Not a long time ago, about a month or so. I was drinking with an older brother. After we got a little drunk, we started talking about some books. Later I asked him, do you think the name Tianxu has any meaning?
He was silent for a long time and told me, I think it probably meant ¡®destiny¡¯.
?I deeply agree.
What this book probably wants to say is some stories about fate, choices, battles, girls, girls, and girls, right?
So far it seems that a little bit of everything has been said, but nothing has been said. I'm really sorry that I failed to live up to readers' expectations.
As you all know, after I was halfway through writing this book, I stopped doing my job and went to play in the physical world.
??The physical circle is quite fun, everyone is warm and hospitable, and I couldn¡¯t bear to leave. Once I stayed I stayed for more than a year, and there were no updates or anything.
????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? It¡¯s all the fault of the entity circle for the interruption of updates.
My editor in the physical circle is a brother who is hospitable, good at fighting and running a group. When I named this book, he resolutely allowed me to use the name "Tianxu". Later, when we all had dinner together, we often talked about this book.
We are all literate people. Among literate people, we don¡¯t talk about the big sword. Although the big sword can cut off troubles and black hair, we still think it is more professional to talk about literature.
He said to me, in fact, what kind of person you are has already determined what you write. I thought about it and thought what he said made sense, so I pulled him and asked:
¡°Then do you think I look like a fatalistic believer in the style of ancient Greek tragedy?¡±
He looked at me deeply and shook his head seriously: "No, you are a psychopath."
I do not believe.
My second semester of high school has passed long ago.
Maybe what he said makes sense? I'm really crazy sometimes.
On the one hand, I am a pessimist who believes in cause and effect and fatalism. But on the other hand. I always feel that. I have strength in my heart, so I can become strong. I'm so handsome and so young, and my future is limitless. I have a great chance of becoming a "humanoid self-propelled cannon" in the future. When nevr asked me to open an EVA letter, it must have been lost by EMS
This world has caused me to miss so many opportunities, and I want to defeat it.
So, it actually makes sense to say that I am crazy, in a person's mind. Always have to believe in something.
¡ª¡ªI am so perfect, then it must be the world that is wrong-
Sorry, I missed a few shots just now, please forgive me.
I know that I have many shortcomings and shortcomings. I still admit that Iron Throne and Sky Drive also have many shortcomings.
But when I look back later, I will always find that it is all part of me. It¡¯s not just them that¡¯s flawed, it¡¯s probably me too.
When I wrote The Iron Throne, I was filled with rage. That kind of manic power is the fire that cannot be extinguished in every man's heart. But when it came to me, the fire was a bit too big. Let me jump into this pit without being able to do it myself.
When I was writing Tianqi, I had some more negative and tragic thoughts in my mind. So I gave it the darkness and shackles in my heart. Then the world is shrouded in destiny, and the hero wants to break free from the shackles. He walks on the road of fire and sword. When the gods come, he must kill the gods, and when the ghosts come, he must kill the ghosts.
??After a man bleeds outside, he puts on a white coat and goes home spotlessly with a smile, waiting for his wife to cook supper.
¡°Even if you have to pay the price for revenge on the one hand, you still have to give those beautiful girls a warm home on the other.
When the two cannot coexist, what should you do?
Zhou Li, this is really a difficult choice.
A person with an empty heart will never let go if he gets something warm. Even if it was coals burning his palms.
I gave him my loneliness and pain, and he became obsessed with warm love and friendship, tired of running for his life, chasing dreams that did not belong to him. Again and again, bruises all over the body.
But one day he will understand the conflict between his responsibility and his desire. Someone needs to tear his wounds, remind him of his destiny, pull him out of that warm illusion, and force him to look at this cold world.
Zhou Jianan did it quickly and neatly. Zhou Li finally recognized reality and destiny.
He finally stopped deceiving himself and became a cold person. Such people's hearts are filled with unshakable power, and they can climb out even from the abyss and reach out to touch the sun. After having nothing to lose, naturally there is nothing to lose.Afraid.
This is the inevitable choice he needs to make when fighting this world. As many people have written, he chose to become a cruel person in order to protect some beautiful things. But because of this, we lost those beautiful things.
There was no such plot in the original outline I overturned it and rewrote it.
I can say that this is to make the characters fuller, and I can say that I like this kind of plot better But in fact, the most reasonable explanation seems to be:
My negative energy is overwhelming.
"I'm really sorry for accidentally messing up like this."
Presumably, Ni Kuang and Jin Yong also said the same thing back then, right?
In the original outline, there will actually be many plots later For example, three years later, Zhou Li becomes an OSS-like person, evil and powerful. The shadow shrouded the whole of Asia, dictatorship with an iron fist, a war with the two-headed eagle, and a duel with Odin.
??Also, the secret of the World Tree.
The first war between ability users and humans, the struggle between Planchenko and Zhou Jian'an, the secrets of Zhou Li and Zhou Li's life experience, and the fusion of thirteen saints with the Ark of the Covenant, chasing sister My brother is thousands of miles away.
Of course, there is also the death of Zhou Jianan.
