"I never asked you to define our relationship or its outcome. When I think about it, our relationship from the beginning to now has been a accumulation of pure emotions. Maybe it's because I have lived in Taiwan for a long time, and I have a deep understanding of China. The man's reserved feelings and sense of responsibility made me choose you. At first, I just wanted to find a companion. I really never thought I would live with you for a lifetime." Redba sat on the chair in front of me: "We are both People with blood on their hands, "murderers, will always be killed!" "We all understand the truth. Maybe one day you will be killed or I will die, if you are so lucky."
There was no one else in the wine cellar at this time, only redba and I were left. This feeling of being alone and talking was the first time in my memory. It feels very unfamiliar!
"Every time we walk out, we never think about what will happen if we don't come back. Because we are all soldiers, being sentimental will increase the chance of being in danger. But now" Redba stroked her round belly under the robe: "I I can no longer step out that foot so calmly.¡±
"I began to understand why my parents went through so much trouble to hide me in the cellar. Because when I walked out of that man-made paradise, I had to face scorched earth and bullets. That was my life born in the flames of war. I had no choice. power. But now I can't let my own children go the same way."
"I didn't want to come to you. I once considered taking my children and leaving you, leaving this circle. Go to the inaccessible North American plateau, or the Arctic Circle full of ice and snow, to a paradise where peace is in the air. Just We are two mothers and sons! I will tell him that his father is an unfortunate soul who died in a traffic accident and was buried on a hillside not far from home. I will choose a day to take him to the grave and tell him I made up the romance between the two of us. Haha! Very selfish, right?"
Redba looked at the damp ceiling and smiled: "I will teach him to read and write, maybe read him the Romance of the Three Kingdoms, I will teach him to shoot and hunt, but he is not allowed to hurt others, I will teach him to make triple distilled whiskey. Instead Twice. I will"
"But you didn't leave" I knelt on the ground, my body covered with sweat. The doctor interrupted my withdrawal process with medicine, so I had to start over. The pain tumbling in my body was scared away by the words of the beautiful woman in front of me. Most of it.
"I should" Redba interrupted me with a scream: "I should I shouldn't let you know this existence."
"Why? Do you think I won't be a competent father?" I yelled. The loudspeaker was unable to fully express the annoyance in my heart, and the tight corset I put on again made an unpleasant groaning sound under my anger.
"I don't know." Redba walked up to me and knelt down on one leg. She stretched out her hand to brush away the hair that was stuck to my face due to sweat and met my eyes: "You don't know either. Right?"
"I" I wanted to defend myself, but found that under Redba's gaze, all explanations turned into false excuses.
"Are you going to let your children grow up in violence, killing, and darkness, and then walk into this blood for unknown reasons like us?" When redba said this, he suddenly pinched my chin and said excitedly: "Do you remember the Blood Warrior? Do you want to wait until your son falls under your own knife like him before you regret it?"
Thinking of the miserable old man in the chaotic bar in France, I suddenly felt sympathy and realized his sorrow. Thinking that I might one day follow in his footsteps, the chill in my heart froze my beating heart.
"Then why are you still here?" I realized that although redba's decision was ruthless, it was correct. When I thought that I had no way to keep my woman and child, it even became a hidden danger that threatened the child's growth. Suddenly I found that my existence had lost its value once again.
"Maybe the intimacy in my life is too barren. Like a dry sponge, I want to squeeze more love from you with one touch. When I want to escape, I find that my life is full of us. bit by bit." Redba said this and gently drew her fingers along the hairline on my forehead. The original tattoo had been covered up by the short hair that had just grown out: "Those beautiful things are like a thousand pounds of weight dragging me away. After getting the news of your disappearance, it dragged me to this hellish place like a tractor, but I didn¡¯t know that you turned into such a shit"
¡°Are you pitying me?¡± I don¡¯t know whether it¡¯s the frustration in my heart that has nowhere to vent or the overwhelming discomfort in my body that makes me think more and more anxiously. I couldn't help but start to misunderstand the expressions of the people in front of me.
"I don't need your pity. I won't fall without you. I'm still Xingtian! I'm still a ghoul! I'm still the strongest among men."
