The struggle of ideologies, the struggle of thoughts, and all the factors that constitute "self" are also fighting. Compared with physical trauma, these invisible traumas are more frightening. I don¡¯t know how many Nazi soldiers and security guards I killed. They seemed to be endless, and the killings they caused were monotonous and full of mechanical feeling. I got involved in this war and became a screw in it. In the super huge sacrificial ceremony I imagined, the observation of myself and the logical self-consistency in the observation are becoming monotonous. There is a limit to a person's imagination. The longer I stay on this battlefield, the more clearly I can feel this. Every time I make logical self-consistencies, every time I think, I squeeze my own imagination and Logical thinking ability, when imagination begins to dry up, logical thinking ability can no longer produce more contradictions, and everything that can be thought about is like being compressed into only a few questions. These questions seem to be the ultimate in philosophy. However, I feel that this is only the ultimate within the limits of my own cognition and thinking, not the ultimate in the true sense.
I don¡¯t know how long it took, but it became increasingly difficult for me to find new things in my imagination and thinking. Whether it is something I think I understand or something I cannot understand, I keep repeating it. I just feel like a fish swimming in a waterway that is gradually drying up. Without new water sources, it will only make me feel that the range where I can settle is getting narrower and more turbid. I can clearly feel that my thinking is starting to become rigid. The harder I try to think, the more depressing I feel like my head is being clamped.
My body is still breathing and metabolizing, and all physiological activities have not slowed down due to the injury, but have become more and more intense. On the contrary, all activities on the level of spiritual consciousness are like a rusting machine, constantly making a creaking sound. I feel that my current predicament is inevitable, but if I have more knowledge and more active inspiration, I will definitely delay the arrival of this feeling.
I can't solve such an attack, I can't see the enemy launching this attack, and all the mysterious power can't lock on a specific target. What's the use of killing Nazi soldiers and security guards? The pressure I received from the ideological and conscious level has never been weakened by the reduction of individual enemies. Self-observation cannot fundamentally expand imagination and cannot solve problems of thinking and thought. Therefore, self-observation cannot reverse this invisible danger.
This invisible attack was so effective that it even made me wonder if the Doomsday Truth Cult had already planned to defeat me in this way, so they didn¡¯t send out the final weapon. I must admit that under such huge pressure, I would rather the opponent be a final weapon that can be seen and touched, rather than such an erosion of the ideological level.
I can't see the end no matter what. I can feel the direction in which I am heading, but even if I keep moving in that direction for an unknown amount of time, I still see a dense mass of Nazi soldiers and security guards standing in front of me. I felt like I was going crazy. My imagination, my thinking ability, and my self-awareness seemed to have been drained away, leaving only a shriveled outer skin. If you don't think about it, if you don't think about it
If you don¡¯t think about it, can you take a break?
Almost as soon as I stopped thinking subconsciously, I suddenly struggled out of this tempting behavior. Even so, I couldn't confirm how long I stopped thinking. When I thought about it, I could clearly feel that there was a blank space inserted. in his own memory. What did you do during this blank time? What was done again? Completely impossible to know. All I know is that when I forced myself to wake up, I was still killing enemies around me, and it seemed that even when I stopped thinking, my body was still driven by inertia to do such things.
I know that I will probably stop thinking suddenly again and fall into the blank space of being unaware of it. When all my conscious actions stop, even if my body is still moving, my "Gaochuan" will cease to exist. This outcome may not have a direct impact on others, but the impact on the final Gao Chuan plan may be quite fatal.
In Dorothy and Xise's plan, such a situation must not have been originally envisaged, because in every doomsday fantasy in the past, there was always only one "Gaochuan". I now hope that when Dorothy and Xiese targeted "Jiang" and denied that I was "Gaochuan", they also imagined that I would disappear like this. Their final Gaochuan plan should be rigorous. They should know what impact my disappearance will have if I am not just a puppet of "Jiang" but also "Gaochuan".
If I say that before, I still felt like a fish struggling in a gradually drying up waterway.Well, now, I think this waterway has completely dried up. My consciousness is blurring. It is not like falling into a nightmare in the past, nor is it the confusion when falling into sleep, but a sincere and thorough feeling that myself is fading and disappearing. When a person is unable to recognize himself, the self may still exist. However, now, I feel that the act of self-recognition is ineffective precisely because "self" is gradually disappearing.
Where did the disappeared "self" go? What has become? I couldn't sense at all that maybe it was becoming part of the sacrificial ritual.
"I am going to disappear" Deep in my heart, I heard my weak voice. It seemed that there were other voices coming from the distant dark depths of my heart, but I could no longer hear them clearly.
I don¡¯t know when I started standing in this darkness. I know that this is my own soul, and this apparently dark space is also becoming thinner. It¡¯s not something I see directly, it¡¯s something I feel, and the feeling is fading. I am trying to find the existence of "river" here, just like in the past, feeling its pulse at the bottom of the dark and deep abyss. However, I didn't find it. I felt that it had always been here, and it always told me with its presence that it was here. But now, I can't find it.
I am completely left with only myself, and now, it seems that even myself is gone.
I try to think hard, but what should I think about at this time? When I am thinking, I feel that I am a mental patient. However, when I cannot even think, I am no longer even a "mental patient". If, if at the end of this, I still want to say something to someone, then maybe it is:
Eat me, Gao Chuan.
Eat me, then I will still be a part of "Gaochuan".
