1. I feel so depressed that it¡¯s hard to explain.
¡°It is true that the woman who lost her virginity staged an unspeakable and depressing farce, and the protagonist of the play was Qiu Chan. Although she is challenging tradition, challenging the love culture of the era of wealth, and challenging the future of happiness, her fragile inner world will inevitably cover up the emptiness of a woman's lustful appearance.
"Did she tell you anything?" Tian Yaqin also hated this kind of person, thinking that this kind of man has no humanity and is worse than an animal.
"I didn't say anything. Apart from sympathy, what else can I do? There is no other way." Qiu Chan's performance was very good. In addition to deceiving herself, Yaqin was also deceived.
When encountering this kind of thing, Tian Yaqin couldn't find a better way for a while, and didn't even have the words to explain it.
It was so pitiful that such a thing happened to a woman, so unbelievable, and such a huge insult to her Yaqin felt very uncomfortable for a moment, as if she was tormented by a sudden misfortune, It hit her heart hard. Of course, it touches her emotionally because she is also a woman. So she clearly believes that everything in human activities will be based on people's kindness, purity, beauty, and sincerity, giving people more warmth. In fact, this is not the case, not at all. In real life, deception, shame, helplessness, and sinful behavior pass by.
Tian Yaqin has not found any effective words to answer this woman in the silence. Apart from feeling guilty for this unfortunate woman's death, what better way can she save? Sympathy may be the best explanation.
Qiu Chan felt even worse. There was an unspeakable bitterness in her silence. She did not want to tell anyone about the surprising incident. On the contrary, in order to get rid of the unhappiness that clung to her soul, she forced this shameful thing on another woman to sympathize with her and let others sympathize with her. .
However, she doesn't want to think about this troublesome and sad thing anymore, nor does she want to take it to heart so that she can't have peace. Besides, she didn't know the woman - no, that was not the case, not at all. She didn't want to think about him anymore, and besides burying these ulterior shames deep in her heart, she tried desperately to forget him. This may be a new beginning for her to find safety, as childish, pure, lively and carefree as she was when she was a teenager. It was as if nothing had happened to her, and she felt that everything had just begun. She was as calm as entering life for the first time, and treated everything around her with a strong will.
"Qiu Chan, I thought of an incomplete solution." Tian Yaqin first expressed her thoughts in silence. She said: "I think this problem will not be difficult, and he will definitely help take care of it. ."
Qiu Chan¡¯s smile seemed to reveal shyness and ridicule. So she said: "I know you will definitely find a way, otherwise why would I give you the resounding name of Senior Staff Officer?"
"Look at you, are you kidding me again? It's annoying. Besides, I'm ignoring you!" Yaqin's bright red face was particularly sunny today: "I want to entrust this matter to someone who is also your very favorite person." A good and trusted friend.¡±
"Who is he?" Qiu Chan asked in surprise.
"Zhang Jianguo, didn't you say he likes to help? If we ask him to come forward in this matter, it will be much more convenient than us asking other people to do it, don't you think?"
Qiu Chan did not expect such a result, let alone that she would say his name. After spinning around in a big circle, Yaqin still couldn't get out of this strange circle. Yaqin was still thinking of him. The original idea was to give Yaqin a difficult debut problem and discuss how to solve the correct answer to the problem. However, the problem turned around and fell on him again.
"Now that you believe Zhang Jianguo, are you sure that he will help with this matter?"
"I thinkI don't object to doubting someone, but I'm not sure about trusting someone. If we give it a try, it might be better to find one more person, and things might get done faster. Besides"
"Stop talking, do you have to find him? Are all the others dead?" Qiu Chan suddenly lost her temper. She was furious and her mood changed very quickly. She was fine before, but she turned against her in the blink of an eye. . What's wrong with her? Why am I so excited and angry at the mention of 'his' name. After a while, she calmed down. Maybe she was too rude just now!
"I don't want to get involved in this matter anymore, and I don't plan to ask anyone to ask for it anymore. Besides, what does it have to do with me? Why should I interfere with other people's affairs? She and I are just ordinary friends. At first, I sympathized - Sympathizing that she shouldn't be taken up by someone else, I later changed my mind because it was possible that the matter itself was more serious than I thought."
Yaqin stared in shock - looking at Qiu Chan's unnaturally pale face. She has changed too much. She is selfish and heartless.??Sympathy is not what it used to be. It is the need of the times for people to change during the reform, and while other people change little by little, Qiu Chan changes by leaps and bounds, which is difficult to accept for a while.
¡°So that¡¯s it, don¡¯t you think it¡¯s too selfish?¡±
"Yes - wouldn't it be selfish if I took care of her? What a joke." The scene played by Qiu Chan was so wonderful that she originally wanted to find an actor to play the leading role, but she played the supporting role herself, but the result was the opposite, and the leading role was cast in supporting roles. It all fell on her.
Yaqin, apart from thinking she was selfish, just got to know her again. Get to know her cover-up, and get to know her cunning way of turning tears into laughter.
"Disappointed, very disappointed."
"Maybebut Yaqin, if you don't understand me, you will never understand me."
Qiu Chan turned her back to Yaqin, feeling guilty, helpless, unspeakable, and boring topics that she couldn't explain, all of which made her feel ashamed.
"I don't think what you said is completely right. Why don't I understand you? I know that you are too naive to think about the problem, and you are pursuing something you shouldn't get based on your childish character and simple concepts. I also know that you are better than Everyone is selfish and has a smaller mind than anyone else." Yaqin said this to give her a little stimulation and touch her.
Despite this, Qiu Chan was not touched. At this moment, she was more aware, more guilty, and more unspeakable than before. So she said excitedly: "No - Yaqin, scold me severely! Maybe I am worse, more selfish and hypocritical than you think. II admit that all this has nothing to do with you, you will never You won¡¯t understand me.¡±
Tian Yaqin felt that it was too sudden. She didn't know what had something to do with her being so staggered, let alone the causes and consequences of Qiu Chan's mood becoming so rough for a while. She has been with her for such a long time, and in her heart Qiu Chan's character has always been open-minded. What exactly happened in front of her made him so unhappy.
Of course, things between people are very complicated and mysterious. Even the closest friends and the most intimate classmates will not take the initiative to open up their hearts on mysterious issues. Sometimes, even though friends open the door, Mysterious words are not opened. Sometimes, even though there are various opportunities to chat together, the mysterious heart is like a high wall, blocking it in front of you and you can't see anything. Sometimes, even though I know a little bit, I may feel good about myself, but in fact it is an illusion, and I later realize that it was a scam. Now she puts these abnormal phenomena of Qiu Chan together to analyze, and then dyes them with some life colors-then let her own eyes identify them.
Qiu Chan suddenly became more excited at this time, and the change in her expression aggravated her abnormal mood. She looked at Yaqin like a madman. She didn't speak at this time, her eyes looked a little guilty, tears flowed from the corners of her eyes, and she looked very sad. After about ten minutes with this attitude, she still didn't speak, and her eyes were still so sad. After another ten minutes, her nerves seemed to be suddenly frightened by an accident. At this time, her spirit began to be abnormal, and she rushed out of the door like a madman.
"Qiu Chan, calm down, don't be like this." Tian Yaqin followed, and soon she was gone.
Where has she gone?
Are you going to look for that ** girl? Tian Yaqin looked at the dense shade of trees around the dormitory, feeling empty in her heart and saying nothing.