imaginable early on, but halfway through it became inexplicable and indescribable, and the result cannot be directly recognized.
Among the battles I have experienced, the impression this one left on me may not be that intuitive, but it is deeply impressive. It makes me even more doubtful, without the power of "Jiang", can we really defeat the "virus"? No, even the "virus" is no longer the only threat. The deviation ritual of Torchlight has attracted something terrible, which is completely different from the "virus", but enough to rival it. If it is impossible to confirm what the fate of this thing is now, it will be completely impossible for people to calm down and implement the plan against the "virus".
When the factor of doomsday is no longer a "virus", it really makes people feel extremely desperate. In this huge sense of despair, I even felt that my emotions had become blank. The strong sense of fear that had always existed seemed to be diluted by this huge despair, making it even harder for me to be touched by it.
I once felt that my plan was more reliable and more likely to be implemented than theirs. However, my plan was not tolerant enough to accommodate the second doomsday factor besides the "virus". From this perspective, Torchlight, which pursues "deviation", is the winner, even though none of them are left at this time.