In the end, Zhou Li became Magneto, and may lead the people with abilities to build their own country But this is all an outline, and the things in the outline are not written out. Who can say for sure?
After all, these contents are too contrary. After writing it, it¡¯s easy to go in and have tea.
It¡¯s better not to write.
to date. I'm still stubborn: I don't have a bad ending, I just have an open ending.
There is a qualitative difference between a bad ending and an open ending.
The ending of this story was originally just the end of this volume. This plot was determined more than half a year ago. I kept thinking about it at night, trying hard to bring the derailed plot back to where it should originally exist.
I really spent a lot of time and effort to perfect the structure of this story and ensure that it can explain the fate and decisions of all the characters, as well as their future.
If it¡¯s a mess. In fact, it is very simple. One chapter of less than 5,000 words is enough. I can write about meteorites, I can write about doomsday, I can write about the whole city being destroyed and everyone dyingetc., these plots seem familiar.
In fact, the original ending of this volume was not so spectacular.
But since I have decided to finish the book, I want to make some big news But it seems that no one is cold at the moment, so it seems that I am still na?ve.
¡°But I think I¡¯m still not bad.
After all, the most significant difference between a bad ending and an open ending is. The open ending makes it possible to write a sequelwell, maybe I won't.
Please listen to me:
sorry. I didn't finish this book well.
It¡¯s my fault for expecting everyone.
Retribution came quickly. I broke my promise and got fat, and I reaped the consequences. I have already gained twenty kilograms A handful of bitter tears are a lesson to the heavens.
I don¡¯t mean to vomit any bitterness, but everyone must know that at the starting point, a book that has not been updated for a year will not be able to improve even if it is updated again. What's more, a guy like me who is busy with both life and writing can't even maintain stable updates now.
¡°If we update it every three to five months, I think this book can actually be read in a lifetime But what¡¯s the point of doing so?
It¡¯s slow and not straightforward at all. It leaves readers with a vague thought, and then is gradually forgottenuntil one day, it is discovered again at the bottom of the bookshelf. The last update was a year ago.
"Is he finally a eunuch?"
With that said, he threw it out of the bookshelf and disappeared from this world.
Why bother?
The Japanese often say ¡®break, let go, leave¡¯. Isn¡¯t this what we are talking about? Since it's time to part ways, there's no point in trying to stay. At least everyone can look forward to our next gathering.
I can at least say that I tried my best to leave an ending for this story and mark a new stage in their destiny.
In their future, they will fight their own war, sacrifice and bleed for it. Some people were ruined, some people gave up their ambitions to advance, some people had the last laugh, and some people became real winners.
And for me, a stage in my life has finally come to an end.
Think carefully??, the book "Heaven Drive" really carried out the most important turning point in my life.
During these two long years, I met many people. They are lively and smart, they are naughty and sensitive, they live freely in the big green forest, they are kind and brave, and they make each other happy
Sorry, as I write, my thoughts diverge again.
??????????????????????????????????????????? Speeches are usually long and smelly, but this one seems to be not long enough at the moment So I think you won¡¯t mind if you pour some water on it.
Nearly two years have passed so quickly. In the blink of an eye, I have encountered so many things. In the blink of an eye, I have gained a lot of weight.
But I always feel that I am still living in yesterday, and I am still the bored boy in the afternoon, looking up at the dust flying in the sun, imagining the future one day.
The future will be wonderful, without pain, and all worries will be thrown away into the sunshine as I run.
I like the innocent fantasy at that time.
I was re-watching some old movies a few days ago, and when I saw "This Killer Isn't Too Cold", I was obsessed with the dialogue between Ma Tingna and Leon.
In the stairway, Ma Tingna wiped her nosebleed and asked Lyon: "Life is always full of pain, or is it only like this when you are young?"
Leon thought seriously for a long time and told her:
"It's always like this."
If I had heard such words five years ago, I would have wiped my nosebleeds and told my uncle, "Oh shit. I just can't beat Liu Dachui, who is in his second year of high school. When I have a brother in the future, I will find someone to beat him in an alley." .¡±
But now I suddenly feel that what he said makes sense: after all, Liu Dachui also has brothers. If we meet in a narrow alley, I might be the one who gets beaten.
There is no way, life is always so painful, like a bunch of gorgeous lice with robes growing on them Even if Zhang Ailing is still alive, she can't wear it.
Fortunately, I never met Liu Dachui again
After many years, I find that I still don¡¯t seem to have changed. I am still myself, and the boy who likes to dream about the future is still alive in my heart and sometimes appears in my dreams.
Everything is the same as before, except that there are a lot more girls that I liked.
Those beautiful girls walked through my life, and when they passed by, their ponytails were flying in the wind. Sometimes you can't follow her and can only stand there and watch her drift away, and finally join hands with others and disappear into the mist caused by the distance.
About this. I had no choice but to swallow this bitter pill with sadness. Then let the core sprout and grow under your feet.
I guess there will be a new tree waiting for me to try again next year.
It¡¯s one of many pains, along with dreams that can¡¯t be realized, wishes that can¡¯t be reached, and a past that can¡¯t be returned to.
This is one of the many regrets in life. When the time comes, everyone will be stabbed and no one can escape.
