Wang Jian rested his head on his hands and looked at the dirty ceiling, holding a leaf he picked up from somewhere in his mouth. When Shanova's voice came from the darkness, he naturally agreed.
"Liar. You're not even asleep." Shanova's voice floated softly: "I'm going to be twenty-six years old soon, and tomorrow is my birthday."
"Happy birthday." Wang Jian chuckled, lit the lighter with a click, and then put the orange flame in front of Shanova: "Make a wish."
"Yeah!" Shanova put her hands on her chest, closed her eyes and muttered quickly, then blew out the flames vigorously.
After she blew it out, the small warehouse turned dark again, both of them were silent, and no one spoke anymore.
The cold wind at night was whistling outside the house. It was quite warm in the warehouse, but the atmosphere suddenly dropped to freezing point. There is no reason, no reason, just because Shanova said that she was about to be twenty-six years old.
"You know? In the dead of night like this, I often think about death." Shanova said softly: "For people like me who can get whatever they want, the only regret is that they can't say goodbye once and for all. A trip that just goes away cannot be a love that can be let go. I feel like a rag, very dirty and messy."
Wang Jian lit up another cigarette with a click: "What wish did you just make?"
"I hope I can die in the arms of the man I like." Shanova stopped being cute and her voice became very heavy: "Maybe tomorrow. Maybe one day in the future."
After saying that, she smiled slightly and said: "Baboon. I have a hunch that our journey is coming to an end. Thank you, I am very happy. I think these are the happiest days of my life, no need to pretend I don¡¯t have to worry about it, just be myself. If I get into trouble, someone will protect me, someone will take care of me when I¡¯m hungry, and someone will hold me when I¡¯m cold. Thank you, thank you very much.¡±
Wang Jian lowered his voice and said "hmm" from his nasal cavity.
"Baboon. Can you tell me what you most hope for in life? I want to hear your hopes."
"Okay." Wang Jian opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling with a smile: "I have the most unrealistic dream in my heart, and I have never told anyone else."
When Shanova heard this, her eyes suddenly lit up: "Have you never told your wife?"
"NoI'm sorry." Wang Jian touched his head angrily: "How do you know I have a wife?"
"Because you wore a wedding ring, you silly bird." Shanova curled her lips: "But I guarantee that your wife is not as beautiful as me."
"Yes, yes, you are the most beautiful, okay." Wang Jian shook his head helplessly: "What I wanted most at that time was to be with a few brothers. We had long hair shawl and wore jeans with holes. In Leng Leng In winter, poor people spend all their money, eat a hot hot pot, drink two glasses of spicy inferior spirits, and then take out their guitars to sing a spicy song "Ge'er. When encountering injustice, everyone rushes forward. Even if his head is broken, he will never regret it. Even if he dies, he will still be a good man twenty years from now."
As he spoke, Wang Jian rubbed his hands and sniffed, his voice full of longing: "We go from one city to another. During the day we do our own thing, and at night we get together to do what we like. One of them A person has a girl he likes. Others laugh at him, but they will try their best to help him. There is no need to think about betrayal or how to get along with him. He will be scolded and beaten. After the fight, there will be no winner. . There was a drinking competition, whoever lay down first was the puppy. We also ate watermelon together on the roadside and whistled at the beautiful girl passing by. The girl rolled her eyes at us, and we laughed together. "
"We have nothing to fear, because we can rely on each other, and we are ignorant and self-righteous heroes. Then as we grow up, someone leaves us and starts a family first. A bunch of us will rush to his house in the middle of the night and eat all the food in his refrigerator. Everything, and then he put his wife¡¯s facial mask on his face to pretend to be a little monster, but he wouldn¡¯t be a little angry, but would kick our butts and tell us to get out and buy some more to eat.¡±
After saying that, Wang Jian turned to look at Shanova with a shy expression. Although he couldn't see anything in the dark room, he could clearly feel that Shanova was smiling at him: "Isn't it so childish? ?¡±
"No I think it's so romantic." Shanova shook her head gently: "A man's romance is the real romance. Why didn't you become the person you imagined in the end? I think this is not difficult?"
Wang Jian chuckled: "I can't exist if I live in this world."?In my own imagination. I am a man, no matter how much I think, I cannot let myself become a wisp of wind. I want to live up to my ancestors and live up to the people around me. Among the things my father taught me, the most important thing is responsibility. As long as a man takes responsibility, it is enough, and he will let go of other things. "
"Wouldn't this be tiring?"