"Really? Look at how you look now! Do you think your words are convincing?"
After redba finished speaking, he sat back in his chair with a sneer, looked at me and stopped talking.
"" I didn't dare to pick up on her words, because I didn'tThere is no way to be sure that you can defeat the "devil" at work inside your body.
Silence is like quicksand, burying both of us deep in the desert of despair. When I discovered that redba gave birth to new life. Countless exciting pictures have appeared in my chaotic mind. Maybe the two of us will celebrate happily, maybe we will hug each other and cry, maybe we will walk into the auditorium, and even thought about taking her and the child back to China to reunite with her parents one day. ¡
But I didn¡¯t expect this scene. In an instant, those images were disillusioned in my heart one by one
"When will you give birth?" After a long time, I raised my head and asked the woman in front of me slowly.
¡°At the end of the month!¡±
"Oh!In what month?" After I said this, my intestines turned green with regret! The remaining half of the sentence "How many days?" was swallowed back.
"September!" Sure enough, Redba took a few deep breaths to suppress her anger before speaking.
"I want to see the child." I noticed that there seemed to be no hope in my tone.
"Okay!" redba answered readily, then stood up and walked to the door, looked back at me and seemed to hesitate, then turned around and walked out without looking back. The disappearance of her figure from my sight also took away the last strength to support my body, and I fell to the ground like a dead fish.
I don¡¯t know how long it took when I was awakened by the severe pain of thigh cramps. Under the dim candlelight on the cellar wall, I saw a magazine photo of a young man placed on the floor in front of my face. At first I didn't see what kind of pattern was drawn in the blurred black and white tones, but when I accidentally messed up the angle, I realized through the reflection that it was an ultrasound picture, and what was drawn in black and white was the self. The identifiable fetal shape is my son who is about to be born.
????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? instantly. It was like opening an unknown door in life, and the desire filled the body that had been dry for a long time like a volcanic eruption. The weak heart was stretched to pieces by this greed. When the intention of picking up the pictures conflicts with the constraints on the body, the strong desire turns into a vicious force. The thickened corset on my body was torn to pieces like pieces of paper, but an indestructible rope prevented further damage to the corset. No matter how hard I tried, this thing was tightly wrapped around my arms like a curse.
Seeing that the freedom of the eyes was blocked by an inconspicuous string, the anger and shame almost burst the veins on his forehead.
"Stop struggling! That's the alloy cable used to tow the tank. If you can break free from it, you can lift the slow machine and walk out of the shadows. I don't know if he entered the cellar after I passed out or if he never left at all. here.
"Give it to me! Give it to me!" I knelt down and put my forehead on the floor, trying to pick up the photo on the ground with my teeth. But I was afraid that the saliva dripping from my mouth would stain it, so I put my head on the photo and begged to the speed machine. The speed machine slowly walked to the photos and sighed, then bent down to pick them up and spread them out in front of my eyes: "These are my best efforts!"
"Let me go!" Looking at the picture in front of me, I couldn't see it clearly due to the horniness and light. I can't help but want to hold it in my hand for convenience.
"No!" The speed controller adjusts the angle. Let the light hit the photo: "We won't let you go until the doctor says you're OK."
¡°I just wanted to hold the first photo of my son in my hands. Speed ????and slow! Look at me!
I have no problem anymore. ¡°I know it¡¯s useless to struggle, but I still don¡¯t want to give up.
"There's still a long way to go!" The express machine ignored me at all, and just pulled up a stool, put the photo on it, put it in front of my face, and then retreated to a dark corner. I was left alone looking at the life milestones I missed, feeling annoyed, and blaming myself for redba's negligence
There is nothing wrong with the speed machine, there is still a long way to go. Waiting for me to wake up from the excitement of becoming a father. The drug addiction raging in my body seemed to be increasing instead of abating, and it was doubly torturing my nerves. When I smashed my head on the bench in front of me and lay twitching over the ultrasound photo, I looked at the human form stained by the dripping snot. I understand what redba wanted to say when he left
Several ups and downs! I don¡¯t know how many times I fainted. As the drug addiction weakened, I began to enter a sleepless period. After four days and four nights, I felt that the pain was weakening and the time I spent awake was getting longer and longer. Everyone was surprised that I would rather bite my lip than keep silent and stop asking for drugs. It was hard to imagine that the reason why they supported me in persevering was just a ball of pulpy paper in the palm of my hand.