In January this year, I went to Shanghai and spent a lot of money to buy a front-row concert ticket for the first time. It's a pity that the person on the stage is not a beautiful actress, but the old and gray-haired Li Zongsheng.
There were no young and beautiful girls accompanying me to the concert, only a group of giggling men.
"But Li Zongsheng is really so hot that it makes people fly, but he is so good that he can't do anything."
Even at that time, my negative emotions were so strong that I felt that I had been purified and achieved the great perfection and harmony of life Then, I drank until I passed out after making the bold statement, "Tonight I will complete the Tianqi" personnel.
Later, I woke up in the middle of the night and looked at the unfamiliar wall. Suddenly it felt like those flames had not been extinguished yet. They have been with me for so many years and have already flowed in my veins.
The half-time break is over, but I can still play.
This shitty reality can¡¯t defeat me, and the world can¡¯t defeat me. If Nerv doesn¡¯t send me an EVA driver¡¯s license, I won¡¯t admit defeat.
I changed from a dead dog to a defeated dog, and I could still get up after licking my wounds. Even if he dies, he will freeze to death and lie down at his opponent's door to scare him.
So, charging is completed.
¡°I can still be extremely arrogant, and I can still refuse to admit defeat.
It feels so good.
Later, I chatted with a senior who was famous for his honesty, kindness and integrity. After the chat, he asked me helplessly:
"Feng Yue, why are you obsessed with fighting the world?"
I thought carefully for a long time and felt that I didn¡¯t know, so I could only sigh and tell him:
"¡ª¡ªPerhaps, this is my destiny."
?I don¡¯t think he believed it, and I didn¡¯t believe it either¡ I really just said that, don¡¯t take it seriously, just listen to it. But sometimes I really feel that the reason why I am unwilling to compromise is because I think it is more handsome, right?
This story tells us: In order to look handsome, men will do any stupid thing.
¡°Especially since I am already in my twenties, and my friends are all getting married and having children, but I am still so naive, always scrutinizing the world and discerning some truths, and I deserve to be beaten with bruises and bruises on my face.
The title of this speech is "Fifty years have passed". Some people may still remember that the name of Steel's final speech is "Fifty Years in the Second World".
¡ª¡ªA life of fifty years is like a dream and an illusion compared with heaven and earth. How can there be immortality among those who are alive once?
These lines of "Dun Sheng" actually say that life is short, everyone should seize the time and do what you have. Get married when you should get married, fall in love when you should fall in love, come out bravely when you should come out
Life is so short and full of crisis. You never know when you will be alone, and it would be a pity if you don't seize the time to do something.
¡°But fifty years have passed, and I¡¯m still such a middle-class studentit¡¯s hopeless.
Rather than becoming more mature, she has become more cheerful and unruly, like a wild dog on the loose. Being so devoid of consciousness and sense of responsibility really disappoints the expectations of beautiful female readers. (If I still have beautiful female readers, please contact me. I will treat you to dinner in person and apologize. I firmly believe that you exist, but you just don¡¯t speak. You have been testing my sincerity)
Regarding the new book, maybe it will be soon, maybe not, maybe I may have to change my vest, this time everything is really possible.
I really don¡¯t have any ideas right now, and I don¡¯t have the energy to open another one in a short time.
Maybe I will meet you again in a while, I hope this time will be as short as possible. While you still remember me, we can all continue to get together.
??Thanks to the big brother who appeared at the beginning of the speech. I have been deeply influenced by him from beginning to end. During this period, he taught me a lot. Being able to work with him for a year and a half was the luckiest thing that happened to me. Unfortunately, I was too frivolous and didn't learn many things.
Thanks to my friend Isotone, even though he led a group to trick me thousands of times, as a tolerant person like me, I will definitely not blame him.
However, he often discriminates against me because I don¡¯t speak English, so I plan to find a friend to translate this passage in Japanese later, so that I can get rid of the discrimination. If I didn't read it, maybe I forgot.
????????????????? Thanks to Wu Dao and Ge Zi, they have noble character and sister-like attributes that I admire. They are both good guys who drink a lot of wine and eat meat, and they all listen to Li Zongsheng. They were perfect except for not introducing girls to me.
??Thanks to Lao Bai, Xu'er, Niangniang, Teacher Zhuanka, and friends in the Taoist group such as Yue Ma Boishui Pneumonia Barney. Although everyone has been infected by my bad words, I am still so honest and reliable in my work, which is really touching and brings tears to my eyes.
And among my readers, the group of readers on my Weibo, book review section, and post forum, they are as cute as Smurfs, except that they don¡¯t have girlfriends and they are all men New Year is coming, singles The cold winter has passed, everyone should leave the group as soon as possible.
Finally, thank you to those girls, I really hope we can meet again around the corner in the future.
Up to now, I have talked so much, but it will eventually come to an end.
I really want to say a few more nonsense words like "the past few years should be just a waste of good times and good times", but it's a pity that I don't know how to say that kind of thing.
Jiang Hu Nuo Da, everyone, take care, and see you later.
I hope that one day, you can still remember me.
¡ª¡ªFengyue
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