"No, people always have to have a little hope. A life without flaws is imperfect. My life is already wonderful and perfect. My beloved woman, my friends around me, and a man can make my friends stable and able. To make the enemy respect me and make everyone think that he is not a bad person, I think I have done enough. After all, I am not a god or a saint, I try my best, that's all."
¡°Shanova hummed, and then fell into silence for a while, as if she couldn¡¯t bear to interrupt Wang Jian¡¯s rumination on his once innocent and immature dream.
"But after all, it's really silly now that I think about it." Wang Jian suddenly laughed stupidly: "Where can such a life exist? It's really"
"I can't imagine it." Shanova took a deep breath: "The world I have been exposed to since I was a child is completely different from yours. My world is full of hatred, killing and interests. My father told me that this world can bring you People who have interests are useful people, friends are not needed, and lovers are also used to achieve a certain purpose. I have a strong sense of distrust towards people, and I am also very, very afraid of betrayal. So I often choose to put the possibility The person who betrayed me was nipped in the bud. So I can only try to imagine the life you talk about, but I can¡¯t describe it.¡±
"Yes. You are a bad person." Wang Jian laughed: "You are a heinous bad person."
"Well, I am a bad person and you are a good person. Maybe this is the biggest difference between us."
"Maybe." Wang Jian chuckled: "Go to bed early, happy birthday."
"Thanks."
After that, although neither of them slept, they never spoke again. They listened quietly to each other's breathing until the sky became dim and bright. They fell asleep at the same time.
When Wang Jian woke up, it was already noon. He sat up in a daze, only to find that Shanova had disappeared. Instead, there was a note on the flour bag where she slept.
"Wang Jian, thank you. In fact, I already knew it was you from the first day you came to me. You stupid baboon. I love you so deeply, how could I not see your habitual little actions? Yeah. I wanted to expose you a long time ago, but when you flicked my forehead and slapped my head with your hand, I couldn't bring myself to do it.
Thank you for accompanying me on this journey. Maybe this is the best and most perfect gift I have ever received in my life. I love you. But we were born to be enemies, and I can¡¯t fall deeper into it.
I¡¯m leaving, no need to ask why. We are enemies, I want to let go, but it's like you said. I also need to be responsible for the people around me, and I also have my promises and oaths. I also have my persistence and persistence. I want to indulge with you, but I know there is not much time left for me in the future.
listen! I said, if that day comes, I will definitely carve a scar in your heart. "
When Wang Jian walked out, he was somewhat lost. As if he had lost something, he silently looked up at the gray sky. All the sounds around him dimmed as if it were a world away. The voices of people and the sound of rain merged into a buzzing noise in his ears.
Of course he knew that this day would come sooner or later, because when he came into contact with Shanova on the first day, her eyes made it clear that she recognized him.
"But if she doesn't tell the truth, Wang Jian naturally won't tell the truth either. Along the way, Wang Jian accepted all her cute willfulness, all her delicate fragility, and all her helpless dependence.
Shanova¡¯s desire for revenge is really strong. Wang Jian¡¯s farewell on the rooftop was a perfect revenge. Now all Wang Jian's memories of Shanova remain on the small red rope bracelet that Shanova knitted for him when he had nothing to do.
When leaving this time, Wang Jian knew that she might never come back again. The days of playing around were almost over. Maybe she had already made plans when she told herself yesterday that today was her birthday.
So be it, as he said himself, a person's life without any regrets is imperfect.
After smoking a cigarette vigorously, Wang Jian put his hands in his pockets and used the water dripping from the eaves to clean off the ridiculous baboon makeup on his face, restoring his sharply angular face and eyes full of murderous intent. His beard has turned green, making Wang Jian look much older than before, but also much more vicissitudes of life.
"You've been following me all the way, come out. After a long detour, Wang Jian stopped in a dead end. There was nothing around except a few wild cats warming themselves under the eaves: "Don't force me to do anything." "
When Wang Jian spoke, he did not raise his head. He just faced the front silently and seemed to be talking aimlessly. But after he finished speaking, two people suddenly appeared from behind him.
"Are you looking for me or Shanova?"
Wang Jian frowned and his eyes became murderous. When he was in a bad mood, Wang Jian was definitely a cold-blooded meat grinder. When he saw these two people, he felt that they were not good people.
"Hand over the eldest lady." One of the men with a physique like The Rock raised his chin.
Wang Jian shrugged: "She's gone."
The two men looked at each other, then took out a short knife from their waists: "Then there is no need for you to exist."
Wang Jian whistled and leaned against the wall: "This is not what you say." (To be continued.)