If it¡¯s still too late It turns out that this is the deviation of "Gaochuan", and it is here, in this way
The last moment when you can still feel yourself is the flickering spark before the candle is extinguished, and the complete darkness after the first light.
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The heart is beating violently. No, it is not the physical heart beating, but the center of the soul, the part like the "heart" is throbbing. The prosthetic Gao Chuan felt that something bad had happened, but he could not rely on intuition to guess what it was. He knew that this battlefield was undergoing drastic changes, because in an unknown corner, the light of the torch was completing the final deviation ceremony. This time, Torchlight has invested everything, and it will inevitably create an unprecedented "deviation", which will also inevitably affect every factor on this battlefield. Things that were originally predictable, things that were originally logical, and things that were supposed to exist will all undergo some unpredictable changes.
Torchlight has always been a core member of nog. Prostitute Gao Chuan does not intend to doubt the position of those people when creating deviations. It is even conceivable that when they created this strongest "deviation", they were probably subjectively If you want to take advantage of "deviation", you can reverse all the factors that are beneficial to the enemy. All the mysterious experts who know about the Torch Light, and even the Torch Light itself, are very clear that the "deviations" they create do not distinguish between ourselves and the enemy. They will not only cause the enemy to fall into unfavorable deviations, but also put their own people into unfavorable deviations. middle.
However, even if no deviation is created, the enemy is currently in an advantageous position. By creating a deviation, there may be a kind of luck, which can cause the enemy to suffer more serious damage when it harms others but does not benefit oneself.
However, this kind of luck has never happened in the past many years of Torchlight¡¯s activities. The prosthetic body Gao Chuan did not expect that they could succeed this time. On the contrary, probably no one except Torch Light itself would have good expectations for the deviation ceremony of Torch Light.
The only thing that is certain is that the situation that is gradually becoming clearer will once again fall into chaos. All the order that should have been formed will once again fall into chaos.
The prosthetic body Gao Chuan never entertains the idea of ??luck and feels that he will not be affected. Moreover, facts have proven that this impact has already occurred. An incredible monster that has never been seen before, so powerful that even the Three Immortals Island cannot handle it.
The palpitations that suddenly appeared now must be because the influence of the deviation has once again caused a bad change in some aspect of my side.
The impact of "deviation" is such that people are caught off guard, because if it can be prevented in advance, it is basically a "deviation".
In the end what happened? This feeling is like knowing that you have forgotten something, but it is difficult to remember what you have forgotten in the first place.
The prosthetic body Gao Chuan tightly grasped the pipeline that penetrated the body. The pain from the body gave him a feeling that could reduce the burden on his mind and consciousness. He felt that this was an illusion.
His will emerged from his heart and turned into a signal that shuttled through the prosthetic body and pipelines and spread in the huge Three Immortals Island. Countless information pop-ups that only he could see unfolded before his eyes. The feedback from Sanxian Island was so rapid that when flying on the new route, the Nazi soldiers and security guards who came one after another were crushed to death in large areas like a colony of ants. The Three Immortals Island has an essence that exceeds the accumulation of the individual numbers of both sides. Without the Three Immortals Island, the prosthetic Gao Chuan does not feel that he can easily survive on such a terrifying battlefield.
The mysterious phenomenon that occurred on this battlefield seems chaotic, but according to the statistics of Sanxian Island, it is complex and orderly. Using powerful observation and computing capabilities, as well as a high degree of mystery, 99% of the mysterious phenomena that appear to occur out of order on this battlefield can be classified. Although the process of their occurrence cannot be analyzed, they can Roughly identify the effects that these mysterious phenomena can produce within the observable range. Analyzing only the results, there is no doubt that this is a huge ritual structure because all the observable effects and the conceivable meanings from the effects, combined together, basically fill the necessary requirements for a sacrificial ceremony. Basic properties and extended properties.
The entire battlefield is part of the sacrificial ceremony, with various fighting behaviors, rescue behaviors, seemingly crazy behaviors, etc., the meaning of all behaviors and behavior methods, and even when distinguishing camps on a macro level, each one The meaning represented by the camp, as well as the specific meaning contained in each individual. All parts that can be observed and analyzed can rise to the metaphysical level, and then coexist in a contradictory and unified way, and are connected in a philosophical sense.
¡°It has been guessed from the beginning that this war is inevitable, and the Doomsday Truth Cult will inevitably take advantage of this war. The situations observed, understood and felt now all prove this conjecture.
After defeating and sealing the incredible monster, the prosthetic Gao Chuan was covered in wounds, but after that, there was no enemy of the same level on this battlefield. However, if this incredible monster itself is regarded as a "deviation", then the prosthetic Gao Chuan has to wonder whether he has really solved the "deviation". In this huge whirlpool that is already full of gunpowder smoke, death and mystery, something is probably happening in other places that cannot be observed, and whether my behavior of defeating this incredible monster has also become " What about "deviation" part?
He is very clear: deviations will have a chain reaction, and any seemingly correct action may become a link in deepening the deviation.
The depth and intensity of Torchlight¡¯s deviation ceremony can only be known from the subsequent chain reactions and the pressure it brings if you are not present at the deviation ceremony for the first time.
However, the current situation Although it is difficult to imagine, Gao Chuan, the young man carrying "Jiang", seems to have been unable to prevent the completion of the deviation ritual.
"Young Gao Chuan?" When this image flashed through the mind of the prosthetic Gao Chuan, he suddenly felt goosebumps in his heart.