Detoxification! The most important thing is that you find someone who is willing to work hard to support you. Every time I watched the peak of the painful attack slow down, I seemed to see a chubby little boy getting closer and closer to me.
The brothers took turns coming down to watch over me, fearing that I might not be able to bear the pain and cause harm to myself. I talked desperately with the people around me, afraid that I would have some free time. Facing yourself alone has become a fear!
Brothers told me that Trigger could not be rescued in the end and his whereabouts are still unknown. The captain has disappeared since he urgently summoned everyone here. He has not been contacted for a long time. The United States has mobilized its army to the Persian Gulf and is preparing to go there in two days. Yue will attack Iraq. I heard that the armored troops of the army have not yet arrived, and the American oil drilling team has already filled the cars with gas. This time, the mercenaries stationed themselves at the US military base under the guise of post-war reconstruction contractors, but the number of mercenaries has exceeded twice that of the current US military personnel.
"You don't know! The eyes of the whole world are staring at this place now. There are more reporters than soldiers walking around the base with cameras on their backs every day. They all use telephoto lenses and rocket launchers to attack the guards standing guard at the door. I'm always on tenterhooks every day" Apart from talking to me incessantly, the genius also handed me cigarettes one after another. I don¡¯t take drugs but become a heavy smoker. It can be regarded as a kind of alternative therapy!
Since the withdrawal symptoms are no longer as scary as they were a week ago, everyone has taken off my corset. In addition to the fact that my wrists were still tied to the metal belt with alloy cables and unable to move widely, there was only a steel cable connecting the belt and the wall like a dog leash to ensure that I could not leave this humid cell.
"The attack on Iraq is too big this time. The whole world is grabbing this big cake!" The genius saw that I hadn't stamped out the cigarette butt yet, so he lit another one in his mouth. Unconsciously, he also started to get addicted to cigarettes and started smoking: "Iraq's remaining recoverable oil reserves are 5.4 billion tons, accounting for 0.9% of the world's reserves and 4% of the Gulf region's tons. London Global Energy Research A recent study by the center shows that in addition to Iraq's proven crude oil reserves of 2 billion barrels, there may be more than 200 billion barrels of crude oil reserves that have not been discovered. If this number is accurate, Iraq will surpass Saudi Arabia and become the world's largest oil reserve. The country with the highest oil reserves. After occupying Iraq, the United States has held 54.% of the world's oil reserves. Using oil resources as a "weapon" can not only offset military expenditures but also seek economic benefits, and can also suppress Russia and slow down its economy. Recovery momentum. If European countries are stuck in energy exchange cooperation, they can also control Iraq to accelerate the transformation of the Middle East system. Possessing resources that no one has and I can guarantee the world's hegemony for a century. The United States's account is a tight one!"
"Has the United Nations approved it?" I was really at a loss for words and asked an idiot question.
"How could the United Nations approve it? After nine years of defeat, Iraq knew that the United States would not let it go easily. In the past ten years, almost all the oil pumped out by the country has been given as bribes to China, Russia, and France, the three permanent members of the United Nations Security Council. With these three No one can vote against it in the United Nations. The chance of passing the attack on Iraq is 0. After this war, China will have an oil shortage!"
"The China Land and Resources Expo has a solution!" The thought that was instilled in me since I was a child has become an instinctive reaction.
"Do you really think China is a treasure chest?" The genius poured a glass of wine and took a sip: "When the hard drive we snatched back was returned to the United States last time, I cracked it open and took a look. In addition to military information, Afghanistan, Pakistan, Ukraine, Russia. All the underground resources in northwest China have been clearly detected by people. The oil in your northwest and the Middle East is pitifully less than it is, which is not enough to lubricate China's crazy money printing machine. That's it. They are all buried in the uninhabitable death zone. After filling up the well in Iraq, the oil tanks of China and Russia will bottom out at a glance. ** will immediately have to risk quarrel with Japan to develop the oil fields in the East China Sea. , before oil can be produced there, it is estimated that we will have to borrow oil from everywhere to survive the resource crisis and ensure social stability, and to withstand the current rising economic momentum will not affect the confidence of foreign investors in the Chinese market. Who can we borrow from? No one can feed it except Russia. After the war in Afghanistan, Russia lost its oil fields in the Caspian Sea. It is already stretched. Coupled with the rise and fall of oil prices after the war, international oil prices will fall sharply. Russia¡¯s economy will definitely depend on selling oil to support itself. They will be cut off from the horse. How can there be money to develop that large ice sheet where no one lives? If you China wants oil, you have to pay several times the price, and you have to negotiate with little Japan. The Russian surname is now " "Capital" is no longer your "big brother"!
I spat out the saliva in my mouth, shivered, took out another "Marlboro" and stuffed it into my mouth. The filter was immediately soaked with saliva. From the time I started detoxification to now, the place under my tongue where the poison injection was originally was sore and itchy, and my saliva keeps lingering like a reservoir that has been opened. It makes me feel as disgusting as the variegated British bulldog that the couple who sold fruits across the street had when I was a kid. That guy was always lying on the bamboo basket full of rotten bananas and drooling!
"I heard that the female reporter you almost lost her life to protect followed me to Iraq again." The genius saw that I was lost in thought and didn't know what I was thinking, so he hit my shoulder with his fist.
"Who?" I lay unconscious on the hospital bed for almost a year, and I couldn't remember which one he was talking about.
¡°That¡¯s the reporter from France.¡±
"Oh!" I responded and then said no.Chat again.
"She came here and said she wanted to interview you. She would have to pay such a high price to save her, so she should come back with some sweeteners, right?"
"I have a son!" I reminded him lightly, looking at the pulp in my hand that was soaked with sweat.
"You're not married yet! When did you become a chaste and virtuous man?"
"I don't want to see her!" In addition to being tortured by drug addiction all over my body, my woman has to take my child and leave me. Now I am even more troubled. This guy is going to cause trouble for me. If I It's impossible to slap this guy without a big ear scraper tied to his hand.
"No! You want to see her! And you have to see her now" The captain suddenly walked in from the stairs, his face full of fatigue and dust: "We need her to do a big favor, a big favor that affects the survival of the wolf pack ¡¡±
"What's the matter?" I was startled when I heard the captain say this, and quickly threw away the cigarette butt in my hand and stood up.
"Our wolf pack's bases in Europe have all been seized!" Following the captain came several knights and werewolves.
"Who did it? I was fine when I came here, why" The genius also fainted after hearing this.
"The French leader did it!" the captain pinched the bridge of his nose to cheer up: "Now the French government and the United States are in a fierce quarrel. The United States cut off France's oil lifeline, and France stabbed the American intelligence network. There was a big purge in Europe some time ago. Thousands of NATO spies have fled. The French government has clearly stood up to the stage and stated that it will not wave the flag for the United States to attack Iraq. It will not even send maintenance troops after the United States attacks Iraq. Such a big movement is unprecedented! Our base on Corsica was also taken back by others on the grounds that it posed a major safety hazard"
"What about our offline people?" Brother Gongzi remembered that there were many employees in the companies under Wolf Pack that were working as fronts. Those people were all his connections, so he asked with special concern.
¡°Several senior executives who have access to us have been monitored in the name of illegal money laundering.¡±
The captain shook his head and said, "We won't die if we haven't walked through there with funds and supplies! But we still have to lose some skin."
"Even the Russian guy Hook was detained in Marseille for selling several batches of arms to the Americans."
Seeing that the captain's spirit was too low, the knight intervened for him. It seemed that the two of them had calculated it together.
¡°The worst case scenario is that we just don¡¯t go back to France!¡± I said calmly. Now let alone losing the base, I have nothing to be afraid of even if the bomb is about to fall on my head. My parents, brothers, women, and children are all in danger. I don¡¯t know how much I can survive, and why I care about a place to live.
"It would be nice if it was that simple!" The captain stood up after saying this: "Don't forget that our villa in the countryside of Marseille has also been sealed!"
"Yes! My "cemetery" is still there!" The butcher was the first to jump up and shouted.
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